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|Author:||Strange Collage Guy [ Thu Sep 04, 2014 9:45 am ]|
|Blog Subject:||Sweet Dreams|
Simple dream so sweet
Visit me while I sleep
Even when I rest my head
Prepare me, like the dead
And if you leave me in my slumber
I hope you forgive me of my blunders
For it is you my lovely lovely loving dreams
That provide hope for the hopeless and goals for the lost.
Kind dreams don't ever leave me. For I cannot leave you.
|Author:||Strange Collage Guy [ Thu Sep 04, 2014 9:32 am ]|
|Blog Subject:||An Old Soul....|
An old soul so quiet and bear
an old soul no one cares
An old soul wise and weeps
an old soul ready to reap
An old soul mighty and strong,
an old soul takin' along
An old soul rugged and weary,
an old soul timely, waiting
Oh Old Soul so sorrowful wonderful carefully wise not to be despised by familial ties.
|Author:||Strange Collage Guy [ Sun Apr 14, 2013 9:47 pm ]|
|Blog Subject:||Raw Mental Thoughts As They Are|
Just gonna type what im thinking about, almost a stream of thought.
See people all around college, their all so happy, I'm the lonely one, senior in college lost friends barely around, lost my girlfriend, the future after college is uncertain no job gaurantee, how do people make relationships look so easy, maybe I'm just used to being the lone wolf, like my other post it's what I am or at least I what learned to be, I have my sociopathic traits under control I'm not feral I'm a good guy, not enough I guess, some days I feel like giving up whats the point of putting up with everything , maybe I'm the type of person no one wants to talk to, if I were to die tomorrow I would have no regrets I did what I wanted to do, feel sad as if there is nothing else for me to do, people have friends I dont but maybe that the way its suppose to be, I don't drink bu sometimes I feel like drinking it bad for my health but maybe it's a good thing I don't I would I drowned my pains away a long time ago, would be drinking out of depression, the lies I told people were to make them or keep them happy usually constructed with some fabric of truth but I was for there benefit even if it's in a falsified sense of reason, I'm like a magician I know the trick but to everyone else it's as real as it can get i see ow why people commit suicide they want that peaceful feeling they want the ache to finally stop the itch has been scratched I miss her so much, I miss them all, we'll all meet up at some point in the future in this life or the next, oh while guess ill keep going and going going going until I receive the gift of nothingness, peaceful so peaceful the sky looks and the bare trees
|Author:||Strange Collage Guy [ Sat Jan 19, 2013 11:38 pm ]|
|Blog Subject:||New Experience and New Lessons.|
Its been a while, nothing special happened really so far for the new year. With all that has been going on in the world I'm surprised that I lived through the year, but glad to see the closing of another year. A few months ago I had been talking to this girl, and I actually liked her, didn't know exactly what drew me closer to her but it was fun while it lasted I guess. She decided to see some other guy behind my back without telling me for quite some time, I had a feeling I knew what was going on but I decided for the first time to not listen to my gut feeling, to not listen and follow my instincts, to play "the fool" if you will. And for that I have paid the price.
I still don't know the exact reason why I did what I did, maybe it was just to bask in the feelings of happiness for a while I guess or something, with someone that was kinda of, I guess you can say "realistic" about life and how it can turn out. So we decided... well she decided to leave me on new years eve, I didn't ask her to stay or anything its not like I put a ring on her finger, but if that's what she wanted to do, so be it. I learned two thing from this experience, well one very important lesson and that is to never turn away from your instincts, never. Even if you can't follow it to a "tee" at that very moment, never just ignore or forget it, always keep it, not in the back of your mind but in the front of it.
Strange Collage Guy.....the lone wolf at it again.......
|Author:||Strange Collage Guy [ Sun Aug 26, 2012 10:11 am ]|
|Blog Subject:||Feel like letting everthing go...|
Recently for the past few days, I just, felt like letting everything go. I find myself reminiscing more and more about the my past. The good ole days when I was normal, when I enjoyed things, when I had a normal range of emotion. Feels strange to do that. I like those days. I know if I died I won't really be remembered so much, I haven't really made an impact. For my funeral I would just like pretty much two things. 1) To play one of my favorite songs "Disorder' by Joy division and maybe another song. And 2) I don't want anyone making a speech talking about me. If they feel compelled to speak for some reason, I prefer them to talk about the good and the bad equally, that I have done. I'm just tired going to a funeral and the person speaking there, would then tell the audience what good the deceased has done and praise him/her for it. As far as I''m concerned everything you wanted to tell me, you could have told me while I was alive.
I feel at peace and happy when I think about my young childhood, me being 6 or 7 years old imagining myself running around the yard, just having fun. My mother and I taking trips to the movies and going to some restaurant after. Or going to some fair that might be in the area.....I miss those days....truly I really do. ("The world isn't fair, the people we really need and love, just seem to disappear."-Strange Collage Guy)
I feel at peace, and relieved in a way, when I look at the flowing trees in the wind, and then look into that ever blue sky on a clear sunny day, and just close my eyes, the rays reflecting off my eyelids and lose myself in its essence and peacefulness about them. I think most people don't pay attention to these things at all or at least not enough.The sunlight.... those beautiful trees.... so peaceful.
Sometimes I feel tired it comes and goes, not physically tired, but a type of tired that's deep inside that needs a long deserved rest. A long peaceful rest.
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