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| Author: | Squaredonutwheels [ Sun Oct 21, 2018 2:27 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | need time |
just another player nothing to see here thought he was interesting maybe he was different but hes just another tool just the same as all the rest what a let down why am i surprised just another player another coward that spreads his focus a boy, not a man just another child with a wandering eye no worse, worse than a man, worse than a child, he is nothing nothing at all a void a hungry void of nothing less than real, even less than fake how could i not see that i want to be defined by one his and his alone we touch, we love, we laugh, we exist we set the boundaries of the real he is mine and mine alone just mine MINE i am love i am brilliant i want to be the sole focus not shared like a toy not blurred, not a smear I am too ######6 unique to be shared too important to be scattered not passed by like im nothing im better than that i hate myself loathe everything about me right now but im still better than that i may be shattered, broken dysfunction yet i am change i will make it i melt the shards and recombine I have blood i have a heart made of flesh it hurts but it beats it pounds f*ck you im no fool for you its not for you cloaked in doubt but nose still high she retreats back inside she goes quiet she shields her presence from him she re entombs her fire in ice no one deserves her she is gone it's not time yet the failure is a signal that it's not time he watches from afar, i pray that she find her fool soon the one that can never abandon her the one that will always be there for her he may be ugly, he may be foul, he maybe the devil, the void but that ugly ######6 frog is the prince that will make her whole because it's you and then maybe then just maybe if it seems so far i know she'll make it but what about me will I make it do i have what it takes to be the fool i try but fail and fail again how can i do this break these patterns i must break these patterns i can change, i will be new i am i will i must its a race against time I need to complete me change, demand it be it live up to my words oh im such a pathetic weakling but in choice i find strength i must make it i will i will even if i go mad even if i die i choose |
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