Hugs as well. I wish you wouldn't feel dejection over this, although it is a loss.
You may need more than he may be comfortable with giving. This is nobody's fault.
Deep breath and focus on what is in front of you.
It is a process and not an event. Sort yourself out first. Love will follow.
Nobody can hurry others along or 'make' things like this happen. Please remember that it is all in God's time. You have a lot on your plate right now.
Spend time with Toby. Cat's can sense our pain and love us unconditionally. I can sob on Peggy's tummy and she just purrs at me.
- Wally.