var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed'; var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/random_blogs_c-3.html'; var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com'; var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum'; var time = 'Wed, 03 Sep 2025 19:59:47 -0400'; var data = new Array(); data[0] = new Array(); data[0]['title'] = 'Help! I need a new coping skill.'; data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/help%C7%83_i_need_a_new_coping_skill._c-3_u-258910_b-6906.html'; data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/help%C7%83_i_need_a_new_coping_skill._c-3_u-258910_b-6906.html'; data[0]['username'] = 'shortsnorts'; data[0]['blog_id'] = '6906'; data[0]['blog_message'] = 'I self harmed for two years. I began starting a new coping skill that has been really effective; eating. Although, I'm worried because I had a slight eating disorder before, eating might draw me back in it agaian.'; data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 13 May 2014 00:33:56 -0400'; data[1] = new Array(); data[1]['title'] = 'Do I have some serious disorder or something?'; data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_some_serious_disorder_or_something%CA%94_c-3_u-195253_b-4712.html'; data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_some_serious_disorder_or_something%CA%94_c-3_u-195253_b-4712.html'; data[1]['username'] = 'summerbummer'; data[1]['blog_id'] = '4712'; data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I'm 19 years old and for my entire life I've been having troubles feeling anything at all. I always thought there was some logical and simple explanation to why I wasn't like everyone else, and I assumed it would heal with time, but it didn't. It just keeps getting worse. First let me begin with that I'm completely unable to open up to other people. I have never opened up. To anyone. If I'm even close to doing it I feel disgusted by myself, I get nausea and an urge to flee. I've also never cared like others. I can't really feel empathy. Or I mean, I can, for like animals and my family, but no one else. I'm literally serious when I say my best friend could die tomorrow and I wouldn't be able to feel a thing. Obviously I'd think it's sad, but it wouldn't effect me on an emotional level.

I hide this part of me, and I certainly don't talk about it with anyone. I want to be normal but I just can't. I have tried to involve myself in other people, in relationships, and even - in my sillier moments - in love. But it doesn't work. Something in me is broken or missing. I love my immediate family, but that's about it. I can lie without feeling any kind of remorse, I manipulate people very easily, and when someone really gets on my bad side, I just attack their weaknesses and break them down with words. It's terrible, I know, but I can't stop. Even as I write it, I know I say it's terrible, but I don't feel terrible. I just know that it's not how a person should act. I could never physically hurt another person, but not because it would make me feel bad but more because I know it's wrong.

My condition is just getting worse, I've started to distance myself from everybody because I feel so tired of wearing a mask and constantly faking to like what they like or play their stupid games. I don't love others. I'm incapable of feeling on a deeper level, there are no strong emotions in me. I feel narcisstic but at the same time I hate myself. I can get furious very easily but it goes away as quickly as it comes. I haven't had such a bad childhood but I mean my mother was going through her hardest part of life when I was a kid, and she took it out on me a lot. Sometimes physically but mostly mentally, such as I constantly heard that I was a bad kid, and bad news, and she blamed me for a lot of stuff that wasn't really my fault. She changed and got so much better when I was like 13 or something and now she's the best mom ever and apologized 200 times but I can't seem to let go. It's stuck with me.. I'm seriously worried that my condition will become worse and something bad will happen... What's wrong with me?'; data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 29 May 2013 13:16:46 -0400'; data[2] = new Array(); data[2]['title'] = 'Dirty Feelings and Fantasy'; data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/dirty_feelings_and_fantasy_c-3_u-323070_b-9472.html'; data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/dirty_feelings_and_fantasy_c-3_u-323070_b-9472.html'; data[2]['username'] = 'fantasyboy'; data[2]['blog_id'] = '9472'; data[2]['blog_message'] = 'i am 23 year old and doing a job as a designer.
now a days my feelings is very dirty and i start doing fantasy about dirty things.
i can't explain what should i do now ?'; data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 26 Jan 2016 11:43:31 -0500'; data[3] = new Array(); data[3]['title'] = 'hi just wanted to say'; data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/hi_just_wanted_to_say_c-3_u-97890_b-3421.html'; data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/hi_just_wanted_to_say_c-3_u-97890_b-3421.html'; data[3]['username'] = 'emogirl18'; data[3]['blog_id'] = '3421'; data[3]['blog_message'] = 'hi i am new to this sight and just wanted to say that i have depression and problems with people and talking i am a cutter and very suicidal. so i kinda need some help and ideas on anything that could help me. i am only 18 and im a very shy girl'; data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 07 Oct 2012 23:06:37 -0400'; data[4] = new Array(); data[4]['title'] = 'Sister refuses to allow me to see my nephew'; data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/sister_refuses_to_allow_me_to_see_my_nephew_c-3_u-317013_b-9387.html'; data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/sister_refuses_to_allow_me_to_see_my_nephew_c-3_u-317013_b-9387.html'; data[4]['username'] = 'arb321988'; data[4]['blog_id'] = '9387'; data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Hello all, I'm new here.
My sister gave birth and had really bad Postpartum Depression and she was already diagnosed with Bipolar disorder before hand. I have raised my nephew since he was born. She has a boyfriend, a little over a year now, and has recently moved to a different town. About 2 hours from where I live. I barely get to see him anyways because I have a very demanding job.
I had him over the summer for a week. He told me some information, and with my job I am a mandatory reporter (with a reporting number), and I ended up calling CPS on her. I went up at the beginning of December to see him for his birthday and give him his birthday gift.
She allowed me to see him for about an hour. After that she asked to talk when he was asleep. She asked why I had called CPS, I told her the circumstances, what was said to me, and the face that I'm a mandatory reporter. She told me "I'm your sister, you should have confronted me first." I again tried to explain to her if I don't report child abuse, I could not only go to jail but lose my licenses. She will probably never understand, but now she will not "ever" let me see him again.
I miss my nephew terribly. I hate that she has her thumb on him, and all control over him. Also, I fear for his safety around her boyfriend. I expressed this to CPS as well. The outcome was that they did a wellness check. They said, until they see bruises or broken bones they really can't do anything.
Recently, 8 years old now, they have been leaving him home alone. Unfortunately in Arizona there is no legal age at which you can leave a child home alone. But, if something happens to the child it is considered child neglect.
....... Ugh..... Stressful situation'; data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 21 Dec 2015 17:02:32 -0500';