var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Sun, 07 Sep 2025 11:56:17 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'stepmother desire';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/stepmother_desire_c-3_u-259763_b-6972.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/stepmother_desire_c-3_u-259763_b-6972.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'anonymoussname';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '6972';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Ok, so I&#039;m pretty sure there is something wrong with me. I have had this feeling toward my stepmother since I could remember. Like a desire. I know it&#039;s wrong, it&#039;s not right because she is married to my father and she is my stepmother. My father cheated on her and I just wanted to tell her so bad how I felt about her, and how much she deserved better but they got back together. My father married her without telling her he had a vasectomy. And all these years later she really wants a kid, I wish I could help her have a kid... <br />   I am 21 years old, and I moved back into their house about a year ago because my roommate moved out of state and left the bills all on me. I go into their room sometimes when they go to work and I smell her freshly worn panties, and masturbate to them. I found a box of her toys(dildos) and I masturbated to them and licked them. I also found their sex tape and watched it so I could see what she looks like naked. Sometimes when my dad leaves to go to work, I hear her getting into the shower and I fantasize going in there and joining her, or going into the room and waiting on her to get out. <br />   I have control enough to never do anything to crazy, but what should I do? Should I just get help, or tell her what I have done/ how I feel, or nothing? Please don&#039;t comment how sick I am, and how I need to find god.. I know I am sick, I just can&#039;t control myself sometimes.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 23 May 2014 00:56:22 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Can't say no to sex';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/can%CA%B9t_say_no_to_sex_c-3_u-272158_b-7813.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/can%CA%B9t_say_no_to_sex_c-3_u-272158_b-7813.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'Megzz';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '7813';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Hello! I&#039;m a 19- year old female and I can&#039;t seem to say no to sex. I don&#039;t feel the urge to constantly have sex but if a guy asks me to have sex I will always say yes. I beat myself up for this so much and I&#039;m not sure if it is a sexual addiction and I don&#039;t know how to treat it. <br />Please comment you opinions!';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 25 Dec 2014 01:21:10 -0500';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'Cutting away the ugly part of me...';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/cutting_away_the_ugly_part_of_me..._c-3_u-87678_b-4008.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/cutting_away_the_ugly_part_of_me..._c-3_u-87678_b-4008.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'cfit60';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '4008';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Hello, I&#039;m a cutter...<br /><br />Why do I cut?  What turned me into a self hater who scars his body and often wants to die?<br /><br />I&#039;m a 44 year old man who has seen his world fall apart two years ago.  I was seriously injured on the job to the point of full disability.  I can no longer do the job I lived to do, which was Police work.  Add to that the fact that I suffer horrific pain everyday due to my back injury.  I have crushed a total of 9 discs in my upper, middle and lower back and have to use a cane to walk.<br /><br />Not only do I have permanent nerve damage, but as a result I lost function of my bladder and need to urinate with a catheter and a leg bag.  I have had several surgeries to include a two level cervical fusion, an interstim implant for my bladder and a Morphine drug pump implant. Despite these surgeries, the Morphine pump and oral pain meds I am still in a great deal of pain all day and night; awake and sleeping.  I still have a few more surgeries I must endure in the next year. This physical pain alone is one reason why I cut myself. <br /><br />Since I don&#039;t have any control of the constant pain related to my back injury I at least have control over the pain I endure when I cut myself.  I don&#039;t scratch myself...when I cut I cut deep and I have scars over 70% of my body.  I often cut out of anger or frustration, because I lost my passion for life when I lost my career as a Police Officer.  It&#039;s extremely difficult to go from being physically able to chase bad guys, make arrests and help others to someone who can barely walk and is in constant pain.  <br /><br />Over the past two years I have gone from a mentally confident and competent person to a mental basket case.  Now I must say that prior to my career ending injury I suffered from PTSD and bouts of depression related to my Police experiences while employed by NYPD during 9-11 and survivor&#039;s guilt.  Also, growing up I would from time to time cut myself. Oh yeah and when I was 13 years old I slit my wrist and OD on medication in an attempt to end my life.  It was really tough covering up the huge ass scar on my wrist, especially while applying for work as a Police Officer.  I don&#039;t regret the scar, I regret the fact that I lived.  Looking back I guess there have been many times where I was in harms way and could of, should have died, but didn&#039;t.  This happened more often of course during my Ten years of Police work.  Looking back now I can honestly say that I wanted to be a Police Officer so I could die. Had you asked me while I was still working as a Police Officer I would have said it was so I could help people and save lives.<br /><br />Anyways, I now suffer from a whole host of mental disorders, such as Major Depressive Disorder, BiPolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD and a couple of other disorders that escape me at this time.  I&#039;m taking a handful of medication daily in the hopes of controlling my mental and physical pain.<br /><br />It&#039;s not working, I can&#039;t sleep and the urges to cut keep getting stronger.  I also envision me cutting my own throat with a knife. I can be sitting on the couch watching a TV show and out of no where I see it...I see the knife in my hand held to my throat.  I wonder, is this how I am supposed to die?  I always hoped it would be via lead poison ( aka a bullet).  No matter, I keep cutting and my wife sees the cuts and scars and naturally freaks out.  I&#039;m putting her through hell and that just adds to my anxiety and frustration that often boils over and results in even more cutting!  I wish I could post pictures so you can see my scars and know that this is for real.  I&#039;m living a nightmare and I&#039;m ashamed of myself for being so weak. Two years ago I was a decent role model for other Officers and the community I lived to protect and serve.  Now...now I am suicidal and spend most of my time at home, in pain and alone.  <br /><br />The urges are becoming too great and I&#039;m fast losing any control. My cuts are becoming deeper and deeper.  How can I cut out the ugly side of me when...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/cutting_away_the_ugly_part_of_me..._c-3_u-87678_b-4008.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 15 Jan 2013 22:33:57 -0500';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Urge to bite....';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/urge_to_bite...._c-3_u-269745_b-7695.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/urge_to_bite...._c-3_u-269745_b-7695.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'hiding_the_broken';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '7695';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m a 16 year old girl. I never bit anyone as a kid or anything like that. I have been diagnosed with OCD, Severe Clinical Depression, and a Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I am on medication for those things. But I have been having the urge to bite things lately. It doesn&#039;t matter what mood I&#039;m in. I just randomly have the urge to bite things. I mostly bite myself; I could never bite another person. Yes, I have been self-harming for a little over 4 years, so maybe it&#039;s just another form of self-harm, but it&#039;s getting pretty bad. The bite marks last about a half hour. I&#039;ve only broken through skin once. What is going on with me..why am I biting all of a sudden...';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 23 Nov 2014 23:28:08 -0500';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Is this weird? I'm having unwanted sexual thoughts and anxiety';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_weird%CA%94_i%CA%B9m_having_unwanted_sexual_thoughts_and_anxiety_c-3_u-262074_b-7157.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_weird%CA%94_i%CA%B9m_having_unwanted_sexual_thoughts_and_anxiety_c-3_u-262074_b-7157.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'Sadcandice';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '7157';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Hello. I have been diagnosed with anxiety for a few years now. I am a sixteen year old girl, and I often struggle with intrusive thoughts. My latest anxiety has been sexual thoughts, and feeling guilty about everything. For example, my mom was doing something (I don&#039;t even remember what) and was sitting down and was in her underwear, though i couldn&#039;t tell if she was naked or not. I looked over at her for whatever reason and just kind of instinctively looked down at her crotch area (I have no idea why I do that when I accidentally see someone naked, even a family member) and afterwards, I felt like I looked too long or it was creepy of me. I have no attraction to my mother or anything. But my anxiety has been making me worry about it all day. I even kind of forced myself to glance at hers and other people&#039;s butts to prove to myself that it wasn&#039;t weird and they&#039;re just body parts, etc.  But this kind of thing happens to me constantly, especially when I&#039;m tired. I also always feel guilty and like I&#039;m hurting my boyfriend for having these thoughts and doing these things. Is it weird that I glanced at my mom like that? I&#039;m sorry if this is a strange question, but I appreciate your answers. Peace and love.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 30 Jun 2014 20:52:34 -0400';