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OCD, Tourettes,</a></div><div id="b_12263" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">Hi there!<br />20 year old girl looking for some guidance.<br />I have a history of mental health issues but have never been diagnosed with anything. My dad has Tourettes with ocd and my sister has anxiety disorder. We all take prozac for our anxieties though im not diagnosed. I have tendencies toward ocd, Aspergers, anxiety, and eating disorders but do not fit a particular box. Im going to list my obscure quirks based on which issue I think they fit and hopefully someone can help me if they relate or understand!<br /><br />OCD Tendencies:<br />I have an intense fear of germs, but only human germs. Im fine with the ocean, dirt, or sand etc as long as I can wash my hands after but I can&#039;t touch doorknobs, money, etc without washing my hands IMMEDIATELY. The strange thing is I don&#039;t obsess over what these germs will do to me, like I don&#039;t think ill get sick or die or anything, I can just &quot;feel&quot; the germ on my hand or body and it drives me crazy until I wash it off. If I touch something really dirty, I have to wash my hands 3 times for the dirty feeling to go away. <br /><br />When i was about 5 my ocd tendencies started to come out and it manifested in me being afraid of germs and dead things. Dead things WERE dirty to me. I stopped eating meat. I put my favorite toys on a high shelf and refused to play with them because I didnt want to get them dirty. I washed my hands until they’d bleed and i had to wear socks on them. Since spiders killed things, they became the dirtiest thing in the world to me. If a spider touched something, I couldnt touch that thing unless it was washed. My parents got me a “cleaning spray” (which i now suspect was just water) to spray things so i could touch them again. When I was six, a butterfly died in our hallway and got covered in ants. I had to leap over that spot in the hallway because I couldn’t touch it, and I did that until we moved out of that house 2 years later. I had meltdown after meltdown because I found out the seats in my car were made of leather.<br /><br />I still can’t touch anything if a spider has walked on it. I live in the forest, so they are always in my home. I wear shoes and socks in the house because I can’t touch the floor. If something falls on the ground I either throw it away or have to pick it up with gloves and wash it. I know this is irrational and there is no fear driving it, but if I touch any place a spider has been or if a spider touches me i have to scrub and scrub my body… this is very exhausting. <br /><br />Because of this I get overwhelmed by small tasks. My dad used to always get mad at me because I would leave the fridge door open when Id take something out of it, until I finally explained that I have to use my shirt to open the door and its very difficult because sometimes I accidentally touch the door and have to wash my hands again...etc. If i drop something on the floor in my house now I usually leave it there because otherwise I’d have to get gloves, pick it up, wash it, then wash my hands.. Etc.<br /><br />Un-identified Tendencies:<br />I hate eye contact. It feels so unnatural to me, I usually avoid it unless I know its important (job interview, date, etc) and then I have to purposefully hold my gaze and focus on looking attentive. I often stop paying attention to what people are saying because I’m focusing so hard on looking like I’m paying attention (lol). I hate sitting across from people because eye contact, I always make my boyfriend sit next to me at restaurants.<br /><br />I have trouble with personal space/boundaries. In lines I always get too close to people without realizing, my boyfriend has to pull me away/remind me to give people space.<br /><br />If I get excited about something, I talk very very loudly without noticing. I always have to be reminded to stop yelling..<br /><br />I am super clumsy and awkward. I am ALWAYS bumping into things/dropping things.. Especially in the morning.<br /><br />My sister and boyfriend recently told me that people often think I am a bitch when they first meet me because of my humor. I have a super blunt/...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_sound_like_an_aspergirl%CA%94_ocd_tourettes_c-3_u-446650_b-12263.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a></div>');
		
		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_10589\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_10589\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_10589\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know._help%CA%94_c-3_u-384943_b-10589.html">I don't know. Help?</a></div><div id="b_10589" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">I&#039;ve never participated in anything like this before, but it&#039;s cheaper than a psychiatrist and healthier than the other &quot;outlets&quot; I had in mind. I don&#039;t know where this post is going but I&#039;m just going to let my mind leak onto this blog or whatever the heck this this is and see where it takes me. <br /><br />Lately things haven&#039;t been so hot. I experience major highs where everything is &quot;fine&quot; and I&#039;m truly content with everything and major, and I mean MAJOR lows where I feel the absolute opposite. I know what you&#039;re thinking, bipolar disorder. I haven&#039;t been diagnosed so I don&#039;t know for sure. But that&#039;s not the only thing that&#039;s &quot;wrong.&quot;<br /><br />I&#039;ve been having problems with daily/everyday tasks due to my inability to focus, my lack of ability to sleep normally, mood fluctuations, weight gain, lack of motivation, constant nervousness, and always second guessing myself. <br /><br />I&#039;m completely fine when I&#039;m around my friends, but the second I&#039;m left alone, man... All hell breaks lose in my mind. It&#039;s like all the thoughts that I was too distracted to distracted to think about when I was with my friends come out all at once and it overwhelms me and causes me to be more anxious. <br /><br />My symptoms include:<br />-lack of focus<br />-major insomnia<br />-mood fluctuations<br />-loss of motivation<br />-constant second guessing of self<br />-constant anxiety, stress, nervousness<br />-shaky hands<br />-frequent headaches<br />-hot flashes<br />-easily startled<br />-forgetful<br />-nausea<br />-irritability<br />-early morning wakefulness (waking up at like 3 or 4 and not being able to go back to sleep)<br />-loss of interest in things that once caught my attention.<br /><br />I don&#039;t know what my diagnosis is. If anyone wants to give it a shot as to what&#039;s going on with me, I&#039;m open to anyone&#039;s input. I know, I should really see someone but I&#039;m using that as an absolute last resort...<br /><br />I don&#039;t know if anyone will see this, let alone spent the time to actually read this crap but if there&#039;s someone out there reading this, I would appreciate any input you have. <br /><br />All the best,<br />Me.</div>');
		
		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_2348\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_2348\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_2348\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/please_help._i_feel_like_such_a_freak_and_i_hate_myself_so_much._c-3_u-83711_b-2348.html">Please help. I feel like such a freak and I hate myself so much.</a></div><div id="b_2348" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">I am a sixteen year old female who is sexually attracted to her own mother. I&#039;m incredibly ashamed of it and I have no idea why I feel this way. I don&#039;t find her attractive. And I&#039;ve actually had an absolutely horrible relationship with her ever since i was 13 and I cannot stand the woman. <br />Honestly, the relationship is so horrible. I have trouble hearing her voice without getting incredibly pissed off. But recently I&#039;ve been getting so angry, that I actually become turned on. Now, the littlest things she does that used to make me so angry, now turn me on. For example, the way she handles everything so delicately, how soft her voice is...ect. ect. <br /><br />I&#039;ve been feeling this way for about 6 months and its been progressively getting worse. Now I find it invading my thoughts, and being on my mind frequently.<br />I have struggled with OCD in the past... Obsessive thoughts about things such as incest and bestiality .. but I&#039;ve never had problems with obsessive thinking AND erotic feelings.<br /><br />Please. help. I&#039;ve attempted suicide because of this, and I haven&#039;t been able to bring myself to tell my therapist or psychiatrist.<br />I have looked on some forums saying that feeling sexually attracted to a family member is more common than people realize... which makes me feel a little bit better.<br /><br />But I would like to know why on earth do I feel this way? And how can I make it go away?</div>');
		
		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_6176\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_6176\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_6176\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/need_help_am_i_gay_bi_or_straight%CA%94_c-3_u-252308_b-6176.html">Need help, am I gay bi or straight?</a></div><div id="b_6176" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">Hi there, I need some help.  I am very confused about my Sexuality and not sure whether I am gay or bi, or even straight.  <br /><br />I&#039;ll tell you my story,  I am from South America and as a kid I messed around with my friends sexually just trying to experiment as it was easier than getting girls...  We wanted girls but decided to play around with each other...   That was when I was 13-15 I am now 23.  We probably spent half a year messing about, if was never emotional or anything like that but just sexual..  <br /><br />I&#039;ve lived all my life liking girls ever since and have felt love for women too.  I&#039;ve had two Gfs (real ones), the last one I was with for five years and the current one for around 7 months.    I&#039;ve never really looked at guys at all in any emotional way but I do like to mess around with guys sexually..  And have done a few times in the last 6years..  From oral to sex.   Most of the time I didn&#039;t enjoy it but it was a sexual thing and fancied oral sex...  That&#039;s as far as it got with men...  Just casual sexual encounters...  Not often but we could say once ever three or four months...  I haven&#039;t since with my Gf as I have been truly happy with her and feel deeply in love with her and always have enjoyed her body too.  <br /><br />Around two weeks ago or just a bit less than that I told her about my sexual experiences and that I think I might be bisexual,   however since then I have developed somewhat of an ocd, hocd...  Re questioning my Sexuality asking myself whether my whole life as straight has been an illusion and even force myself to see myself with a guy.  It doesn&#039;t really attract me, but I can&#039;t say I would never do it as I think if I can sexually be aroused by men too then it means something,  and I have not been able to stop forcing myself into thinking if I am gay or not, and that surely I must be if I fantasise about men whilst with women,  <br /><br />I don&#039;t understand whether it&#039;s something in my head that has caused me to not stop thinking about my sexual orientation or whether I&#039;m gay but have never really seen it until now, the emotional side I mean...  And reconfuse myself by acknowledging that I haven&#039;t really at all ever felt emotions for guys, but many times for girls.  <br /><br />I guess I need to establish whether I can be straight and then turn gay, or if I&#039;m simply bisexual, or if I just like sex with men too..  And that&#039;s it.  As that&#039;s how it&#039;s felt all my life.  <br /><br />I think about everything to do with this, asking myself if it&#039;s that I don&#039;t want to be gay and I just have forced myself to be straight, but it&#039;s hard to put that to ground as I think at least I would have acknowledged emotions for men before, which I truly haven&#039;t until all this began.  <br /><br />Any ideas comments would be greatly appreciated.. As I can&#039;t even function a normal life atm..  And when I think of being gay and not being with my current Gf it makes me sick as I want to be with her,  or maybe I want it that way because it would just be easier?.</div>');
		
		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_2025\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_2025\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_2025\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/half_brother_and_sister_intimate_relationship_c-3_u-80663_b-2025.html">Half brother and sister intimate relationship</a></div><div id="b_2025" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em;">Hi, I&#039;m a new member and have registered in the hope of finding a better understanding and hopefully some peace regarding my intimate relationship with my half sister.<br /><br />I was adopted at birth and met my biological mother and two half sisters 6 years ago (I was 38 at the time).  My two half sisters (the eldest was 28 and the youngest was 25) (and no-one else) never knew of my existence.  After my mother disclosed and discussed my &quot;re-appearance&quot; with them, we met for the first time in 2006.  From the very first moment, there was a very special bond between my eldest half sister and me.  Although I dearly love my youngest half sister and we have a great relationship, which is very supportive and loving, we do not have a physical attraction to each other and we do not share the same level of emotional &quot;understanding&quot; that I share with my eldest half sister.<br /><br />From the first moment on, my eldest half sister and I shared an amazing bond.  I live in a different country to them (my mother and two half sisters), but each time we get to see each other, we have an ability to enter each other&#039;s souls in an instant, as if we have never been apart.  The &quot;connection&quot; between us has always contained an element of physical attraction, but we never acted on it, nor discussed it.  In each other&#039;s presence, we were however always stunned by the fact that no-one else picked up on it, since it always felt (and still does) like it was almost &quot;tangible&quot;.<br /><br />In 2008, our relationship became sexual and on each trip since then, we have enjoyed the most amazing intimate moments both she and I have ever experienced.  First and foremost, we are truly soul mates and we share an acceptance of each other, that neither of us have ever experienced anywhere else.  Our physical relationship is not our primary attraction, but flows from the amazing intimacy we share emotionally.  If it were possible and because of society&#039;s views regarding relationships like these, we&#039;d choose to exist as &quot;just&quot; half brother and sister, but we both understand that we&#039;d be lying to ourselves if we pretended this to be true.<br /><br />We are both Christians and love our churches and our communities.  I don&#039;t have a problem with our relationship in view of my relationship with God, but my sister does struggle with it from time to time.  We also understand the consequences (perhaps not fully) of our relationship, both in a community and in our family.<br /><br />We have not shared our relationship with anyone and my hope is to enter into meaningful discussion regarding our situation, so that I may better understand our options.  There is so much more to say, but this will do for a start.</div>');
		
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