var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var time = 'Thu, 14 Aug 2025 12:54:10 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'I don't know what to do anymore.';
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		data[0]['username'] = 'plsdontjudgeme';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '5767';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'So for my first post, Im just going to do this as a journal I guess. I don&#039;t know.<br /><br />So basically, Im a teen. Please don&#039;t even ATTEMPT to judge me because I&#039;ve been through so much already and I am going to lose it.<br /><br />I feel so sad, hopeless, and SO angry all the time and I don&#039;t get why certain things happen to me. I mean, I was never a bad person. I don&#039;t know why I deserve all this at such a young age and I&#039;m so depressed and It&#039;s so UNFAIR.<br /><br />I hate me, I hate everyone, I hate the world. I hate everything. I never wanted to feel this way. I never EVER did. And now I do, and everything freaking sucks.<br /><br />My family thinks I&#039;m emo and my friends think I&#039;m outgoing and happy and I&#039;m going to lose it. I can&#039;t be who I really am because I&#039;m so afraid of being judged and I hate it so much.<br /><br />I spend most of the time in the bathroom breaking down to the point where I have to cover my mouth to make myself quiet. <br /><br />I&#039;m a TEEN.<br /><br />I never wanted to be like this AT ALL. I wanted to worry about my looks, my studies, and pop stars such as One Direction or Justin Bieber or something but NO. Life will not permit it and IT&#039;S UNFAIR.<br /><br />I want to be normal and so many bad experiences happened to me at such a young age and I&#039;m trying my best to BE happy but I can&#039;t and I don&#039;t know why.<br /><br />Instead of being HAPPY I&#039;m depressed, hopeless, angry and I HATE IT SO MUCH.<br /><br />I don&#039;t know what to do. I don&#039;t see any future of mine. I want to die but I don&#039;t and I really don&#039;t know what to do anymore and I&#039;m sick of it!<br /><br />I want to have dreams and I want to have crushes but I don&#039;t and as I said so many times,<br /><br />IT&#039;S SO FREAKING UNFAIR.<br /><br />I&#039;m too young and all these experiences and troubles in family, friends, school, and life is just piling and piling. <br /><br />I thought that maybe, this was a phase or something but I&#039;ve always been this way ever since I was young and I&#039;ve only realized it this year.<br /><br />I&#039;ve always been quiet and emo. Even in school, but I changed myself because there were people who teased me so, in a snap, after one summer, wow, I was happy on the outside. People used to say that I was really quiet and I always looked like I was mad and I just realized that I was just really sad. And now that developed into depression. I know you think I&#039;m lying since I&#039;m too young but we&#039;re all different here and we go through different things and I just had to go through many things at a young age.<br /><br />I&#039;m really tired. I really am. I tried everything. I even self harm. I have scars from razors and my parents think it&#039;s something I got from my dad called Keloid wherein you just get tiny scratches and they turn to look like scars and I agreed so they won&#039;t be suspicious. But after awhile, they did of course, so I started to cut elsewhere other than my wrist. <br /><br />Anyways, other than that rather disturbing paragraph, I just want help.<br /><br />I don&#039;t want to be some depressed teenager with anxiety. I hate always being jumpy, nervous and I want to be NORMAL.<br /><br />So. If anyone reads this. Please help me before this gets worse. I&#039;m really tired of feeling this way and I don&#039;t think I can hold my sadness and anger in any longer. I just want to scream at the world that I&#039;m upset and lost and to help me but I can&#039;t. I have no one to talk to. No one I trust.<br /><br />But I know there are people out there who will understand and that&#039;s why I am here now. I don&#039;t like thinking of suicide or anything. I really don&#039;t. And I want it to stop. So if anyone can PLEASE help me, just... HELP ME. <br /><br />Please, I&#039;m begging you. I&#039;m so desperate and I just really need someone to be there for me right now.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 08 Nov 2013 09:13:25 -0500';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Schizophrenia and Multiple Personality Disorder *May Trigger*';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/schizophrenia_and_multiple_personality_disorder_*may_trigger*_c-3_u-296612_b-8851.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/schizophrenia_and_multiple_personality_disorder_*may_trigger*_c-3_u-296612_b-8851.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'crazy_banana';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '8851';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I am Rose, an alter of Anna. She is 15, I am 16. I am always with her, watching, observing what happens. I control her memories and what she remembers. I know all of her memories from the very beginning, and I can, at times, come out to act as a co-Host. I know everything she&#039;s gone through , and I act as a leader between all of the alters. I can, at times, control who it is that comes forward. I am their manager and leader. Rage is the hardest to control, because she can draw a line of destruction whenever and wherever she is. She is filled with bottled up anger and rage that was never dealt with all our life. Should I be scared? No, she&#039;s only trying to protect our system. I feel more afraid of Echo, because he&#039;s always crying and I&#039;m scared that he&#039;ll one day give into the darkness. <br /><br />Everyone thinks that they suffer alone from our schizophrenia, but we all suffer from it equally. Even Anna suffers from it, seeing and hearing people as if she were on acid. Rae is only angered and annoyed, but Brian, whom is the most affected by it, is made to feel even more afraid than he already is all the time. Brian is a moderately autistic 18 year old with the mind of a 5 year old. He enjoys wearing shorts and faded salmon shirts. He fears everyone and everything. He is the most affected because he is so young mentally and is suffering from autism.<br /><br />Brian was made in the hospital, after being restrained for days. Rae was made after being in the inpatient psychiatric unit for a month. Rage was made from years of bottled up rage. Echo was made from an event Anna went through while she was only nine; thus, the reason that Echo is permanently nine. I was made, as a mute, mature girl, from years of being told not to speak about the horrors I&#039;ve faced.';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 26 Aug 2015 01:15:47 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'I feel like its my fault because im not good enough';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_feel_like_its_my_fault_because_im_not_good_enough_c-3_u-269792_b-7698.html';
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		data[2]['username'] = 'rhianne-reneau';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '7698';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Okay so I caught my fiance using my email to find girls on Craigslist o guess to have sex with. I was just going through my email and happen to see it i know it wasnt me because that was the night he was using my phone while i stayed at my mom&#039;s house amd some of the things he was messaging to these girls was really upsetting I confronted him about it at first he insisted he didnt remember ever doing it Then he said he might have had a moment of weakness. Then he kept insisting on how We changed in a good way because while he did that he said he realized he loves me amd I&#039;m the only girl in his life and that he only wants me. And. What really bother me is that this happened not even a week after he proposed and altogether We been together almost three years and We have a baby on the way in less than two months. Before all this I would find porn on his phone Where he would watch it or download videos or pictures and it really makes me feel like crap. I mean I know I&#039;m nothing really to look at I put on thirty pounds while being pregnant and sometimes it&#039;s like he don&#039;t want to touch me like he is completely discusted by me and it&#039;s always like he wants some super skinny girl that he can wrap his arMs around and have sex with all night I mean We don&#039;t even have sex like We used to it seems like he is watching the TVs more than he is even looking at me I can&#039;t really lose weight right now being pregnant and all. I don&#039;t have the pretty face or the perky boobs that he wants I just wish I could magically change how I look completely. I Love him so much I would spend all the money in the world to be the completely sexy girl he wants. D&#039;:';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 24 Nov 2014 23:58:15 -0500';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'I think my BF has relationship anxiety';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'lonelylatina17';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '11186';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m in a long distance relationship for 8 months but we&#039;ve known each other for 3 years. Recently my BF told me that he is confused about the relationship and he&#039;s not sure he wants to be in one. Everything was going very well. I would go visit him and he&#039;d visit me. We talked everyday, texted all the time &amp; Skype. He&#039;d tell me he loved me all the time &amp; that he missed me (when we were apart). Memorial Day weekend we went camping with friends of his and we had a good time. I came home and about 3 weeks after he went MIA. He was distant. Out of the blue on Wednesday he tells me he&#039;s not sure he wants a relationship or be in one. He still wants to talk. I started searching anxiety online and found there&#039;s a thing called relationship anxiety. He does suffer from anxiety. When I read the symptoms of this type of anxiety it fit him perfectly. My question is how do I handle the situation, how can I help him? Or should I let him be so he can decide wether or not he does want to be with me. I love this guy to death so I&#039;m crushed about this. It&#039;s hard to let go.';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 17 Jun 2017 00:02:18 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'I unfriended my depressed friend.';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_unfriended_my_depressed_friend._c-3_u-360950_b-10180.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_unfriended_my_depressed_friend._c-3_u-360950_b-10180.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'owlcityislove';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '10180';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'I unfriended my depressed friend. She was very demanding and refused to accept criticisms, but she tried to be a friend, and that&#039;s what makes me feel guilty. She has depression and anxiety, but I&#039;m not the kind of person who&#039;s patient and understanding enough to deal with someone who gets angry at constructive criticisms and isn&#039;t willing to help herself. She asked me if I only befriended her out of pity, and I said &quot;yeah a little&quot; because I&#039;m a very straightforward person and I&#039;m not a very &quot;empathetic&quot; person per say, and yes that&#039;s a horrible thing to say, but I wanted out of the friendship that made me so anxious and unhappy all the time. Our friendship lasted for about 2 years, which was rather long considering that I only befriended her out of pity. It ended unhappily, with her telling me that I was selfish, but I know I couldn&#039;t put up a fake front anymore and I feel more liberated than sorry. Can someone tell me if what I did was right? Ending the friendship? I wanted to be a more understanding friend as well and attempted to make it last, but she really made me lose my head, any advice on that?';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 03 Sep 2016 08:37:10 -0400';