var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Sat, 06 Sep 2025 05:34:56 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'emotional hijacking and learning to take personal responsibility';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/emotional_hijacking_and_learning_to_take_personal_responsibility_c-3_u-333179_b-9772.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/emotional_hijacking_and_learning_to_take_personal_responsibility_c-3_u-333179_b-9772.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Stab1l1ty';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '9772';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Hello everyone! Here is another post that I wonder if anyone can relate to?<br /><br />Now I have recognized that I do have some good qualities as I began to understand and rebuild myself but I find that I have also exploited these qualities in the past, distant and and not so distant. At I times I have  even justified my actions with these qualities for example talking myself out of returning a phone call from my mother, I&#039;ll tell  myself that attending to my life changes are more important, I can&#039;t disrupt this noble and righteous work, then anger will justify the frustration of having to make these life changes then ill hold her responsible for my current emotional and mental struggles. Ill think she doesn&#039;t deserve to speak with me, she deserves to suffer like me, she should be punished. (I know very immature,  Its as if bpd is one the more extreme symptoms of immaturity)<br /><br />Or my sadness will justify my depression after acknowledging how sensitive I am.  For an example I&#039;ll use avoiding my mothers call again, I&#039;ll think to myself that I deserve to be alone for all the stress and pain I have caused others, that there is so much growth that needs to transpire before I can effectively communicate with anyone. That I don&#039;t have anything worth saying, that I don&#039;t want to worry anyone with my issues and ineptitude. (Really I&#039;m just removing a level of responsibility and accountability over my own actions that I believe I&#039;m too exhausted for, too depressed to invest my energy in to)<br />This is where My Fear interjects sometimes, creating thoughts like I would just embarrass myself if I try to educate or inform my mother on my current condition because I don&#039;t really know myself like i once believed I did, I&#039;ll sound uninformed to her, like I&#039;m not trying to change, or I&#039;m not taking the growth that needs to transpire seriously enough. (The shame would be too much to bear apparently is what Im thinking here, once again I see myself hiding from a level of responsibility because of the fear of emotional shame, which is related to heightened level of emotional sensitivity leaving me fearful of many personal and social situations/confrontations)<br /><br />Another thing I have become recently hip to is the projection of these insecurities on he world. What I believe people are thinking about me or fear that they may be thinking, really are just what i deep down think about myself. And it does not stop at people i project my demeanor on to all things, in my eyes the world has become as tumultuous as my soul, A place where joy does not exist only struggle and heartache.  I believe by improving my perception of self my projection on to the world will also improve, my perception of the world will improve and i will see the beauty of life again.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 20 Mar 2016 19:43:32 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'My relationship with my therapist';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_relationship_with_my_therapist_c-3_u-435562_b-11460.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_relationship_with_my_therapist_c-3_u-435562_b-11460.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'ChocoSara';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '11460';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Hi guys , <br />This is pretty awkward to me talking about anything related to therapy to anyone. I&#039;ve been seeing my therapist for a month now , we had 4 sessions and 3 walks so far. What i wanna talk about is how i can open up to him and not feel so stiff around him and end up regretting not saying all i want or any of it at all. He says we have a good relationship but it’s different for me. I feel really disconnected. I have so much to tell him but it always ends with me not saying what i REALLY wanna say , especially when we have a walk. There’s that thing i do when i feel &quot;bad&quot; , i pretend that i&#039;m telling him what i&#039;m feeling so i calm down. Maybe it’s the reason i have nothing left to say ? <br />The reason i&#039;m trying to find a way to be more open is that i feel forced by myself. I’m regretting everytime i see him and end up not saying what i feel at all , and i don’t wanna drop therapy. I really really need it. I had a really unpleasant event by the time of our 3rd session and it made me realize how lucky i am to have a therapist at all. I wanna start fresh and on good terms with him. I wanna trust him enough to be comfortable around him to make our process better and not feel pushed. And he’s just a nice person idk what’s wrong with me  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_neutral.gif" alt=":|" title="Neutral" /><br />I want to want to get better and not feel so forced by myself.';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 28 Sep 2017 04:07:19 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'separation anxiety';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/separation_anxiety_c-3_u-383654_b-10563.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/separation_anxiety_c-3_u-383654_b-10563.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'donttouch';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '10563';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'my father always was suspicious as to why i get really anxious any time my boyfriend leaves. he thought i was doing drugs with him or something - i&#039;m straight edge, so no, i&#039;m not doing any drugs that cause some sort of anxiety disorder. though i did think about how whenever my boyfriend leaves i get anxious. even so when i&#039;m with him i start to get anxious because he&#039;s leaving soon. this only happens with him. i automatically assume i&#039;m never seeing him again. i panic and feel as if i cannot feel okay without him. i absolutely hate this, i don&#039;t know how to change it, the only thing i&#039;ve tried is distancing myself but that only leads to emotional distance in the relationship and makes everything worse. i don&#039;t know what to do. i don&#039;t want to depend on him to feel okay.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 21 Dec 2016 18:03:45 -0500';
		

		data[3] = new Array();
		data[3]['title'] = 'Posting a blog';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/posting_a_blog_c-3_u-266421_b-7499.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/posting_a_blog_c-3_u-266421_b-7499.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'jizzyjo_45';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '7499';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Hi I need to list a blog but want to make sure tigers listed in the correct section so as it yo upset anyone. How do I do this ?';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 21 Sep 2014 07:46:49 -0400';
		

		data[4] = new Array();
		data[4]['title'] = 'WTF?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/wtf%CA%94_c-3_u-246885_b-5612.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/wtf%CA%94_c-3_u-246885_b-5612.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'asoulfragmented';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '5612';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Mood: Exhausted<br />Listening to: Blake Shelton - Sure be cool if you did<br /><br /><br />It is one of those nights where I cannot get my mind to shut up. I am so sleepy but alas it manages to escape me. Racing thoughts and the like, This is my first time online today and it is 4:45 am so I guess that would technically mean that I was not online at all yesterday. I have not been able to focus enough on one thing to read a book. That is very stressful as reading is an outlet for me, I have my youtube playlist playing on shuffle so I don&#039;t even have to make a decision about a song cause right now my mind won&#039;t let me even think on it enough. I thought coming on here and writing for a bit would make me feel better or at least give me something to do but even now it is difficult to focus enough not to stray the subject. I love music there is rarely a time in my life that music is not playing. I listen to just about every genre I can think of with the exception of polka. Lately when I try to go to sleep paranoia takes over, it seems like the moment I become &quot;still&quot; the $#%^ hits the fan so to speak. Paranoia,agitation, conversations in my head with more than one voice. WTF? I moved across the country and have yet to see a therapist or mental health professional for that  matter. I have been off meds since roughly June. I sometimes feel like I am watching my life play in front of me like a movie without the option to react. I mean my body is reacting but I am not, what the hell is that about? The other night I went to bed around 3 am to try to sleep but the moment I stopped listening to music and reading articles online and settled down in my bed with the lights off it got ugly. First the paranoia set in, it was extreme. I felt like I was screaming inside my mind but no sounds escaped me. It seemed endless then a soft little crying voice was in my head like a thought but not my thought. Then the weirdest thing happened.... I got this mental image of a little girl crying holding a teddy bear curled up in a corner. I don&#039;t know how I knew but the little girls name is Sophia and she is 6. I have never seen this little girl before so how would I know her in my mind? Let me say this, My name is not Sophia and I have never personally met anyone by that name. After the image of the little girl left the &quot;screaming&quot; in my head started back up. I don&#039;t know.... I am lost and not sure what is going on. After that night I called and made an appointment with a dr in the new town I am in. I am nervous about going to a new dr, I do not trust easily and I don&#039;t know if I can open up to them. <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_confused.gif" alt=":?" title="Confused" />';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 19 Oct 2013 05:48:44 -0400';