var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Sun, 10 Aug 2025 16:34:57 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Am I just Paranoid or crazy..';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_just_paranoid_or_crazy.._c-3_u-279532_b-8138.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_just_paranoid_or_crazy.._c-3_u-279532_b-8138.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'hazey-gal';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '8138';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'I  carry around a little pocket knife , when its just me and my daughter home. I won't take a nap when my daughter is sleeping aswell because I'm scared someone might take her while im sleeping or threaten to hurt her to make me do things. My mind continuously comes up with bad situations (example-if someone is knocking at the door I get paranoid they might force there way inside and hurt me or my family so ignore it but then I think if I  ignore it they might think no ones home and break in ). I  feel safe when my partner and everyone is home, but when its bedtime I lay awake and feel like someone's watching me from the windows or is going to break In and kill all of us. When I dose off I wake up scared when I feel my partner is gone and I jump to conclusions he has been dragged away and stabbed but in reality he just goes to the toilet a lot during the night . I usually end up grabbing a knife and putting it safely near me till I finally fall asleep which normally is around 3 in the morning. I feel it's my job to protect my family and if I let my guard down, someone will take their life's away and mine. I try to talk to my partner about it but he just says "stop thinking silly", I'm trying to stop but its not easy.  Am I just to paranoid or crazy...';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 10 Mar 2015 09:12:20 -0400';
		

		data[1] = new Array();
		data[1]['title'] = 'Dirty Feelings and Fantasy';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/dirty_feelings_and_fantasy_c-3_u-323070_b-9472.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/dirty_feelings_and_fantasy_c-3_u-323070_b-9472.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'fantasyboy';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '9472';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'i am 23 year old and doing a job as a designer.<br />now a days my feelings is very dirty and i start doing fantasy about dirty things.<br />i can&#039;t explain what should i do now ?';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 26 Jan 2016 11:43:31 -0500';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'Please Help me figure out what's wrong with me';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/please_help_me_figure_out_what%CA%B9s_wrong_with_me_c-3_u-444138_b-12056.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/please_help_me_figure_out_what%CA%B9s_wrong_with_me_c-3_u-444138_b-12056.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'confusedingulf';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '12056';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'First of all I would like to apologize because this is going to be really long so I would like to say I really appreciate you reading this till the end and trying to help. <br /><br />Since november I have been having flashbacks and thoughts of everything I have done wrong in my life, and now that I think about it those things are absolutely horrible. <br /><br />To start with typical things normal people would have heard of before, I&#039;ve done things like cheating on boyfriends, lying to parents, sneaking out etc... I lost my virginity at 15 years old with a 21 year old guy and also had sex with a 28 year old who lied to me about his age, which disgusts me when I thought about it.<br /><br />Now more weird things, as a kid, I would always lie. I would like about everything. I would lie about having cancer, about having relationships with celebrities ( I would even make fake accounts and catfish people) , about being anorexic, i even catfished a real person in real life to show people and pretend he was flirting with me. I lied about having a brother that died, about people I knew, places I went to etc... I don&#039;t know why, can anyone help me figure out why I would like so much?<br /><br />Now the darkest part is sexual. As a child I remember making my dog eat me out.  Of course at that time I didn&#039;t really know what i was doing but now i see it&#039;s bestiality and I can&#039;t get over what I did. Likewise, I&#039;ve been recalling sexual games I would play as a kid which really mess with my mind. I remember licking my cousins&#039; vagina because she said she wanted me to. I also remenber pretending to be asleep while my cousins and sisters licked my breasts because I liked the feeling of it. Is this sexual abuse? Also, I remember once i asked my sister to touch me down there and my dad walked in the room before she did and stopped us. I don&#039;t know what to do about this because everytime I see my sister all i think about is if i sexually abused her and why I would do something like that with her. <br /><br />So when recalling all those wrong things I have been really bad anxiety since and I&#039;m not too sure what&#039;s happening. Along with his comes thoughts I don&#039;t want to have that I just can&#039;t stop. I keep on thinking in my head that I have been raped and my body feels so unsafe even though I know it isnt true, the feeling is still there. I get thoughts about harming people and myself all of the time, I get thoughts about violence and sexual stuff, and i don&#039;t know why. I have read online that this might be OCD which could make sense as I recall having weird &#039;if i don&#039;t do this then this will happen&quot; things as a child. For example:<br /><br />&quot; If i don&#039;t run down the corridor in less than 10 seconds then my mum will die in the future&quot; <br /><br />a lot of games like that  in my head that I see now might have been the start of this. <br /><br />I just do not understand at all what is going on in my head right now and why these thoughts don&#039;t stop. I can&#039;t figure out if i have been raped or if it&#039;s my imagination playing with me because i have no memory and i have been to the extent of asking family members who said no and gave me support. I can&#039;t figure out why i started thinking about all my mistakes all of a sudden. Please help me figure out whats happening?';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 26 Apr 2018 15:00:31 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Am I pervert?';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_pervert%CA%94_c-3_u-262027_b-7155.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_pervert%CA%94_c-3_u-262027_b-7155.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'Owlshirt';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '7155';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Obviously I&#039;m going to know the answer, it&#039;s just I want to hear another persons opinion. <br />I&#039;m a 16 year old girl and I like fantasizing about things, sometimes it&#039;s actually meaningful and sweet, then sometimes it&#039;s just dirty sex with this guy I have been dreaming about lately.<br />I dunno what drives me, but it turns me on so much to be &quot;dominant&quot; over the person, not like &quot;chains and whips&quot; (No, not at ALL) but in a way that the other person can&#039;t say &quot;no&quot; to?<br />Who knows, I&#039;m pretty sure I&#039;m a pervert but I don&#039;t really know why or how I became one.<br />(^-^)';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 29 Jun 2014 23:38:08 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Was it really rape?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/was_it_really_rape%CA%94_c-3_u-411731_b-11116.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/was_it_really_rape%CA%94_c-3_u-411731_b-11116.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'lotsofquestions';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '11116';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Recently I was at a party where many people were intoxicated, myself included. There was a lot of dancing and girls grinding on guys and groping and whatever else happens on a dance floor probably happened here. While at this party I talked to a lot of people and remember every detail I just didn&#039;t have the proper control of myself as I was heavily intoxicated. Nearing the end of the night I was approached by a boy who somehow knew me although I wasn&#039;t sure who he was. I walked away but he was insistent to talk. He pulled me closer to him and kissed me. We made out and everything was fine. Now, at this party people were staying in tents or their cars on the property and I had a tent with my friend. This guy that I was with asked me if I had a tent and I said yes, he took that as an invite and said &quot;that beats sleeping on the floor&quot;. I wasn&#039;t 100% comfortable with him coming back with me but, I am the type that has a hard time saying no when someone says they&#039;ll be sleeping outside or whatever else. So he followed me back to my tent and I warned my friend before he came in. I was quite tired as it was very late and I was ready to go to bed but this guy was grabbing me and kissing my neck and wouldn&#039;t stop. I would push his hands away and he would tell me to &quot;stop&quot; or &quot;just let it happen&quot;. Although, I continued to ask him to stop he continued until i sat up and said he needed to stop. At that point he got angry and told me that I was being a tease and i needed to &quot;get him off&quot; before he could go to bed. I said I just wanted to sleep and was feeling quite emotional, he was about to leave when i started to cry, as I was just yelled at when I didn&#039;t want to have sex with him. He told me it was fine and we would just cuddle and sleep. When we were back under my blanket he started at it again and i continued to tell him to stop as i still wasn&#039;t wanting to have sex with him and he started getting angry again. He was kissing me and had his hand wrapped around my neck. I was afraid of his anger as i didn&#039;t know him nor what he was capable of and i didn&#039;t want him to wake people so i complied and told him that we could have sex. About half way through i started crying and he told me if i was loud he would choke me harder so i sat there and let him do what he wanted.<br /><br />I complied and told him it was okay for him to do what he did although the multiple times i said no and i felt pressured into this situation. It continues to haunt my dreams and I don&#039;t feel like myself anymore. But, was it rape...';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 22 May 2017 01:14:02 -0400';