var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
		var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/random_blogs_c-3.html';
		var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com';
		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Sun, 10 Aug 2025 05:31:05 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Am I pervert?';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_pervert%CA%94_c-3_u-262027_b-7155.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_pervert%CA%94_c-3_u-262027_b-7155.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Owlshirt';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '7155';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Obviously I&#039;m going to know the answer, it&#039;s just I want to hear another persons opinion. <br />I&#039;m a 16 year old girl and I like fantasizing about things, sometimes it&#039;s actually meaningful and sweet, then sometimes it&#039;s just dirty sex with this guy I have been dreaming about lately.<br />I dunno what drives me, but it turns me on so much to be &quot;dominant&quot; over the person, not like &quot;chains and whips&quot; (No, not at ALL) but in a way that the other person can&#039;t say &quot;no&quot; to?<br />Who knows, I&#039;m pretty sure I&#039;m a pervert but I don&#039;t really know why or how I became one.<br />(^-^)';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 29 Jun 2014 23:38:08 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Self Hatred';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/self_hatred_c-3_u-86405_b-2645.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/self_hatred_c-3_u-86405_b-2645.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'hoping4answers';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '2645';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I find that my hardest days are days like today where I wake up just loathing myself.  From the moment my eyes open the flood of negative thoughts drown out any positive I can see.  In these times even my children laughing and smiling outside my bedroom door cause me tears.  <br />I feel alone, which is hard to do when you live with five other people but there it is.  I can never seem to pin point just why some days the pain is so overwhelming and all consuming that lasting the next five minutes seems impossible.<br />I am worthless, unloved, and discarded.  These are the thoughts that are an unending cycle in my mind.  The more I attempt to distract myself from these thoughts the more invading they seem.  <br />Any advice out there?';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 06 May 2012 12:58:55 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'An Introduction to My Mission';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_introduction_to_my_mission_c-3_u-105870_b-5787.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_introduction_to_my_mission_c-3_u-105870_b-5787.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'Bunnielight';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '5787';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Hi there. <br />You may call me Bunnie. I am a 23 year old female who is recently married. While I am completely happy and content with my life, I still carry a lot of baggage on a daily basis and need somewhere to go to write and vent. My mother is believed to have extreme narcissistic personality disorder and has been diagnosed multiple times with bipolar disorder. However, because of her narcissism, any treatment is slapped away. She cannot maintain a stable lifestyle, a job, and refuses to pay rent. She recently got arrested for exactly that and any other information regarding her is simply my grandparents and I digging around trying to find something out.<br /><br />My sister, half sister to be exact, is a 19 year old &quot;mother&quot; of two who recently had her children taken from her by DCS and relocated to a loving family trying their best to deal with the cases appropriately and cooperate with her while she gets her life together. However, her priorities and terrible attitude is questionable regardless of what she claims. She has been told to do numerous things all of which she either ignores or makes sure she does the minimum. I would have dismissed all of this a long time ago and moved on with my life if I didn&#039;t care so much. I want the best because our mother never provided anything for her. I want my nephews to have a good life and to have their mother. It is these reasons that I have tried to be the appropriate rock, but her attitude and my limited affect on this situation, legally, makes it that much harder.<br /><br />Every day I struggle with my role in all of this. I want the best for everyone. I want them to get the help they need. But the stress of it all effects my life on a daily basis. My life is great. I have a stable job and my husband and I are starting our own business. I am a photographer and he is a videographer/producer. If we continue on the path that we are on, we will be highly successful.<br /><br />Which is why I had to find somewhere to turn to vent and give me direction. I need to deal with this appropriately and help who I can where I can without causing more damage than I am helping.<br /><br />I have had blogs over the years but none that I felt comfortable truly venting in. Nowhere that gave me proper feedback or guidance. I came here because I feel like this is where I can find that. Because I definitely need it.<br /><br />-HMD';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 11 Nov 2013 15:06:41 -0500';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'I don't know what to do anymore.';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know_what_to_do_anymore._c-3_u-248158_b-5767.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know_what_to_do_anymore._c-3_u-248158_b-5767.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'plsdontjudgeme';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '5767';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'So for my first post, Im just going to do this as a journal I guess. I don&#039;t know.<br /><br />So basically, Im a teen. Please don&#039;t even ATTEMPT to judge me because I&#039;ve been through so much already and I am going to lose it.<br /><br />I feel so sad, hopeless, and SO angry all the time and I don&#039;t get why certain things happen to me. I mean, I was never a bad person. I don&#039;t know why I deserve all this at such a young age and I&#039;m so depressed and It&#039;s so UNFAIR.<br /><br />I hate me, I hate everyone, I hate the world. I hate everything. I never wanted to feel this way. I never EVER did. And now I do, and everything freaking sucks.<br /><br />My family thinks I&#039;m emo and my friends think I&#039;m outgoing and happy and I&#039;m going to lose it. I can&#039;t be who I really am because I&#039;m so afraid of being judged and I hate it so much.<br /><br />I spend most of the time in the bathroom breaking down to the point where I have to cover my mouth to make myself quiet. <br /><br />I&#039;m a TEEN.<br /><br />I never wanted to be like this AT ALL. I wanted to worry about my looks, my studies, and pop stars such as One Direction or Justin Bieber or something but NO. Life will not permit it and IT&#039;S UNFAIR.<br /><br />I want to be normal and so many bad experiences happened to me at such a young age and I&#039;m trying my best to BE happy but I can&#039;t and I don&#039;t know why.<br /><br />Instead of being HAPPY I&#039;m depressed, hopeless, angry and I HATE IT SO MUCH.<br /><br />I don&#039;t know what to do. I don&#039;t see any future of mine. I want to die but I don&#039;t and I really don&#039;t know what to do anymore and I&#039;m sick of it!<br /><br />I want to have dreams and I want to have crushes but I don&#039;t and as I said so many times,<br /><br />IT&#039;S SO FREAKING UNFAIR.<br /><br />I&#039;m too young and all these experiences and troubles in family, friends, school, and life is just piling and piling. <br /><br />I thought that maybe, this was a phase or something but I&#039;ve always been this way ever since I was young and I&#039;ve only realized it this year.<br /><br />I&#039;ve always been quiet and emo. Even in school, but I changed myself because there were people who teased me so, in a snap, after one summer, wow, I was happy on the outside. People used to say that I was really quiet and I always looked like I was mad and I just realized that I was just really sad. And now that developed into depression. I know you think I&#039;m lying since I&#039;m too young but we&#039;re all different here and we go through different things and I just had to go through many things at a young age.<br /><br />I&#039;m really tired. I really am. I tried everything. I even self harm. I have scars from razors and my parents think it&#039;s something I got from my dad called Keloid wherein you just get tiny scratches and they turn to look like scars and I agreed so they won&#039;t be suspicious. But after awhile, they did of course, so I started to cut elsewhere other than my wrist. <br /><br />Anyways, other than that rather disturbing paragraph, I just want help.<br /><br />I don&#039;t want to be some depressed teenager with anxiety. I hate always being jumpy, nervous and I want to be NORMAL.<br /><br />So. If anyone reads this. Please help me before this gets worse. I&#039;m really tired of feeling this way and I don&#039;t think I can hold my sadness and anger in any longer. I just want to scream at the world that I&#039;m upset and lost and to help me but I can&#039;t. I have no one to talk to. No one I trust.<br /><br />But I know there are people out there who will understand and that&#039;s why I am here now. I don&#039;t like thinking of suicide or anything. I really don&#039;t. And I want it to stop. So if anyone can PLEASE help me, just... HELP ME. <br /><br />Please, I&#039;m begging you. I&#039;m so desperate and I just really need someone to be there for me right now.';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 08 Nov 2013 09:13:25 -0500';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Do I have Conduct Disorder?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_conduct_disorder%CA%94_c-3_u-320081_b-9432.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_conduct_disorder%CA%94_c-3_u-320081_b-9432.html';
		data[4]['username'] = '3rr0r';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '9432';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Hello, I am a slightly troubled teenager. All my life (besides my ADHD) I didn&#039;t really think I had any psychiatric problems. Then, when I was 13 years old, I stumbled upon conduct and antisocial personality disorder when I was browsing the internet. Intrigued by the similarities I had with the disorders (conduct disorder since I&#039;m not 18). My symptoms tend to be more related to primary psychopathy (high functioning antisocial personality disorder)  than conduct related though.<br /><br />. I am unable to form real connections with others (including family), and only make friends for monetary, reputable, or general control purposes.<br />. I enjoy causing pain and am aggressive, which has caused me to get into a lot of fights.<br />. I am manipulative, and don&#039;t have symptoms of lying, which has allowed me to get people to do things for me, and has gotten me out of psychiatric evaluation multiple times<br />. I have a group of &quot;friends&quot; (slaves), that are stupid, violent, and easily manipulative, that I get to fight with others, and generally intimidate people since I am pretty weak and don&#039;t want to get in trouble. <br />. I have VERY high self worth, and think everyone I know is below me. I want to control people.<br />. Whenever I see a person in pain (even if I caused it), I feel nothing.<br />. I never understood why people feel guilty, since I have never felt guilt for any of my actions.<br />. I don&#039;t understand altruism and have no desire to help others.<br /><br />If I do have conduct disorder, I have already learned how to blend in reasonably well. I am also very intelligent (My IQ is 157). I would really like for people who actually have conduct disorder to see if my symptoms show signs (not a professional diagnosis obviously) of conduct disorder.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 05 Jan 2016 00:13:05 -0500';