var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var time = 'Fri, 12 Sep 2025 06:33:20 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Personality Disorder';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/personality_disorder_c-3_u-445630_b-12169.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/personality_disorder_c-3_u-445630_b-12169.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'recklesswho';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '12169';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'I don&#039;t know whats going on with me, its getting worse and im getting tired. Im a boy, 20 years old and  I can&#039;t remember as many details as I would like to remember about who and what I was before that &#039;something&#039; happened thats why I&#039;ll be vague with some things. If you think you may have and idea or have some information or a good advice on this please feel free to answer cause I&#039;m desperate.  <br />I&#039;ve been in and out of psychiatric institutions since high school and I&#039;ve been diagnosed multiple times by different doctors (Antisocial personality disorder, Borderline personality disorder, Anxiety, Depression, Schizophrenia Paranoid, Schizoaffective disorder, Bipolar not otherwise specified.) When I was younger I was pretty much in control of myself, some things with me were off but nothing that really bothered me, things like excessive boredom, intrusive thoughts, derealization and depersonalizations and not being able to not to fake every social interaction, a giant disgust for every human, an entertained mind with every mechanic answer, things people could just not see, I planned everything I said and everything I did, it was automatic, It was sorta exciting getting everything I wanted, I stole things like whole outfits in expensive clothes stores even though I had the money just because it was exciting and made me feel good, I abused all kinda of drugs and people in a way, I got sorta lost in the drug path, I started getting psychotic and I did a lot of crazy things like going out of town, not sleeping, spending weeks on the street, drugs, wild parties, sex with strangers,  but then a day I started to notice that I wasn&#039;t so sure of what I was doing, something that I think I never felt before, I was kinda lost, I was kinda alone and I didn&#039;t knew what was the next step to take, like if the part of me that was sure of everything and had everything sorted out disappeared, the drugs were getting down and I was so exhausted and desperate feeling that I couldn&#039;t go out for more, now i&#039;m clean except for weed (auto medication) I became aware of every little thing but didn&#039;t know how to deal with it or what was the importance of everything, I have a cloud in my mind and im not sure of anything I don&#039;t know how to explain it, its driving me crazy, I want to stab my face multiple times after I stab everyone else, I always thought that in a way (a proxemic way) I can read peoples minds but after this happened it was like their thoughts and expression became sharp and aggressive to me, and now its like they can hear my thoughts too in that way also, something happened to my nerves, I can&#039;t be relaxed, not in my house, not in my bed, not in my sleep, I just can&#039;t relax its like If I am possessed and my brain and inside my body its burning I have ricing and negative thoughts, i&#039;m angry and irritable to the core, to the point that if some one talks to me in that moment I snap and attack them with everything I have and I hurt myself cause I need it to stop now, it so much. Everyday I end up screaming and scratching my face because I don&#039;t quite get what im feeling  but it is a lot, I can&#039;t concentrate, I can&#039;t decide between stupid easy things, I feel guilty all the time, I can&#039;t organize my mind and put whats first first, that makes me angry as ###$,  I can&#039;t sleep well, I have panic attacks, night terrors, my stomach hurst and I need to throw up since I wake up, this are just some things that are happening, there are a lot more but I don&#039;t know what its important what its not, I also some times experience selective mutism when some one asks me what is happening because my brain does not know the answer or at least thats what I think. No one has been able to help me, not the doctors, not in the clinic , I don&#039;t trust anybody and im fearing that Im gonna have to kill myself because I won&#039;t live like this my whole life, and its not getting better, 2 years now, I feel hopeless.  Alexithymia and mixed bipolar episode are things that can describe...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/personality_disorder_c-3_u-445630_b-12169.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 12 Jun 2018 16:04:25 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'i feel terrible';
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		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_feel_terrible_c-3_u-445270_b-12140.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'peachyjordyn';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '12140';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'so, i was about 12 when all of this had happened. it started with a prank where my friend dared me to pretend to be this girls boyfriend online (i am a female). i wanted to stop the prank but my friend forced me to keep going and get nudes from the girl we pranked. the girl ended up sending them andy i ended the prank kinda rudely. i said “there’s a hot girl at school bye.” the girl we pranked ended up not going to school the next day and i thought nothing of it. a while later and i was with the friend i pranked. that friend and i were playing truth or dare. she had dared me to do things like twerk in my underwear, take my shirt off and show my boobs. then, i dared her to lick my vagina. she ended up doing just that. she was trying to get me to lick her but i said no. her mom ended up somehow finding out and guys at school were saying that i made that girl lick me. instinctively i knew she told people even though she swore she didn’t. my mom was told everything by her mom and we had a meeting with the four of us. i apologized and th girl apologized. we hung out and played air hockey after. then i was at school and a police officer handcuffed me and said that that girls mom called him and told him everything. (keep in mind this is after the four of us met and talked and me and that friend actually hung out a few times.). so this police officer had told me that i committed crimes like: child pornography, cyber bullying, and sexual harassment. i was crying and he said i was fake crying. he also told me i could go to juvenile hall. apparently the friends mom didn’t want to file charges or go to court so i don’t get the point of telling a police officer. i am just very worried that this will prevent me from getting a job and going to college. the police officer said that my friend AND her mom talked before calling the police. i talked to my friend and she claims she never heard a word about it. she was actually at a foster home at the time because her mom got really mad at her. so technically the mother could get in trouble. i have been scared of police ever since this. i just need help and comfort. i was only 12 and i was exploring. and i’m still scared today.';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 30 May 2018 18:37:58 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'I don't know';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know_c-3_u-81324_b-2104.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know_c-3_u-81324_b-2104.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'little♥monster';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '2104';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I just don&#039;t understand my &quot;family&quot;. I leave my purse and wallet out on the table and they come and go through it. They just pick my wallet up and flip through my check book. And when I said something my grandmother got mad. She just got mad and smarted me off, then walked away. It&#039;s like this all the time, it&#039;s like I&#039;m supposed to let them run over me and do or say whatever they want about me or my stuff, and if I say anything I&#039;m a bitch or I don&#039;t know what I&#039;m talking about. Honestly it makes me sick just to be here. Sometimes I just feel like I can&#039;t take it anymore, like my time is over and I should just commit suicide.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 30 Jan 2012 21:16:18 -0500';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'I feel like nothing...';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_feel_like_nothing..._c-3_u-402724_b-10936.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_feel_like_nothing..._c-3_u-402724_b-10936.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'reoww25';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '10936';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'My boyfriend has been in this really bad place for the past couple of weeks. He says that he doesn&#039;t feel like himself (or act like himself) &amp; that he feels like &#039;nothing&#039;. He&#039;s saying that he doesn&#039;t feel like a friend or a boyfriend. And that he feels nothing towards our relationship, even though he loves me like crazy. He just feels nothing towards everything right now.<br /><br />Because of this he wants us to take a break from our relationship so he can focus on himself and getting better. He wants to do it alone.<br /><br />I am really worried about him. I can&#039;t just leave him to battle this on his own when i&#039;m the only one that knows he&#039;s in this bad place. <br /><br />Even though we are on a break I really want to be there for him and help him. I just don&#039;t know how...';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 28 Mar 2017 21:10:19 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'My Best Friends Step dad harasses me and him';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_best_friends_step_dad_harasses_me_and_him_c-3_u-311565_b-9238.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_best_friends_step_dad_harasses_me_and_him_c-3_u-311565_b-9238.html';
		data[4]['username'] = '339737';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '9238';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'This all started about a year and a half ago. I was spending the night at my best friends house for the first time and i got a little warm so i was changing into a tank top and while i had my shirt off his step dad came into the room. i saw him give me a strange glare and walk away. i hadn&#039;t thought anything of it for about seven months. Then after noticing that we weren&#039;t hanging at his house at all anymore i started wondering. so one day after school i went over to his house. his mom let me in and we talked until he got home. Throughout the this whole time his step dad has blocked my number on their home phone, tried convincing the homeowners community not to allow me to walk on his street, he&#039;s banned me from his property, and his son can no longer come over to my house at all anymore. Ive overheard his dad call me a few very unflattering names. and his mom has called my parents a complete waste of time. I&#039;m wondering what options i have either to file a suit against him or how i can get him to understand what he has done over the years.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 13 Nov 2015 21:58:13 -0500';