var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
		var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/random_blogs_c-3.html';
		var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com';
		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Mon, 18 Aug 2025 10:52:58 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Is my Mom Sick?';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_my_mom_sick%CA%94_c-3_u-258910_b-6871.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_my_mom_sick%CA%94_c-3_u-258910_b-6871.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'shortsnorts';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '6871';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'I have been wondering this for a while now. Ever since I was little, my Mom tried to fit in with her boy friend's life style. The guy could have been a raging alchoholic, who was a complete ass(most of them were) and she would stay with him, no matter what. Last year, I told my mom that my step brother had been sexually abusing me for a little over two years. When I told her, she at first seemed shocked and had called him in the room with my step dad. They kicked him out of the house for two days; during those two days, my mom didn't talk to me, yet alone speak to me. She began making me feel guilty for getting in trouble, and even tried bribing with my graduation dress for my 8th grade ceremony. I eventually gave in, and they moved him back in. I was forced to live with him for six months, until I ran away to my dad's house. The thing that I have had trouble coping with is how she could have just turned away from me. It hurts so much. I would have maybe understood if she was a dad, since they don't really go through the pregnancy and the pain mothers feel. I have just have had the hardest time grasping how my mom could have just left me like that. She told I could tell her anything. Why would she have done that? I'd like to assume she just has some mental illness that she had never told me about, but maybe she just didn't care what happened to me.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 08 May 2014 14:18:19 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Intrusive thought I mastorbated to but I feel ashamed';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/intrusive_thought_i_mastorbated_to_but_i_feel_ashamed_c-3_u-136655_b-4297.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/intrusive_thought_i_mastorbated_to_but_i_feel_ashamed_c-3_u-136655_b-4297.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'Ollie319';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '4297';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I'm 20 and during school break one night decided to masturbate to some porn , and I came across this video and the pornstar looked alot like my mom , the actress had the same hair style my mom always wears and the pornstar was giving oral i like watching oral but she looked to much like my mom so I fast forward to where the porn star is riding the male pornstar and this reminded me of when I was a kid and my mom and her boyfriend would lock themselves in a room for hours and I thought to my self when I was masturbating that this is probably what they were doing , so I imagined the porn stars doing it in the room and this turned me on, but then I thought that it was gross cause that's what my mom and her boyfriend were doing , so I focused more on the porn star lady cause I just wanted to finish and go to bed , but now I feel like I jacked off to my mom and her boyfriend because It did arouse me a little but I tried finishing to the porn star , I feel sick , I hate that it turned me and that I didn't stop masturbating , I feel horrible , I was never attracted to my mom and I mastorbated that day because I was horny not cause I wanted to jack off to my mom but that video ****** it up , now I feel ashamed , this is serious , please HELP!';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 06 Mar 2013 23:32:19 -0500';
		

		data[2] = new Array();
		data[2]['title'] = 'An update ::';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_update__c-3_u-147688_b-9379.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_update__c-3_u-147688_b-9379.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'Tululaboo';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '9379';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'It has been quite some time since I was both active on the forums or in my blog (not that its much of one) but giving the new year is around the corner and the sad news of a sub-forum closing to read only I thought it was time to make a new start on here and in the real world. Despite the news about the forum I will still be using this blog as an outlet so please read with caution.<br /><br />The reason for my long inactivity was as my granddad was having a lengthy battle with kidney cancer which took his life not long ago, it was a very rapid downfall and hit everyone very hard and he sadly passed away just under 2 weeks ago and was buried 2 days ago so as you can imagine things are still raw not just with myself but family to.<br />--<br />As for myself things have been going up and down throughout the year and it has been rather hard to find some level ground amongst it all and much as before my mind is still my worst enemy constantly flooding my head and not being able to stop it. Silence is bad enough but uncontrolled thoughts are the absolute worst.<br /><br />Despite all that I do actually feel like I am in a much stronger position to keep myself out of the majority of harm and speaking from where I was to how I feel now this is one of many bricks in my foundation to staying strong. I still have things that need to be worked our and sorted through but its at least one hell of start and its something I can for once say I&#039;m proud of.<br /><br />I still do view loli/toddlercon from time to time along with /r34/ to take the sting off so things are perhaps not as strong and I&#039;m not as clean as I should be but all said and done its a step in the right direction. I know looking that stuff it is doing just as much harm as it is good but for now I&#039;d rather use it as a safety net than have nothing but a dark abyss again. I crawled out from there before and I intend on staying out of it.<br /><br />Even though there are very select few in my life that &#039;know&#039; and I put it like that as at times I feel they don&#039;t quite fully understand to extent of things which I suppose is not their fault although one person does not understand how hard it is to talk to them about things, what I think, feel or thoughts I have. I know they wont want to hear it who does and I just cannot get past that.<br /><br />My pedophilia is one on a list of things which plagues me and to be honest while I feel safer and stronger, actual support is not a lot, aside from things I have put in place like not watching television, movies and even limiting the music I listen to. Keeping myself busy with new projects, learning new languages and gaming there is not much else. It may be slow going but its all a start right.<br /><br />I expect things to be pushed and pulled but hopefully by then I can take it.<br /><br />Tulula ~';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 19 Dec 2015 10:58:47 -0500';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Confused to who i am?';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/confused_to_who_i_am%CA%94_c-3_u-86785_b-2652.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/confused_to_who_i_am%CA%94_c-3_u-86785_b-2652.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'mrlak93';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '2652';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Im a 19 year old male, believe it or not studying psychology at university. I just cant seem to find myself! I thought university would change this with me living away from home, i thought it would be the part of my life where i would blossom but no, nothings changed. <br />I have zero confidence, i cant talk to people, i shy away all the time. Ive always been an attractive person, but the exterior just doesnt reflect whats inside. I dont have many friends atall, i know alot of people and people know me but know one that i could actually get into a deep coversation with. One thing that is worrying me alot is the excessive alcohol im drinking, I drink quite often as i believe it gives me more confidence, i am able to conversate with people and actually feel like i have a purpose. Im not an alcoholic as i can take it or leave it but i do feel that if i do not start to get help i will end up turning to drink.<br />My family is pretty messed up to be honest, my mother is amazing but shes just under so much preassure with work and helping my sister who is a single mother and battleing a cannabis and alcohol addiction. I just dont want to talk to her and put more worries into her head, she wouldnt deal with it. my mother has been on anti-depressents for as long as i can remember.<br />I feel like i am really blabbing on here but this is the first time ive actually been able to think about the way i feel and what crap is actually in my head. Its getting to the stage where i just dont know which direction i am going in or how to get there. I am not suicidal but the thought has crossed my mind a few times. <br />I know by writing this im not going to be instantly fixed/cured but it has helped alot, im not asking for answers, just maybe someone to talk to or someone with advice. <br /><br />Thankyou for taking the time to read this. <br />Mike';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 07 May 2012 22:13:42 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'separation anxiety';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/separation_anxiety_c-3_u-383654_b-10563.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/separation_anxiety_c-3_u-383654_b-10563.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'donttouch';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '10563';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'my father always was suspicious as to why i get really anxious any time my boyfriend leaves. he thought i was doing drugs with him or something - i&#039;m straight edge, so no, i&#039;m not doing any drugs that cause some sort of anxiety disorder. though i did think about how whenever my boyfriend leaves i get anxious. even so when i&#039;m with him i start to get anxious because he&#039;s leaving soon. this only happens with him. i automatically assume i&#039;m never seeing him again. i panic and feel as if i cannot feel okay without him. i absolutely hate this, i don&#039;t know how to change it, the only thing i&#039;ve tried is distancing myself but that only leads to emotional distance in the relationship and makes everything worse. i don&#039;t know what to do. i don&#039;t want to depend on him to feel okay.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 21 Dec 2016 18:03:45 -0500';