var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var time = 'Sat, 09 Aug 2025 18:46:32 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Am i getting over my OCD or is it getting worse?';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_getting_over_my_ocd_or_is_it_getting_worse%CA%94_c-3_u-157601_b-4356.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_getting_over_my_ocd_or_is_it_getting_worse%CA%94_c-3_u-157601_b-4356.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Archer808';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '4356';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Im really looking for help, just insight from people who have been through this tough and stressful road... (Cant afford, to see a therapist at the moment, insurance doesn&#039;t cover lol) <br />21, young.. <br />I love people... I would give my last dollar to someone who says they need it. <br />Have trouble keeping a job, but getting one is easy as cake, I just get bored real quick..<br /><br />Now that we&#039;ve been introduced, <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><br /><br />For a few years now I&#039;ve been struggling with panic attacks and high stress...at first it was just that id get dizzy and start panicking, and my heart would feel like I was just lifting a fridge. ha<br /><br />But as the years progressed I started looking up things like schizophrenia, and ADD and OCD, and for about a year and a half now my obsession with being scizo has consumed me... what sucks is that I developed a mean phobia of people doing things to my food.. I was afraid someone had done something to things prepared for me if it be in a dinner or already packaged food.. I would come home and think, what if someone broke in and tampered with the food my mom made.. Or if the delivery guy was late, did he do something to the food... I stopped eating mushrooms (because of the fear that I may eat a magic shroom lol ) I lost alot of weight because of this...lol Which would bring me to the conclusion ( and i know self diagnosing myself is bad) but that i may be scizo...<br /><br />Well I started attacking my fears head on, and began eating again, anything, and everything... Things got better.. and worse. I still get the occasional panic attack but my mind is now consumed by other thoughts regarding me being scizo for other reasons now...<br /><br />My mind is stuck on the what if idea that one day I snap and kill someone, or hurt someone i love.. My attention has been targeted to one person, (for a small period of time) then sometimes just anyone.. i started to push myself away from sharp objects and such.. STOPPED that early. ( i knew that once i went down that road id be screwed with more weight to carry.)<br /><br />I also read that if you loose emotion towards these ideas, and instead of fearing them you become excited, or question what if you might just enjoy murder, that you may be deranged. So I (being the hypochondriac that I am) started to question this as well.. I get these weird and obsessive thoughts but now I try to laugh bout it and keep moving but i cant tell if im just getting better or tricking myself and just getting worse....<br /><br />I also adopt symptoms as i read them, like i read that someone with scizo will have difficulty speaking or writing, or doing certain things, or they may hear noises or see things, so I began finding myself watching myself, (and almost forcibly) started having difficulty with speaking, or seeing things out the corners of my eyes, or hearing things around my house... I feel great when i write or talk about it, i just want to know if anyone is on the same boat as me. Am i crazy, is this normal OCD, or am I wierder than i think lol. I can get a job, I have no difficulty getting woman, Im kind of a metro sexual so i take a little to much care of myself, I like to talk, i can get along with anyone..Im just so lost rite about now, I want out of this fear, and what feels like limbo!!!<br /><br />What scares me the most out of all of this is that i know how to write well, and speak well, maybe my grammar is horrific on this little yahoo answers piece, but when i really want to throw down i can... And thats what scares me, am i sane, and just obsessing over being crazy or just crazy pretending to sane...?<br /><br />please leave a line, much love <br />Richie';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 16 Mar 2013 17:34:21 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Confused to who i am?';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/confused_to_who_i_am%CA%94_c-3_u-86785_b-2652.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/confused_to_who_i_am%CA%94_c-3_u-86785_b-2652.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'mrlak93';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '2652';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Im a 19 year old male, believe it or not studying psychology at university. I just cant seem to find myself! I thought university would change this with me living away from home, i thought it would be the part of my life where i would blossom but no, nothings changed. <br />I have zero confidence, i cant talk to people, i shy away all the time. Ive always been an attractive person, but the exterior just doesnt reflect whats inside. I dont have many friends atall, i know alot of people and people know me but know one that i could actually get into a deep coversation with. One thing that is worrying me alot is the excessive alcohol im drinking, I drink quite often as i believe it gives me more confidence, i am able to conversate with people and actually feel like i have a purpose. Im not an alcoholic as i can take it or leave it but i do feel that if i do not start to get help i will end up turning to drink.<br />My family is pretty messed up to be honest, my mother is amazing but shes just under so much preassure with work and helping my sister who is a single mother and battleing a cannabis and alcohol addiction. I just dont want to talk to her and put more worries into her head, she wouldnt deal with it. my mother has been on anti-depressents for as long as i can remember.<br />I feel like i am really blabbing on here but this is the first time ive actually been able to think about the way i feel and what crap is actually in my head. Its getting to the stage where i just dont know which direction i am going in or how to get there. I am not suicidal but the thought has crossed my mind a few times. <br />I know by writing this im not going to be instantly fixed/cured but it has helped alot, im not asking for answers, just maybe someone to talk to or someone with advice. <br /><br />Thankyou for taking the time to read this. <br />Mike';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 07 May 2012 22:13:42 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'I think my BF has relationship anxiety';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'lonelylatina17';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '11186';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m in a long distance relationship for 8 months but we&#039;ve known each other for 3 years. Recently my BF told me that he is confused about the relationship and he&#039;s not sure he wants to be in one. Everything was going very well. I would go visit him and he&#039;d visit me. We talked everyday, texted all the time &amp; Skype. He&#039;d tell me he loved me all the time &amp; that he missed me (when we were apart). Memorial Day weekend we went camping with friends of his and we had a good time. I came home and about 3 weeks after he went MIA. He was distant. Out of the blue on Wednesday he tells me he&#039;s not sure he wants a relationship or be in one. He still wants to talk. I started searching anxiety online and found there&#039;s a thing called relationship anxiety. He does suffer from anxiety. When I read the symptoms of this type of anxiety it fit him perfectly. My question is how do I handle the situation, how can I help him? Or should I let him be so he can decide wether or not he does want to be with me. I love this guy to death so I&#039;m crushed about this. It&#039;s hard to let go.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 17 Jun 2017 00:02:18 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'eI hav a characted in my head, and he won't leave me alone.';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/ei_hav_a_characted_in_my_head_and_he_won%CA%B9t_leave_me_alone._c-3_u-282940_b-8262.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/ei_hav_a_characted_in_my_head_and_he_won%CA%B9t_leave_me_alone._c-3_u-282940_b-8262.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'pennyfortheselfish';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '8262';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'I am a 19 year old girl and I have this male character about my age in my head, he has a name and characteristics and personality and everything already thought out for him. He&#039;s not alone, he has a bunch of friends...also in my head. I switch mainly between him and me, his friends are all just there for some reason. <br /><br />When I was in middle school I was bullied and alone so I started &quot;creating friends&quot; to entertain me during lunches...now, everytime I find myself feeling lonely, they&#039;re automatically there. Sometimes they&#039;re there when I&#039;m hanging out with other (real) people but that doesn&#039;t happen too often. <br /><br />I started out thinking I have DID but now I&#039;m confused, I can tell him to leave and he will but then he comes back again. It&#039;s mostly him talking to me and giving me advice and helping me but sometimes I actually become him and I end up just sitting on my sofa, staring at the wall, or walking around my room living in this imaginary world in my head. Sometimes I end up making faces or using body language without realizing that I am. Sometimes when something happens to me (when I am him) that saddens &quot;him&quot;, I physically cry. Or I can feel pain (I don&#039;t know how to explain that). <br /><br />I often find myself isolating myself from friends and family just to be him in that world.<br /><br />I&#039;m just wondering if anyone else experiences this? What is this? I can&#039;t seem to put a word on it. Also, I have no idea why I&#039;m suddenly identifying with a male...<br /><br />I haven&#039;t seen any posts similar to this so if someone experiences this I would be really glad if they could share cause I am so confused all the time.<br /><br /><br /><br />- Penny';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 14 Apr 2015 18:26:27 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'emotional hijacking and learning to take personal responsibility';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/emotional_hijacking_and_learning_to_take_personal_responsibility_c-3_u-333179_b-9772.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/emotional_hijacking_and_learning_to_take_personal_responsibility_c-3_u-333179_b-9772.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'Stab1l1ty';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '9772';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Hello everyone! Here is another post that I wonder if anyone can relate to?<br /><br />Now I have recognized that I do have some good qualities as I began to understand and rebuild myself but I find that I have also exploited these qualities in the past, distant and and not so distant. At I times I have  even justified my actions with these qualities for example talking myself out of returning a phone call from my mother, I&#039;ll tell  myself that attending to my life changes are more important, I can&#039;t disrupt this noble and righteous work, then anger will justify the frustration of having to make these life changes then ill hold her responsible for my current emotional and mental struggles. Ill think she doesn&#039;t deserve to speak with me, she deserves to suffer like me, she should be punished. (I know very immature,  Its as if bpd is one the more extreme symptoms of immaturity)<br /><br />Or my sadness will justify my depression after acknowledging how sensitive I am.  For an example I&#039;ll use avoiding my mothers call again, I&#039;ll think to myself that I deserve to be alone for all the stress and pain I have caused others, that there is so much growth that needs to transpire before I can effectively communicate with anyone. That I don&#039;t have anything worth saying, that I don&#039;t want to worry anyone with my issues and ineptitude. (Really I&#039;m just removing a level of responsibility and accountability over my own actions that I believe I&#039;m too exhausted for, too depressed to invest my energy in to)<br />This is where My Fear interjects sometimes, creating thoughts like I would just embarrass myself if I try to educate or inform my mother on my current condition because I don&#039;t really know myself like i once believed I did, I&#039;ll sound uninformed to her, like I&#039;m not trying to change, or I&#039;m not taking the growth that needs to transpire seriously enough. (The shame would be too much to bear apparently is what Im thinking here, once again I see myself hiding from a level of responsibility because of the fear of emotional shame, which is related to heightened level of emotional sensitivity leaving me fearful of many personal and social situations/confrontations)<br /><br />Another thing I have become recently hip to is the projection of these insecurities on he world. What I believe people are thinking about me or fear that they may be thinking, really are just what i deep down think about myself. And it does not stop at people i project my demeanor on to all things, in my eyes the world has become as tumultuous as my soul, A place where joy does not exist only struggle and heartache.  I believe by improving my perception of self my projection on to the world will also improve, my perception of the world will improve and i will see the beauty of life again.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 20 Mar 2016 19:43:32 -0400';