var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
		var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/random_blogs_c-3.html';
		var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com';
		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Sat, 09 Aug 2025 08:04:44 -0400';

		var data = new Array();
		

		data[0] = new Array();
		data[0]['title'] = 'Do I have ADD?';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_add%CA%94_c-3_u-177942_b-4553.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_add%CA%94_c-3_u-177942_b-4553.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'ADDGuy';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '4553';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Hello, I am 26 yrs old. This is first entry on this forum and i also don write much so pls pardon my writing skills. Just to give a brief about myself i am a graduate (Bachelor in Engg) and currently working as a senior software engg in a tech startup. so coming to the topic it all started with me getting in to college as then only that weird feeling creeped of how different i was from others. Though i have been getting careless/ irresponsible/clumsy tags throughout my childhood from parents/teachers and how i was not living upto my potential but i used discard all remarks and didnt give much importance. but during my college time i realized that i was so inferior  to other people in the sense that   i dint have any purpose, always being confused, unaware , missing out on important deadlines, and most importantly lacking in social skills which totally destroyed my self esteem as i have never been able to build relationships and i deliberately cut contact with very few friends that i was able to make as they though supportive sometimes used to treat me like i was a kid and cudnt take care of myself. same is the case in my job. I am always missing on important points, deadlines , lost in calls, disrupting my manager in between and always missing the big picture which is hugely affecting my performance. i have consulted a reputed psychiatrist but he doesnt think i have ADD as he feels that i am too intelligent for that. but i think that ADD and intelligence are two diff things and can coexist. so i am a bit confused as to what should i do and what are the medical options (if at all they are) i should consider .. Please help????';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 20 Apr 2013 07:20:29 -0400';
		

		data[1] = new Array();
		data[1]['title'] = 'My relationship with my therapist';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_relationship_with_my_therapist_c-3_u-435562_b-11460.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_relationship_with_my_therapist_c-3_u-435562_b-11460.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'ChocoSara';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '11460';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Hi guys , <br />This is pretty awkward to me talking about anything related to therapy to anyone. I&#039;ve been seeing my therapist for a month now , we had 4 sessions and 3 walks so far. What i wanna talk about is how i can open up to him and not feel so stiff around him and end up regretting not saying all i want or any of it at all. He says we have a good relationship but it’s different for me. I feel really disconnected. I have so much to tell him but it always ends with me not saying what i REALLY wanna say , especially when we have a walk. There’s that thing i do when i feel &quot;bad&quot; , i pretend that i&#039;m telling him what i&#039;m feeling so i calm down. Maybe it’s the reason i have nothing left to say ? <br />The reason i&#039;m trying to find a way to be more open is that i feel forced by myself. I’m regretting everytime i see him and end up not saying what i feel at all , and i don’t wanna drop therapy. I really really need it. I had a really unpleasant event by the time of our 3rd session and it made me realize how lucky i am to have a therapist at all. I wanna start fresh and on good terms with him. I wanna trust him enough to be comfortable around him to make our process better and not feel pushed. And he’s just a nice person idk what’s wrong with me  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_neutral.gif" alt=":|" title="Neutral" /><br />I want to want to get better and not feel so forced by myself.';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 28 Sep 2017 04:07:19 -0400';
		

		data[2] = new Array();
		data[2]['title'] = 'Do I sound like an aspergirl? OCD, Tourettes,';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_sound_like_an_aspergirl%CA%94_ocd_tourettes_c-3_u-446650_b-12263.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_sound_like_an_aspergirl%CA%94_ocd_tourettes_c-3_u-446650_b-12263.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'Queencoco';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '12263';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Hi there!<br />20 year old girl looking for some guidance.<br />I have a history of mental health issues but have never been diagnosed with anything. My dad has Tourettes with ocd and my sister has anxiety disorder. We all take prozac for our anxieties though im not diagnosed. I have tendencies toward ocd, Aspergers, anxiety, and eating disorders but do not fit a particular box. Im going to list my obscure quirks based on which issue I think they fit and hopefully someone can help me if they relate or understand!<br /><br />OCD Tendencies:<br />I have an intense fear of germs, but only human germs. Im fine with the ocean, dirt, or sand etc as long as I can wash my hands after but I can&#039;t touch doorknobs, money, etc without washing my hands IMMEDIATELY. The strange thing is I don&#039;t obsess over what these germs will do to me, like I don&#039;t think ill get sick or die or anything, I can just &quot;feel&quot; the germ on my hand or body and it drives me crazy until I wash it off. If I touch something really dirty, I have to wash my hands 3 times for the dirty feeling to go away. <br /><br />When i was about 5 my ocd tendencies started to come out and it manifested in me being afraid of germs and dead things. Dead things WERE dirty to me. I stopped eating meat. I put my favorite toys on a high shelf and refused to play with them because I didnt want to get them dirty. I washed my hands until they’d bleed and i had to wear socks on them. Since spiders killed things, they became the dirtiest thing in the world to me. If a spider touched something, I couldnt touch that thing unless it was washed. My parents got me a “cleaning spray” (which i now suspect was just water) to spray things so i could touch them again. When I was six, a butterfly died in our hallway and got covered in ants. I had to leap over that spot in the hallway because I couldn’t touch it, and I did that until we moved out of that house 2 years later. I had meltdown after meltdown because I found out the seats in my car were made of leather.<br /><br />I still can’t touch anything if a spider has walked on it. I live in the forest, so they are always in my home. I wear shoes and socks in the house because I can’t touch the floor. If something falls on the ground I either throw it away or have to pick it up with gloves and wash it. I know this is irrational and there is no fear driving it, but if I touch any place a spider has been or if a spider touches me i have to scrub and scrub my body… this is very exhausting. <br /><br />Because of this I get overwhelmed by small tasks. My dad used to always get mad at me because I would leave the fridge door open when Id take something out of it, until I finally explained that I have to use my shirt to open the door and its very difficult because sometimes I accidentally touch the door and have to wash my hands again...etc. If i drop something on the floor in my house now I usually leave it there because otherwise I’d have to get gloves, pick it up, wash it, then wash my hands.. Etc.<br /><br />Un-identified Tendencies:<br />I hate eye contact. It feels so unnatural to me, I usually avoid it unless I know its important (job interview, date, etc) and then I have to purposefully hold my gaze and focus on looking attentive. I often stop paying attention to what people are saying because I’m focusing so hard on looking like I’m paying attention (lol). I hate sitting across from people because eye contact, I always make my boyfriend sit next to me at restaurants.<br /><br />I have trouble with personal space/boundaries. In lines I always get too close to people without realizing, my boyfriend has to pull me away/remind me to give people space.<br /><br />If I get excited about something, I talk very very loudly without noticing. I always have to be reminded to stop yelling..<br /><br />I am super clumsy and awkward. I am ALWAYS bumping into things/dropping things.. Especially in the morning.<br /><br />My sister and boyfriend recently told me that people often think I am a bitch when they first meet me because of my humor. I have a super blunt/...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_sound_like_an_aspergirl%CA%94_ocd_tourettes_c-3_u-446650_b-12263.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 14 Jul 2018 22:45:24 -0400';
		

		data[3] = new Array();
		data[3]['title'] = 'Is this Hocd anymore?';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_hocd_anymore%CA%94_c-3_u-466025_b-12760.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_hocd_anymore%CA%94_c-3_u-466025_b-12760.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'Hi12123';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '12760';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Sorry this is very long but please read this because i need help...<br />Hi, I am a 16 year old girl and have been struggling with hocd for about 2 years. It all started in 7th grade when I had an intense crush on a boy. Whenever I was around him I had butterflies and I actually wanted to marry him. He liked me too but he soon developed a crush on another girl and I wasn&#039;t even jealous because I didn&#039;t like him as much anymore. One night I was at a sleepover with my friend and I was laying on the couch when a thought popped into my head, &quot;you don&#039;t like **** anymore, are you gay?&quot; After that one thought, it has changed my life. ( I am not homophobic but I was always kinda uncomfortable around gay people at that age. But now I am not at homophobic or uncomfortable around gay people anymore)<br /><br />A couple weeks later, I was seeking reassurance on being lesbian and stumbled across the term hold. I had all of the symptoms and felt better. But, the worrying didn&#039;t stop. In 7th grade I was only scared about &quot;becoming&quot; gay, I knew i wasn&#039;t but I was just scared i was &quot;changing&quot; into being gay. I went to my school guidance counselor and she told me that it was ok if I was gay and should learn to accept it, this heightened my worrying because I couldn&#039;t handle the fact of being gay. There were times where I was not worrying and then times where I was. After a while of being worried I didn&#039;t worry about it at all. I had some thoughts here and there but ignored them. It was the start of 8th grade (the grade I am in now) and I didn&#039;t worry about it. Then it was triggered again, (I forgot how). Soon my mind made me think I had crushes on every single one of my friends (who were girls). My mind said &quot;If you aren&#039;t attracted to him, you&#039;re gay.&quot; It also started to change my past and say &quot;you like her&quot; even when I felt nothing for her when I was with her. Recently, I had a small panic attack at a restaurant where i couldn&#039;t eat any single thing (not even a small piece of rice) because I was worrying so much. My mind kept screaming &quot;your bi!...&quot; That night at the restaurant I planned to come out to my mom (my mom knows about my hocd) but the problem was that I didn&#039;t like any girls. I would also look at my friends (who were girls) and become jealous of them because they do not have to go what I go through. I would say in my head, &quot;they are so lucky that they are straight. They are going to have the best relationship&quot; <br /><br />I then began to dig into my past (i still am) and there are some things that I have done as a child that i can use as proof that I am gay. Keep in mind that I have never been attracted to anyone of the same sex besides false attractions (which is not even real attraction). My mind would also say &quot;All the girls think your older brother is cute, but you don&#039;t. This means your gay.&quot; And now that I am writing that, what on Earth was I thinking, am i stupid? Lol. I would also have false attractions for people on TV shows and have dreams and wake up feeling aroused and feeling that I liked it. I know that arousal doesn&#039;t mean your gay so it doesn&#039;t worry me at all.<br /><br />I know that I like boys but I am just scared that I like girls to. I always wanted to have a boyfriend but now I do not as much. My mind is now saying &quot;being with a girl isn&#039;t so bad.&quot; &quot;it will be fun to be in a relationship with a girl&quot; I have never dreamed about girls the way I have dreamed about boys and the only relationship I want with girls is friendship. But as i am writing this my mind is saying, &quot;you wouldn&#039;t mind it, it would be fun!&quot; Whenever I go out, it is just natural for me to want to impress a guy. I have never wanted to dress to impress a girl. I cant picture my future with a girl because its just not me. I also don&#039;t think it is necessary to come out because deep down I know i&#039;m not.<br />I used to have bad intrusive thoughts, but now those thoughts aren&#039;t even...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_hocd_anymore%CA%94_c-3_u-466025_b-12760.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 27 Apr 2019 03:06:40 -0400';
		

		data[4] = new Array();
		data[4]['title'] = 'Do I have some serious disorder or something?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_some_serious_disorder_or_something%CA%94_c-3_u-195253_b-4712.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_some_serious_disorder_or_something%CA%94_c-3_u-195253_b-4712.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'summerbummer';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '4712';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m 19 years old and for my entire life I&#039;ve been having troubles feeling anything at all. I always thought there was some logical and simple explanation to why I wasn&#039;t like everyone else, and I assumed it would heal with time, but it didn&#039;t. It just keeps getting worse. First let me begin with that I&#039;m completely unable to open up to other people. I have never opened up. To anyone. If I&#039;m even close to doing it I feel disgusted by myself, I get nausea and an urge to flee. I&#039;ve also never cared like others. I can&#039;t really feel empathy. Or I mean, I can, for like animals and my family, but no one else. I&#039;m literally serious when I say my best friend could die tomorrow and I wouldn&#039;t be able to feel a thing. Obviously I&#039;d think it&#039;s sad, but it wouldn&#039;t effect me on an emotional level. <br /><br />I hide this part of me, and I certainly don&#039;t talk about it with anyone. I want to be normal but I just can&#039;t. I have tried to involve myself in other people, in relationships, and even - in my sillier moments - in love. But it doesn&#039;t work. Something in me is broken or missing. I love my immediate family, but that&#039;s about it. I can lie without feeling any kind of remorse, I manipulate people very easily, and when someone really gets on my bad side, I just attack their weaknesses and break them down with words. It&#039;s terrible, I know, but I can&#039;t stop. Even as I write it, I know I say it&#039;s terrible, but I don&#039;t feel terrible. I just know that it&#039;s not how a person should act. I could never physically hurt another person, but not because it would make me feel bad but more because I know it&#039;s wrong. <br /><br />My condition is just getting worse, I&#039;ve started to distance myself from everybody because I feel so tired of wearing a mask and constantly faking to like what they like or play their stupid games. I don&#039;t love others. I&#039;m incapable of feeling on a deeper level, there are no strong emotions in me. I feel narcisstic but at the same time I hate myself. I can get furious very easily but it goes away as quickly as it comes. I haven&#039;t had such a bad childhood but I mean my mother was going through her hardest part of life when I was a kid, and she took it out on me a lot. Sometimes physically but mostly mentally, such as I constantly heard that I was a bad kid, and bad news, and she blamed me for a lot of stuff that wasn&#039;t really my fault. She changed and got so much better when I was like 13 or something and now she&#039;s the best mom ever and apologized 200 times but I can&#039;t seem to let go. It&#039;s stuck with me.. I&#039;m seriously worried that my condition will become worse and something bad will happen... What&#039;s wrong with me?';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 29 May 2013 13:16:46 -0400';