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		var time = 'Wed, 03 Sep 2025 22:05:21 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'I think I am Covert narcissists and a gifted';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_i_am_covert_narcissists_and_a_gifted_c-3_u-290002_b-8642.html';
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		data[0]['username'] = 'MarC0Sand0';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '8642';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Whole of my life I know that I am unique. Since I was 7 years old I can feel that I am always out of place from other children. I can&#039;t feel any deep connection. I was just always quiet and shy. <br />My situation at home is that I have a parents whose having an incredibly expectation from me since I was always in 1st section in the class. My mother is always spoiling me(also having codependency tendency), my father will never listen to anyone aside from himself and always having a rough words(narcissistic tendency) and I have a big brother who I think having autism with narcissistic personality disorder who is a big bully in my life that always abuse me physically and verbally.<br /><br />My brother abuse me a lot verbally(threatening, bullying, devaluing) almost everyday since I was 13 I already used silent treatment in our relationship till now that I was 20. Thanks a lot since he moved to other place now. <br /><br />When I was 16 and I am in college I went far away from home to study in university. This is the time that I can really conclude that I have something inside of me. I became so depressed, but I don&#039;t want to commit suicide. All of the characteristics of covert narcissists I did. <br /><br /><br /><br />___ I can become entirely absorbed in thinking about my personal affairs, my health, my cares or my relations to others.<br />___ My feelings are easily hurt by ridicule or the slighting remarks of others.<br />___ When I enter a room I often become self-conscious and feel that the eyes of others are upon me.<br />___ I dislike sharing the credit of an achievement with others.<br />___ I feel that I have enough on my hand without worrying about other people&#039;s troubles.<br />___ I feel that I am temperamentally different from most people.<br />___ I often interpret the remarks of others in a personal way.<br />___ I easily become wrapped up in my own interests and forget the existence of others.<br />___ I dislike being with a group unless I know that I am appreciated by at least one of those present.<br />___ I am secretly &quot;put out&quot; or annoyed when other people come to me with their troubles, asking me for their time and sympathy.<br />___ I am jealous of good-looking people.<br />___ I tend to feel humiliated when criticized.<br />___ I wonder why other people aren&#039;t more appreciative of my good qualities.<br />___ I tend to see other people as being either great or terrible.<br />___ I sometimes have fantasies about being violent without knowing why.<br />___ I am especially sensitive to success and failure.<br />___ I have problems that nobody else seems to understand.<br />___ I try to avoid rejection at all costs.<br />___ My secret thoughts, feelings, and actions would horrify some of my friends.<br />___ I tend to become involved in relationships in which I alternately adore and despise the other person.<br />___ Even when I am in a group of friends, I often feel very alone and uneasy.<br />___ I resent others who have what I lack.<br />___ Defeat or disappointment usually shame or anger me, but I try not to show it.<br /><br />Link to the above information: http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/beautiful-minds/23-signs-youe28099re-secretly-a-narcissist-masquerading-as-a-sensitive-introvert/<br /><br />I will admit. It&#039;s like reading my self. . .<br /><br /><br />last two months ago. While watching youtube I suddenly came up with &quot;How to know a secret narcissists&quot;. First I was just having fun but when I literally looked at it. That&#039;s me. So I researched it and found the questions above.<br /><br />Talking of being gifted. I&#039;m not just telling this since I am a narcissists &#039;cause I literally have evidences that I am a gifted. I take an online IQ test and I range in a gifted person. I also members musical bands, marching band, Rondalla(string instrument players) and I always excel and excellent in this area. I also always competing in chess competition and got 2nd place in national level. And a very good math thinker. I am not telling lies but it&#039;s up to you if you will. Since I am an ultimate pathological lair I might lying. <br /><br />But this is where I am confused since gifted and covert narcissists...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_i_am_covert_narcissists_and_a_gifted_c-3_u-290002_b-8642.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 06 Jul 2015 21:31:54 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Do you think this is depression or bipolar?';
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		data[1]['username'] = 'livestrong';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '6821';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I looked up the symptoms for both and the hypochondriac in me thinks I&#039;ve got every disorder and disease on the planet.. <br /><br /><br />I know something is up with me because I&#039;m so different from the people who surround me. I&#039;m so sensitive to everything and everyone and I feel things so deeply and intensely. And so quickly. I&#039;m quite moody, especially as of late, and I&#039;m very irritable. I chalked it up to the recent passing of my mother (about a month and a half ago), but it&#039;s still weird. I hate the people closest to me sometimes. Not my friends, not strangers, not acquaintances.. Only my absolute best friends, those who are truly close to me and those I truly love and care for.. I genuinely hate them at certain points. Just everything about their existence and I want to cut them out of my life sometimes. All for no reason. I&#039;ll also feel bursts of love and appreciation for them, all of which are phases and pass. <br /><br />I initially thought bipolar disorder because of the intense mood swings, but they happen so frequently; definitely not a week or longer. If I felt any single emotion for a week or longer, I would probably lose my mind. My moods change daily, but for the most part, I&#039;ve got a pretty decent disposition. I&#039;m usually really content. Ever since the lost of my mother, though, I never really know what I&#039;m going to get when I wake up. Some days are good.. Some days, however, aren&#039;t so good. <br /><br /><br />I know someone who suffers from bipolar disorder and I don&#039;t see many similarities. When she&#039;s up, she&#039;s up. She contacts all of her friends and is there for them, helping them with whatever she can, making all these plans and just seems personable. When she&#039;s down, she ignores everyone and doesn&#039;t care if you need anything from her, even just some of her time to vent to her. She becomes very selfish and cold and distant for quite a few days, if not weeks at a time. <br /><br />I&#039;m not like that. I&#039;m always there for my friends. Sometimes I don&#039;t answer because I&#039;m busy or I forget to respond, or just have nothing to say or don&#039;t feel like talking to you, but I don&#039;t drop off the face of the earth or anything like that. And I only really take out my mood swings on those closest to me by just being irritable and touchy. I also read about &quot;manic states&quot;, which I don&#039;t believe that I have any. There aren&#039;t specific times that I&#039;ll be more likely to spend money, or engage in destructive behavior, or drink/consume substances.. I drink on occasions, I don&#039;t partake in any drug usage (other than my weekly vitamin D pills lol), and I&#039;ve always spent money in the same patterns. No peaks or valleys. <br /><br /><br />I&#039;m sorry for writing so much, I just wanted to address everything that I could think of.. I don&#039;t have insurance so I can&#039;t see a professional any time soon.. And I certainly can&#039;t afford paying out of pocket.. I financially support myself now that my mom&#039;s passed and I&#039;m still in college. I understand you guys can&#039;t actually diagnose me correctly but whatever thoughts you have, feel free to share.. Maybe you went through similar things? Or maybe this is just normal for human beings? Dunno. Thanks ahead of time.';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 29 Apr 2014 16:33:11 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'eI hav a characted in my head, and he won't leave me alone.';
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		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/ei_hav_a_characted_in_my_head_and_he_won%CA%B9t_leave_me_alone._c-3_u-282940_b-8262.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'pennyfortheselfish';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '8262';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I am a 19 year old girl and I have this male character about my age in my head, he has a name and characteristics and personality and everything already thought out for him. He&#039;s not alone, he has a bunch of friends...also in my head. I switch mainly between him and me, his friends are all just there for some reason. <br /><br />When I was in middle school I was bullied and alone so I started &quot;creating friends&quot; to entertain me during lunches...now, everytime I find myself feeling lonely, they&#039;re automatically there. Sometimes they&#039;re there when I&#039;m hanging out with other (real) people but that doesn&#039;t happen too often. <br /><br />I started out thinking I have DID but now I&#039;m confused, I can tell him to leave and he will but then he comes back again. It&#039;s mostly him talking to me and giving me advice and helping me but sometimes I actually become him and I end up just sitting on my sofa, staring at the wall, or walking around my room living in this imaginary world in my head. Sometimes I end up making faces or using body language without realizing that I am. Sometimes when something happens to me (when I am him) that saddens &quot;him&quot;, I physically cry. Or I can feel pain (I don&#039;t know how to explain that). <br /><br />I often find myself isolating myself from friends and family just to be him in that world.<br /><br />I&#039;m just wondering if anyone else experiences this? What is this? I can&#039;t seem to put a word on it. Also, I have no idea why I&#039;m suddenly identifying with a male...<br /><br />I haven&#039;t seen any posts similar to this so if someone experiences this I would be really glad if they could share cause I am so confused all the time.<br /><br /><br /><br />- Penny';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 14 Apr 2015 18:26:27 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Boyfriend with Bi-Polar disorder';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/boyfriend_with_bipolar_disorder_c-3_u-82326_b-2219.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/boyfriend_with_bipolar_disorder_c-3_u-82326_b-2219.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'TylerElise';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '2219';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'so my boyfriend of a year and a half has bipolar disorder. We&#039;ve broken up and fought many times over the past but everything always goes back to normal once he&#039;s done with that particular cycle. I know it sounds awful to go through but I am willing to and it is worth it to me. I&#039;d never hold it against him because I&#039;ve done my fair share of learning about the disorder and I know that he can&#039;t help it. I love him and I want to see him happy and I know I make him happy it&#039;s just when he gets moody it&#039;s always me. And I know that when he doesn&#039;t know what&#039;s wrong he&#039;s going to take it out on the person closest to him which is me, and I know I can&#039;t do anything about it, and that sucks. We&#039;ve talked about his disorder before and he realized that I&#039;m the only one who&#039;s there for him. <br /><br />Now getting to what&#039;s going on right now, we hadn&#039;t fought in two months and everything was perfect and I knew that it was long overdue for him to go through a depressive, angry or manic cycle. Last Sunday I saw him and everything was fine, then that night when he was working he texted me and told me he was depressed, I know better than to ask him why or what&#039;s wrong so I just told him that if he needs me I&#039;m here but if he needs his space I understand. He told me that he needed some space he just didn&#039;t want to have to say it, so we didn&#039;t talk because I wanted to respect that he needed space. On valentines day, that tuesday, I didn&#039;t want to waste my card so I drove the hour to see him and I put it on his doorstep and I left, as to not bother him. In the middle of the night he sent me a long text saying how he needs someone more mature and how I&#039;m too negative and how he wants to break up. I&#039;m neither of those things. He said he&#039;s on a path to self discovery as well. After we talked about that I asked if he got my card and he said yes and no, that he got it but he didn&#039;t read it, he hid it from himself in case he has a change of heart like he does other times with the things I give him when stuff like this happens. <br /><br />We didn&#039;t talk all week and then today, Saturday, I don&#039;t know why but I had to say how I felt. So I sent him this long thing about how I felt and he was really nasty about it (which I was expecting). I just needed him to think about what he&#039;s doing. Also all week he has been tweeting all these sad song lyrics or he sounds happy. And in the past he&#039;s seemed happy and he would be out with his friends having a good time and not talking to me but that&#039;s expected and he&#039;d always come back. The last time I told him how I felt and how his bipolar disorder was affecting me (because he knew he was bipolar he just had no idea what it meant) he got really angry at first but he called me later and told me that I was right and that he was sorry. <br /><br />Everyone I&#039;ve tried talking to about this just tells me I need to tell him to go on medication. He&#039;s tried it and doesn&#039;t like it and it&#039;s not my place to push him to do so. I know the real reasons he&#039;s upset are because he&#039;s a 20 year old boy who thinks his life is over because he hasn&#039;t started college yet, and I&#039;ve been trying to help him to go to college, and I&#039;m in no way trying to hold him back. I know he&#039;s just going through a cycle and he&#039;s not being himself right now and all of the other times he&#039;s always come back. It&#039;s just never lasted this long. I know it can&#039;t be the same every time but I just wanted to see some other opinions. <br /><br />For now I just know I need to give him the space he needs and respect that and hopefully he&#039;ll come back sooner or later. I&#039;ve been told I should leave him countless times by others but that&#039;s not what I want to do in the least bit. <br /><br />Opinions? Advice?';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 18 Feb 2012 16:06:12 -0500';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Narcissists, Abuse &amp; Adultery';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/narcissists_abuse_adultery_c-3_u-197727_b-4746.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/narcissists_abuse_adultery_c-3_u-197727_b-4746.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'maripazlara';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '4746';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Everyone has a dream no matter how simple it is or impossible to achieve we do the best we can to achieve it in a good way of course. As a young girl my dream was to get married in church, have children, have a house, a steady income and so on and so forth. You know what I&#039;m saying. My first husband was very dedicated and ambitious. He was an excellent provider and I always knew I could count on him. The demise of my first marriage was lacking the skill of understanding of a wife and being supportive. Although, we were blessed with 2 great sons I didn&#039;t give it my all. I was so confident in fact overly confident that since we had everything that I became so comfortable. After 15 years of marriage it ended due to lack of things in my part like communication and just being a wife. It was a devastating experience but, only when I stepped back did realize he was always reaching out to me but I was not emotionally available. Although, there was a different type of love it was more of respect I had for him. While the divorce was in process I dipped my toes in the dating scene to realize that boy oh boy it was so different way back then when men will come over to your house, court you, bring you presents and ask your parents permission. Now it became more of a meat market. For a few years I enjoyed it. After 3 years my divorce was finalized. But, the dating scene made me feel more empty that finding a man is quite difficult a good one I should say. With so many options, technology and how society views a relationship which was a hush hush before was just normal. Of course due to my religious belief I never stopped praying and hoping that someday I will be blessed with the right man more so a man of God. As I continue my search I was asked to meet a man by my room mate’s best friend who happens to be her best friend’s room mate. I was hesitant for I already have set my standards of what I wanted and who I wanted to be man of God, ethnicity wise, height, education, looks, financial status, morals, loyalty, fidelity  and values you name it I had it written down. When I met this man he was 40 and the first thing he said he just got home at 5am for he was in the club with friends in their 20&#039;s. That, not to sound judgmental should be the first big red flag. He was grilling some meat and as soon as it was cooked he was serving everyone and making sure all the ladies were taken care of red flag number 2. As the afternoon dies and getting closer to the evening he wanted to talk to me more. We sat down he told me he is separated although his family is in San Diego him and his wife still share one house but separate bedroom because they have 2 daughters. Then we started praying together now that one was a big plus for me since most of the man I dated either doesn&#039;t believe in God or doesn&#039;t practice their religion at all. I really liked him. He sent me roses at work and we would talk on the phone for hours. From that day we were inseparable. Everything happened so quick we moved in together and got a place. After 4 months I noticed he placed some ads and searching on craigslist for fun. That should be red flag number 3. I never did confronted him until I found out on his face book which he posted our pictures that he has strings of women again red flag number 4. That same year he filed for divorce and the ink wasn&#039;t dry on his divorce papers he wanted us to get married before 2010 ended. I was happy don&#039;t get me wrong but quite confused as to what the rush was since our sponsors will be in Bahamas and won&#039;t be back until first week of January 2011 found out  due to taxes that may have been red flag number 5 but I was aware about it but I still filed Married filing separate. The course of our marriage was very chaotic since his daughter moved in with us she still couldn&#039;t grasp the divorce that happened to her parents even if both have their own partners. For months I subjected my self with verbal abuse and demeaning things both my second husband and...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/narcissists_abuse_adultery_c-3_u-197727_b-4746.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 06 Jun 2013 18:09:12 -0400';