var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Wed, 10 Sep 2025 22:06:06 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Old self harm scars, military, psychology-- question.';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/old_self_harm_scars_military_psychology_question._c-3_u-259312_b-6926.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/old_self_harm_scars_military_psychology_question._c-3_u-259312_b-6926.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'AriMcGuire';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '6926';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Hi! <br /><br />Well I&#039;m 24 years old, my scars are a decade old, literally. When I was younger, I grew up in a war called &quot;home&quot; and I suppressed my emotions, I always had a smile on, was always making others laugh, pretending pain was not reality. It was reality alright, I broke at the tender age of 14, but I never wanted to die. I had harmed myself in order to understand the feelings others would get from cutting, but I could never seem to find the pleasure through it, it hurt! I did this a few times until I said &quot;enough is enough there must be another way!&quot;-- And truthfully the only way was simply getting my life together, it all starts from within. I learned to deal with pain on my own, no help. I&#039;ve been through a lot and have made plenty of mistakes, but I believe and KNOW my past does NOT define the strong woman I am today. <br /><br />I&#039;ve always wanted to serve my country, I&#039;ve been a protector since a child, the fuel to the fire actually started at home protecting my mother and sister from my father, then I proceeded behind the doors of my homes, such as protecting ones from bullies. I want to enlist with the Air Force in a year, do a bit more college before hand, and I want to major in psychology. I&#039;d love to help anyone in general, from my personal experiences I have helped many, and I will not stop being there for others, guiding them, showing them there is a way. I feel there&#039;s too many people that go into professions that give service onto others simply for the money, instead of doing it because it comes from the heart, because they genuinely care, and want to help. <br /><br />I&#039;ve seen positive and negative thoughts over my past and how it can disqualify me, I will still try my best and give it my all, but what is your thoughts on this? And even if I do get disqualified, I&#039;m gonna continue my studies towards becoming a psychologist. I can still become one, right? It would be a shame to know all years I&#039;d put into something I love I&#039;d be denied from because of my past mistakes. <br /><br />Thank you!';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 14 May 2014 22:51:20 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Who or what am I?';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/who_or_what_am_i%CA%94_c-3_u-129876_b-4050.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/who_or_what_am_i%CA%94_c-3_u-129876_b-4050.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'caramellacrisby';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '4050';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I have been confused all my life.. like several others... But recently.. I just can not take it any more...<br />Well.. Most of the time its just- who am I, WHY AM i, WHere AM I... Whats going on..?? What is this place.. this world..?? I must be a human being by this wolrds semiotic system.. i have two hands, head, eyes, etc.. what all other creatures considered as humans have... and there is such life around us.. what we live.. with rules... with manners... how things are supposed to be... well.. it doesnt make much sense to me... i am able to follow this worlds orders on my better moments.. but sometimes im just like- why, wtf?? Why should i.. <br />Sometimes again I live normal life.. according to this world... I can pretend like normal human being.. i can even forget for some time... my confusion.. but it comes back...<br />I have had moments of horror... When I am afraid of everything.. I can sit in a corner of a room, my back against a wall... or go under blanket.. hide there... from the world... to calm down...<br />Then I have moments of emptyness... when i think.. that not even moving my hand.. inhaling.. its not worth it.. as there is no point... whats the point to eat, to walk.. to put one lef in front of another.. to move on.. what for? why to buy a new computer, why to go to work.. why to study? why to function in this world...<br />im not sad... i dont care... i dont know... i dont see the point...<br />i do care about others suffering.. i care about sad and heartbroken or lonely people, sick people in pain, hungry animals.. etc... but what can i do for them? nothing.. i cant help myself...<br />i have started to avoid people and social events.. its not that i can not enjoy them.. i dont know how to even behave there... they dance and drink and talk.. but im thinking- whats the point? <br />I can still enjoy some emotional movies or books.. they get me off my confusion.. but real life.. not any more.. <br />i used to have some good friends and we had fun.. we were traveling and doing things together...<br />now i want to be alone.. hide from worls and people... <br />i used to feel like in Robbie Williams song-<br />I dont wanna die, but I aint keen on living either...<br />but now Im feeling...<br />I dont want to live this world and this life, but Im afraid of death too...<br /><br />So, I dont really know what to do... I can not die, I can not live.. Im just a empty soul... somewhere... somehow...';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 23 Jan 2013 09:15:14 -0500';
		

		data[2] = new Array();
		data[2]['title'] = 'I am new here';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_am_new_here_c-3_u-353949_b-10063.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_am_new_here_c-3_u-353949_b-10063.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'forbiddenskills';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '10063';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Would love to help someone solve their mind related issues.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 13 Jul 2016 13:40:23 -0400';
		

		data[3] = new Array();
		data[3]['title'] = 'What Now?';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/what_now%CA%94_c-3_u-258910_b-6958.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/what_now%CA%94_c-3_u-258910_b-6958.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'shortsnorts';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '6958';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'So, my step brother took the plea. What now? What happens next? I have been preparing for the worst, and now I&#039;m suppose to be happy? I don&#039;t understand.';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 19 May 2014 19:19:31 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Need help, am I gay bi or straight?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/need_help_am_i_gay_bi_or_straight%CA%94_c-3_u-252308_b-6176.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/need_help_am_i_gay_bi_or_straight%CA%94_c-3_u-252308_b-6176.html';
		data[4]['username'] = '23yroldguy';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '6176';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Hi there, I need some help.  I am very confused about my Sexuality and not sure whether I am gay or bi, or even straight.  <br /><br />I&#039;ll tell you my story,  I am from South America and as a kid I messed around with my friends sexually just trying to experiment as it was easier than getting girls...  We wanted girls but decided to play around with each other...   That was when I was 13-15 I am now 23.  We probably spent half a year messing about, if was never emotional or anything like that but just sexual..  <br /><br />I&#039;ve lived all my life liking girls ever since and have felt love for women too.  I&#039;ve had two Gfs (real ones), the last one I was with for five years and the current one for around 7 months.    I&#039;ve never really looked at guys at all in any emotional way but I do like to mess around with guys sexually..  And have done a few times in the last 6years..  From oral to sex.   Most of the time I didn&#039;t enjoy it but it was a sexual thing and fancied oral sex...  That&#039;s as far as it got with men...  Just casual sexual encounters...  Not often but we could say once ever three or four months...  I haven&#039;t since with my Gf as I have been truly happy with her and feel deeply in love with her and always have enjoyed her body too.  <br /><br />Around two weeks ago or just a bit less than that I told her about my sexual experiences and that I think I might be bisexual,   however since then I have developed somewhat of an ocd, hocd...  Re questioning my Sexuality asking myself whether my whole life as straight has been an illusion and even force myself to see myself with a guy.  It doesn&#039;t really attract me, but I can&#039;t say I would never do it as I think if I can sexually be aroused by men too then it means something,  and I have not been able to stop forcing myself into thinking if I am gay or not, and that surely I must be if I fantasise about men whilst with women,  <br /><br />I don&#039;t understand whether it&#039;s something in my head that has caused me to not stop thinking about my sexual orientation or whether I&#039;m gay but have never really seen it until now, the emotional side I mean...  And reconfuse myself by acknowledging that I haven&#039;t really at all ever felt emotions for guys, but many times for girls.  <br /><br />I guess I need to establish whether I can be straight and then turn gay, or if I&#039;m simply bisexual, or if I just like sex with men too..  And that&#039;s it.  As that&#039;s how it&#039;s felt all my life.  <br /><br />I think about everything to do with this, asking myself if it&#039;s that I don&#039;t want to be gay and I just have forced myself to be straight, but it&#039;s hard to put that to ground as I think at least I would have acknowledged emotions for men before, which I truly haven&#039;t until all this began.  <br /><br />Any ideas comments would be greatly appreciated.. As I can&#039;t even function a normal life atm..  And when I think of being gay and not being with my current Gf it makes me sick as I want to be with her,  or maybe I want it that way because it would just be easier?.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 16 Jan 2014 08:34:00 -0500';