var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var time = 'Tue, 02 Sep 2025 17:00:49 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'My First Post - About me-please reply';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_first_post_about_meplease_reply_c-3_u-81651_b-2133.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_first_post_about_meplease_reply_c-3_u-81651_b-2133.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'operakid';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '2133';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;ve recently been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder(Depressive type) after 3 years of hell.  Its hit me hard as i always thought things would turn out better , if you get me. Ive had bad days alot.  And some good days. Im on medication , abilfy 15mg , fluxotine 30mg  a day and i feel that it just works for a bit then stops.  In the past i had taken seroquel which didnt work at all and risperidone which did work but i had bad side effects and had to change drug.  Its doing my head in.  I just want to get better ! I wish there was a mircle drug or something , something that would take the voices away.  The voices are loud and agressive, they tell me to do things that i shouldnt do.  Things got so bad i was admitted to a mental health unit for 3 months.  I was in a safe place but  i got no help with coping and my medication was removed in the process which added insult to injury.<br /><br />I feel very alone as i have no one to talk to who has the same diagnoses as me, understands me, or understands what i am going through.<br />I would like to be able to use this forum to meet people who are similarly affected and able to understand and offer support as id like to do the same.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 06 Feb 2012 03:23:11 -0500';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Am I just Paranoid or crazy..';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_just_paranoid_or_crazy.._c-3_u-279532_b-8138.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_just_paranoid_or_crazy.._c-3_u-279532_b-8138.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'hazey-gal';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '8138';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I  carry around a little pocket knife , when its just me and my daughter home. I won&#039;t take a nap when my daughter is sleeping aswell because I&#039;m scared someone might take her while im sleeping or threaten to hurt her to make me do things. My mind continuously comes up with bad situations (example-if someone is knocking at the door I get paranoid they might force there way inside and hurt me or my family so ignore it but then I think if I  ignore it they might think no ones home and break in ). I  feel safe when my partner and everyone is home, but when its bedtime I lay awake and feel like someone&#039;s watching me from the windows or is going to break In and kill all of us. When I dose off I wake up scared when I feel my partner is gone and I jump to conclusions he has been dragged away and stabbed but in reality he just goes to the toilet a lot during the night . I usually end up grabbing a knife and putting it safely near me till I finally fall asleep which normally is around 3 in the morning. I feel it&#039;s my job to protect my family and if I let my guard down, someone will take their life&#039;s away and mine. I try to talk to my partner about it but he just says &quot;stop thinking silly&quot;, I&#039;m trying to stop but its not easy.  Am I just to paranoid or crazy...';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 10 Mar 2015 09:12:20 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'Shoplifting Mother!! HELP!';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/shoplifting_mother%C7%83%C7%83_help%C7%83_c-3_u-446624_b-12259.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/shoplifting_mother%C7%83%C7%83_help%C7%83_c-3_u-446624_b-12259.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'Greyartist';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '12259';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Hi, this will be my first post on here and I really need some advice or help and I’m beyond desperate. My mother is a shoplifter, and I’m only a teenager and I’m the only one in the family that knows and I’m scared to go anywhere with her because I know she will steal items. <br /><br /> So basically since before I can remember, my Mom would steal things. Mainly it was groceries (she would get plastic reusable bags and bag everything up in an empty aisle and walk out looking like she payed) and I remember watching her do this when I was around 5 and not realizing it was stealing. I didn’t realize until i was around 7. She wouldn’t just steal groceries tho, she would steal perfume, lotion, makeup, shoes and other goods. This is where it gets a bit complicated, after doing this for years, she got caught around 2years ago and was put on house arrest, I am the only person who knows that she has ever shoplifted/ that she was on House Arrest. At the time, she told me she had a disorder and was going to seek treatment, but she never did. After she attempted a fake 2 minute apology for years of emotional distress, I sort of forgave her. I know it seems impossible but deep down inside, i wanted to believe that she just made a mistake and that everything was going to stop. And for a little bit, it did. I didn’t really see her take anything and I thought she was better, until she started again. One day we were at the store and I saw some stuff she stuffed into her purse and I couldn’t take it and ran out of the store into the car. She then came into the car after finishing shopping, and flipped out. She kept on pressing me to tell her what made we leave and sorta came off scary when she began listing off random reasons I ran out, (Did you see your crush? Did something happen on Instagram? Etc) then she got this overly confused (and sort of scary) exaggerated face and went, “is it because of ME?” I just kept on saying no to everything she said cause I didn’t know what else to say. Things have just gotten worst from there, one time I was in the store with her (cause she manipulated me to go with her I didn’t want to) and I was walking behind her and she started getting REALLY mad at me for no reason. She said “stop stalking me you weirdo” and “go find this random thing, NOW”. I just walked a few feet away and I kept my eye on her and she went into an empty aisle and shoved some stuff into her purse. When we were waking out the alarm thing went off and my heart sank but nothing happened, we just kept walking  and no one realized. In the past months or so she has appeared with new makeup and luxury soap and lotion and all this crap, and she has come home with groceries in reusable bags, meaning she stole it. Recently she noticed I was getting extremely distant from her (and I think rightfully so),and we had “a talk”. after prying for ever, I told her it was because of her taking stuff and she took a FIRM position that she hasn’t taken anything since she was on House Arrest and that she only stole stuff in the first place because she was “desperate” and didn’t have money, however that’s a straight lie. We aren’t by any means super well off, but when she started stealing my Dad had a great job and we were going on vacations to Disneyland, Las Vegas and California. Not to mention my grandparents are relatively well off and would help us out if we really were that “desperate”. Anyways, she started pathetically crying SWEARING she hadn’t done anything, but I know for a fact she has. That night I went to a friends house and she sent me an angry text saying I was going to start showing her respect “and stop treating her like a thief” BUT SHE IS ONE. Now, we are in an awkward position, and it’s extremely complicated because she’s my mom and I want to love her and sometimes we get along sort of (it sounds crazy I know) but I’m starting to come to a breaking point. Thank you so much if you’ve read all of this.<br />I’m currently crying while typing this, it probably ...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/shoplifting_mother%C7%83%C7%83_help%C7%83_c-3_u-446624_b-12259.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 14 Jul 2018 01:13:38 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Old self harm scars, military, psychology-- question.';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/old_self_harm_scars_military_psychology_question._c-3_u-259312_b-6926.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/old_self_harm_scars_military_psychology_question._c-3_u-259312_b-6926.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'AriMcGuire';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '6926';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Hi! <br /><br />Well I&#039;m 24 years old, my scars are a decade old, literally. When I was younger, I grew up in a war called &quot;home&quot; and I suppressed my emotions, I always had a smile on, was always making others laugh, pretending pain was not reality. It was reality alright, I broke at the tender age of 14, but I never wanted to die. I had harmed myself in order to understand the feelings others would get from cutting, but I could never seem to find the pleasure through it, it hurt! I did this a few times until I said &quot;enough is enough there must be another way!&quot;-- And truthfully the only way was simply getting my life together, it all starts from within. I learned to deal with pain on my own, no help. I&#039;ve been through a lot and have made plenty of mistakes, but I believe and KNOW my past does NOT define the strong woman I am today. <br /><br />I&#039;ve always wanted to serve my country, I&#039;ve been a protector since a child, the fuel to the fire actually started at home protecting my mother and sister from my father, then I proceeded behind the doors of my homes, such as protecting ones from bullies. I want to enlist with the Air Force in a year, do a bit more college before hand, and I want to major in psychology. I&#039;d love to help anyone in general, from my personal experiences I have helped many, and I will not stop being there for others, guiding them, showing them there is a way. I feel there&#039;s too many people that go into professions that give service onto others simply for the money, instead of doing it because it comes from the heart, because they genuinely care, and want to help. <br /><br />I&#039;ve seen positive and negative thoughts over my past and how it can disqualify me, I will still try my best and give it my all, but what is your thoughts on this? And even if I do get disqualified, I&#039;m gonna continue my studies towards becoming a psychologist. I can still become one, right? It would be a shame to know all years I&#039;d put into something I love I&#039;d be denied from because of my past mistakes. <br /><br />Thank you!';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 14 May 2014 22:51:20 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Logging My Journey';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/logging_my_journey_c-3_u-289698_b-8568.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/logging_my_journey_c-3_u-289698_b-8568.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'maggie246816';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '8568';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'I saw that people on this website are able to have a blog, and I took that opportunity. Though I may not have much experience with blogging--besides having a tumblr account--I love to write. Amd I&#039;d like to document everything that happens to me. <br /><br />My name is Maggie. I&#039;m an 18 year old caucasian (biological) female. I do prefer male pronouns, but not many people acknowledge that. <br /><br />Thus far, my significant other (Autumn) and I have met two alters. The most prominent alter&#039;s name is Reiner. To my embarrassment, he is a character from the anime &quot;Attack on Titan&quot;. Reiner Braun is a rather tall, muscular blonde boy. If you want more information on the character, check the anime&#039;s wiki. <br /><br />He is friendly most of the time, but he can be pretty aggressive or sad or angry or confused or frustrated... He&#039;s an alter. He&#039;s a person... Kind of. I like to think that he is his own person. <br /><br />Strangely enough, I&#039;ve spoken to him, before. A few nights ago, I switched to Reiner mode. Autumn told me that he was freaking out and panicking and speaking in German. (For the record, I only know how to say a few things in German.) Somehow, in the midst of his anxiety attack, my mind showed up. I felt as if he was sitting directly next to me... And I started speaking to him (in English). After a while of using Google Translate and trying to calm him down, he began speaking in English, again. Reiner was talking to Autumn and me about what was bothering him, why he was so afraid... This experience was one of the weirdest and scariest things I&#039;ve ever been through. <br /><br />(TRIGGER WARNING BELOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)<br /><br />I&#039;ve been raped, molested, and I found my mother dead. This felt equal to all of those things. Maybe it shouldn&#039;t have been up that high, but it definitely was. <br /><br />(TRIGGER WARNING IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)<br /><br />The past few days and nights, I&#039;ve been able to speak to him. The three of us--Reiner, Autumn, and myself--have a pretty good relationship. For some reason, though, last night, I completely forgot about everything. I forgot the progress we had made by somehow getting my two personalities to interact... Everything. After Autumn tried to remind me for half an hour, I remembered everything. And I&#039;m glad. <br /><br />My other alter, we found, is a 28 year old woman named Scarlette. She is, apparently, a kindergarten teacher. Autumn really hates her and claims that Scarlette is a b****. &quot;She&#039;s one of those women who believe themselves to be &#039;cool&#039; and &#039;one with the teens&#039;.&quot; I don&#039;t exactly blame Autumn for disliking Scarlette. We don&#039;t know much else about this alter, besides the fact that she likes pigs and the color teal. <br /><br />Thank you so much for reading... If you have anything to say or ask, please do so! <br /><br />If you wanted to email me, my email is tamakisrose@gmail.com . Thank you!<br /><br />I love you. You&#039;re important. <br /><br />♡';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 22 Jun 2015 12:48:23 -0400';