var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var time = 'Sun, 10 Aug 2025 07:47:02 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Was it really rape?';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/was_it_really_rape%CA%94_c-3_u-411731_b-11116.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/was_it_really_rape%CA%94_c-3_u-411731_b-11116.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'lotsofquestions';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '11116';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Recently I was at a party where many people were intoxicated, myself included. There was a lot of dancing and girls grinding on guys and groping and whatever else happens on a dance floor probably happened here. While at this party I talked to a lot of people and remember every detail I just didn&#039;t have the proper control of myself as I was heavily intoxicated. Nearing the end of the night I was approached by a boy who somehow knew me although I wasn&#039;t sure who he was. I walked away but he was insistent to talk. He pulled me closer to him and kissed me. We made out and everything was fine. Now, at this party people were staying in tents or their cars on the property and I had a tent with my friend. This guy that I was with asked me if I had a tent and I said yes, he took that as an invite and said &quot;that beats sleeping on the floor&quot;. I wasn&#039;t 100% comfortable with him coming back with me but, I am the type that has a hard time saying no when someone says they&#039;ll be sleeping outside or whatever else. So he followed me back to my tent and I warned my friend before he came in. I was quite tired as it was very late and I was ready to go to bed but this guy was grabbing me and kissing my neck and wouldn&#039;t stop. I would push his hands away and he would tell me to &quot;stop&quot; or &quot;just let it happen&quot;. Although, I continued to ask him to stop he continued until i sat up and said he needed to stop. At that point he got angry and told me that I was being a tease and i needed to &quot;get him off&quot; before he could go to bed. I said I just wanted to sleep and was feeling quite emotional, he was about to leave when i started to cry, as I was just yelled at when I didn&#039;t want to have sex with him. He told me it was fine and we would just cuddle and sleep. When we were back under my blanket he started at it again and i continued to tell him to stop as i still wasn&#039;t wanting to have sex with him and he started getting angry again. He was kissing me and had his hand wrapped around my neck. I was afraid of his anger as i didn&#039;t know him nor what he was capable of and i didn&#039;t want him to wake people so i complied and told him that we could have sex. About half way through i started crying and he told me if i was loud he would choke me harder so i sat there and let him do what he wanted.<br /><br />I complied and told him it was okay for him to do what he did although the multiple times i said no and i felt pressured into this situation. It continues to haunt my dreams and I don&#039;t feel like myself anymore. But, was it rape...';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 22 May 2017 01:14:02 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = '. I'm simply crazy. Please help';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/._i%CA%B9m_simply_crazy._please_help_c-3_u-225630_b-5209.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/._i%CA%B9m_simply_crazy._please_help_c-3_u-225630_b-5209.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'Wonderbread';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '5209';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I am Bipolar 1 and a paranoid schizophrenic. I take Depakote, zyprexa, hydroxizene, citalopram and medforim. I have gained 50 pounds in two months. Because of this I have been taking around 15 laxatives a day. I haven&#039;t tried overdosing on medication since I was sixteen and I am thirty seven now. Here&#039;s the but... I don&#039;t think I want to die but it&#039;s all I can think about. The thrill of taking as much as I can and feeling as physically sick as possible but not going to go get my stomach pumped seems to be the plan. The medications I&#039;ve been planning are all past scripts and current ones. I know this is simply crazy I have a good doctor but the phone weighs a thousand pounds this Saturday morning. Hospital is out. I just seem to want to suffer. If you were me and did call, what would you say and exactly what results would you want anyway?';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 24 Aug 2013 10:31:17 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'GAD, OCD, Irrational Fears';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/gad_ocd_irrational_fears_c-3_u-233962_b-5266.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/gad_ocd_irrational_fears_c-3_u-233962_b-5266.html';
		data[2]['username'] = '_FatimaM';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '5266';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'Hello,<br /><br />Well for starters I wanted to say that I&#039;m a Seventeen year old girl who has recently been diagnosed with GAD. I have always feared a lot, and would always obsess over a certain thing/thought. I never really thought much of it, but now that I look back, it all makes sense. When I was around Seven years old, my older brother had came home from school one day and told me about germs, he explains how they were all around us. I quickly became obsessed with the thought that I would catch all these germs and catch a deadly illness and die. Every time I touched anything or anyone touched my hand, I would run to the bathroom and wash my hands. I was washing my hands up to 15 times a day and I didn&#039;t want to touch anything at all... Well like I said, I never thought much about that.. Until recently during summer break I had nothing better to do, other than watch TV, and everything I saw had to do with murders and people going insane. Well I saw this episode on a Hispanic show about a lady who had some type of Multiple personality disorder, who ended up killing her boss. She took medication for her disorder, but that day she forgot to take it.  She didn&#039;t realize she had killed her, until the memory of her kept haunting her. She would see her everywhere, and she would speak to her telling her &quot;You did it, you killed me&quot; much later she got the clue that she had committed that murder. Well I quickly became obsessed with the thought of me going insane or sleep walking and doing such thing. I actually started putting things against my door so if I did sleep walk, I wouldn&#039;t be able to get through. The thing is there hasn&#039;t been a time where I have slept walked. The thoughts used to be much worse, but I&#039;ve been seeing a therapist since the moment I realized I had a problem, and I&#039;ve been feeling much better. There&#039;s days where I feel completely fine and happy and then there&#039;s those other days where I completely panic and feel like my world is falling apart. I would much rather kill myself than to ever hurt anyone in anyway. The thought of doing such thing causes me so much emotional pain, because I know that I wouldn&#039;t hurt anyone. Sometimes I cant help but feel so hurt and upset with myself because of those thoughts, that I just want to end my life. I try to talk to the people who I love about this and try to explain it to them, but they don&#039;t really seem to understand. They say &quot;Oh everyone has those types of thoughts, just get over it&quot; although, everyone might have those types of thoughts, I cant seem to just &quot;get over it&quot;. I basically want to know, is there hope for me? How many others can relate to the way I&#039;m feeling? <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" title="Sad" />  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" title="Sad" />  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":cry:" title="Crying or Very sad" />';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 03 Sep 2013 17:22:52 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Do u have hocd ? Or am I kidding myself';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_u_have_hocd_%CA%94_or_am_i_kidding_myself_c-3_u-253411_b-6373.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_u_have_hocd_%CA%94_or_am_i_kidding_myself_c-3_u-253411_b-6373.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'Danharvey123';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '6373';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Hello I&#039;m a teen boy and I&#039;m having a real tough time I&#039;m not 100% sure I have OCD but when I was younger I would always have thoughts of dying and got really scared and frightened of it and also stuff in my room I liked it to be in order also my dad had OCD symptoms when he was younger like if he felt a certain way he would walk on the white lines on a road so he&#039;d fell better and stuff like that so since I was young boy I can remember I was always into girls I fantasised and felt emotionally and sexually attracted to them and there was no thought that crossed my mind I was gay I remember going to a leisure center with my mum at around 7 or 8 and I would get changed in to woman&#039;s (because i was to young to be by myself) I always found myself looking at the women and liked it when I saw them naked but when I was 9 I had to get changed in the male part and felt uncomfortable as they were all naked so Back to my story I started masterbating at a young age (around 9) and it would be over like nude chat shows on tv and stuff like that once I found porn I couldn&#039;t stop masterbating over straight and lesbian porn once I entered secoundry school I had a massive crush on this girl and couldn&#039;t stop thinking about her I also remember being very jealous when she got a boyfriend it all started when I entered year 9 a girl had asked me out (I had liked her) and I did but I was extremely shy around her in school and so I felt so shy around her I broke up with her and then she tiled a lot of people the reason why dumped her was because I was gay this made my life hell I lost so many mates but got over it .then after a while I started to question If I really was gay ? I started to test myself by watching gay porn which didn&#039;t arouse me (even when I tried to masterbate and it made me start to gag) then I&#039;d watch lesbian porn and be aroused this would stop me obsessing for a while but it came back and my mind is saying that I didn&#039;t try tow masterbate to gay porn because you like it really so I started looking and asking on yahoo awnsers they all gave me awnsers like your probably gay/bi this made me doubt myself even more this is making me stressed and I hardly go out on the weekends incase I see a man and have sexual thoughts i try to have gay thoughts but they don&#039;t feel rightI&#039;m also having grounal responses why is this happening ! I don&#039;t want to be with a man also I&#039;ve been having gay dreams and these dreams I&#039;m literally checking if I&#039;m aroused like in my dream but I believe I&#039;m in love with a girl at the moment ? Also I&#039;m constantly looking at myself to see if I look gay also when I see someone and there looking at me while talking to someone I automatically think that they think I&#039;m gay I am also worried that girls think I&#039;m gay when I started doubting my sexuality I thought I was gay bit now I think I&#039;m bisexual and now my mind is saying that I&#039;m thinking that because it&#039;s true also when I look into my past and see one part that seems homosexual it will cause a spike and cause me to panic is there a reason why I&#039;m like this ? I play rugby and when I&#039;ve made contact with males I don&#039;t feel aroused but my minds telling me I am I have also seen my friends penises before and not been aroused and just laughed what shall I do ? I don&#039;t know how much I can take of this it&#039;s everyday and I feel I have to keep checking If I&#039;m aroused is this how it&#039;s going to be for the rest of my life am I in denial ? I just hate these thoughts <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" title="Sad" /> I also remember when I was about nine that my cousin would sit on my lap but I pretended it was a girl and now mind keeps focusing on that and won&#039;t go Please someone tell me what&#039;s wrong I also look at myself in the mirror and and see if I look gay or have a gay voice or if I give off a gay vibe';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 17 Feb 2014 12:43:24 -0500';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'I don't know. Help?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know._help%CA%94_c-3_u-384943_b-10589.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know._help%CA%94_c-3_u-384943_b-10589.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'brahidk';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '10589';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;ve never participated in anything like this before, but it&#039;s cheaper than a psychiatrist and healthier than the other &quot;outlets&quot; I had in mind. I don&#039;t know where this post is going but I&#039;m just going to let my mind leak onto this blog or whatever the heck this this is and see where it takes me. <br /><br />Lately things haven&#039;t been so hot. I experience major highs where everything is &quot;fine&quot; and I&#039;m truly content with everything and major, and I mean MAJOR lows where I feel the absolute opposite. I know what you&#039;re thinking, bipolar disorder. I haven&#039;t been diagnosed so I don&#039;t know for sure. But that&#039;s not the only thing that&#039;s &quot;wrong.&quot;<br /><br />I&#039;ve been having problems with daily/everyday tasks due to my inability to focus, my lack of ability to sleep normally, mood fluctuations, weight gain, lack of motivation, constant nervousness, and always second guessing myself. <br /><br />I&#039;m completely fine when I&#039;m around my friends, but the second I&#039;m left alone, man... All hell breaks lose in my mind. It&#039;s like all the thoughts that I was too distracted to distracted to think about when I was with my friends come out all at once and it overwhelms me and causes me to be more anxious. <br /><br />My symptoms include:<br />-lack of focus<br />-major insomnia<br />-mood fluctuations<br />-loss of motivation<br />-constant second guessing of self<br />-constant anxiety, stress, nervousness<br />-shaky hands<br />-frequent headaches<br />-hot flashes<br />-easily startled<br />-forgetful<br />-nausea<br />-irritability<br />-early morning wakefulness (waking up at like 3 or 4 and not being able to go back to sleep)<br />-loss of interest in things that once caught my attention.<br /><br />I don&#039;t know what my diagnosis is. If anyone wants to give it a shot as to what&#039;s going on with me, I&#039;m open to anyone&#039;s input. I know, I should really see someone but I&#039;m using that as an absolute last resort...<br /><br />I don&#039;t know if anyone will see this, let alone spent the time to actually read this crap but if there&#039;s someone out there reading this, I would appreciate any input you have. <br /><br />All the best,<br />Me.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 28 Dec 2016 05:24:36 -0500';