var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Sun, 10 Aug 2025 20:14:08 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Having trouble knowing if I'm me or someone else.';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/having_trouble_knowing_if_i%CA%B9m_me_or_someone_else._c-3_u-411104_b-11101.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/having_trouble_knowing_if_i%CA%B9m_me_or_someone_else._c-3_u-411104_b-11101.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Pryoproy';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '11101';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Is it abonormal that whenever I gain interest in a certain show or game that all of a sudden I drop literally all my other interests and focus mainly on one character in that series/game. It gets so bad that I'll actually imagine myself being in a relationship with them and also adopt most of not all of their traits and pretend I've always acted like that when in reality I was different before hand. But then again that could've been another character. I've been doing this for near 10 years so I don't even know who I am anymore. It's frustrating and I'm honestly concerned as it's nearly ended friendships in the past. In order to stop it, I've tryed asking myself am I doing this as me or as the character. This has proved unsuccessful as it just makes me paranoid that I'm being a character when I do something the same way I'd imagine the character doing something. It could be the most mundane task ever and I'll still be paranoid that I'm not me but someone else.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 17 May 2017 07:55:07 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Please Help me figure out what's wrong with me';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/please_help_me_figure_out_what%CA%B9s_wrong_with_me_c-3_u-444138_b-12056.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/please_help_me_figure_out_what%CA%B9s_wrong_with_me_c-3_u-444138_b-12056.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'confusedingulf';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '12056';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'First of all I would like to apologize because this is going to be really long so I would like to say I really appreciate you reading this till the end and trying to help. <br /><br />Since november I have been having flashbacks and thoughts of everything I have done wrong in my life, and now that I think about it those things are absolutely horrible. <br /><br />To start with typical things normal people would have heard of before, I&#039;ve done things like cheating on boyfriends, lying to parents, sneaking out etc... I lost my virginity at 15 years old with a 21 year old guy and also had sex with a 28 year old who lied to me about his age, which disgusts me when I thought about it.<br /><br />Now more weird things, as a kid, I would always lie. I would like about everything. I would lie about having cancer, about having relationships with celebrities ( I would even make fake accounts and catfish people) , about being anorexic, i even catfished a real person in real life to show people and pretend he was flirting with me. I lied about having a brother that died, about people I knew, places I went to etc... I don&#039;t know why, can anyone help me figure out why I would like so much?<br /><br />Now the darkest part is sexual. As a child I remember making my dog eat me out.  Of course at that time I didn&#039;t really know what i was doing but now i see it&#039;s bestiality and I can&#039;t get over what I did. Likewise, I&#039;ve been recalling sexual games I would play as a kid which really mess with my mind. I remember licking my cousins&#039; vagina because she said she wanted me to. I also remenber pretending to be asleep while my cousins and sisters licked my breasts because I liked the feeling of it. Is this sexual abuse? Also, I remember once i asked my sister to touch me down there and my dad walked in the room before she did and stopped us. I don&#039;t know what to do about this because everytime I see my sister all i think about is if i sexually abused her and why I would do something like that with her. <br /><br />So when recalling all those wrong things I have been really bad anxiety since and I&#039;m not too sure what&#039;s happening. Along with his comes thoughts I don&#039;t want to have that I just can&#039;t stop. I keep on thinking in my head that I have been raped and my body feels so unsafe even though I know it isnt true, the feeling is still there. I get thoughts about harming people and myself all of the time, I get thoughts about violence and sexual stuff, and i don&#039;t know why. I have read online that this might be OCD which could make sense as I recall having weird &#039;if i don&#039;t do this then this will happen&quot; things as a child. For example:<br /><br />&quot; If i don&#039;t run down the corridor in less than 10 seconds then my mum will die in the future&quot; <br /><br />a lot of games like that  in my head that I see now might have been the start of this. <br /><br />I just do not understand at all what is going on in my head right now and why these thoughts don&#039;t stop. I can&#039;t figure out if i have been raped or if it&#039;s my imagination playing with me because i have no memory and i have been to the extent of asking family members who said no and gave me support. I can&#039;t figure out why i started thinking about all my mistakes all of a sudden. Please help me figure out whats happening?';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 26 Apr 2018 15:00:31 -0400';
		

		data[2] = new Array();
		data[2]['title'] = 'Food for thought.';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/food_for_thought._c-3_u-435395_b-11445.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/food_for_thought._c-3_u-435395_b-11445.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'Velfang';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '11445';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'How are mental diseases like ADHD even thought about? What are people thinking when they categorise someone in the ADHD category? Doesnt the society actually decide this? &quot;Okay, youre hyperactive, i bet you have ADHD&quot;. Im an indian and ive seen a lot of people who may have been suffering from ADHD according to the intn guidelines but they lead a normal life mostly. ADHD medication is basically a drug, amphetamine. So, enlighten me pls? Btw, i dont have ADHD. Its just food for thought.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 24 Sep 2017 14:04:37 -0400';
		

		data[3] = new Array();
		data[3]['title'] = 'hi just wanted to say';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/hi_just_wanted_to_say_c-3_u-97890_b-3421.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/hi_just_wanted_to_say_c-3_u-97890_b-3421.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'emogirl18';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '3421';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'hi i am new to this sight and just wanted to say that  i have depression and problems with people and talking i am a cutter and very suicidal. so i kinda need some help and ideas on anything that could help me. i am only 18 and im a very shy girl';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 07 Oct 2012 23:06:37 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Do I have some serious disorder or something?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_some_serious_disorder_or_something%CA%94_c-3_u-195253_b-4712.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_i_have_some_serious_disorder_or_something%CA%94_c-3_u-195253_b-4712.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'summerbummer';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '4712';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m 19 years old and for my entire life I&#039;ve been having troubles feeling anything at all. I always thought there was some logical and simple explanation to why I wasn&#039;t like everyone else, and I assumed it would heal with time, but it didn&#039;t. It just keeps getting worse. First let me begin with that I&#039;m completely unable to open up to other people. I have never opened up. To anyone. If I&#039;m even close to doing it I feel disgusted by myself, I get nausea and an urge to flee. I&#039;ve also never cared like others. I can&#039;t really feel empathy. Or I mean, I can, for like animals and my family, but no one else. I&#039;m literally serious when I say my best friend could die tomorrow and I wouldn&#039;t be able to feel a thing. Obviously I&#039;d think it&#039;s sad, but it wouldn&#039;t effect me on an emotional level. <br /><br />I hide this part of me, and I certainly don&#039;t talk about it with anyone. I want to be normal but I just can&#039;t. I have tried to involve myself in other people, in relationships, and even - in my sillier moments - in love. But it doesn&#039;t work. Something in me is broken or missing. I love my immediate family, but that&#039;s about it. I can lie without feeling any kind of remorse, I manipulate people very easily, and when someone really gets on my bad side, I just attack their weaknesses and break them down with words. It&#039;s terrible, I know, but I can&#039;t stop. Even as I write it, I know I say it&#039;s terrible, but I don&#039;t feel terrible. I just know that it&#039;s not how a person should act. I could never physically hurt another person, but not because it would make me feel bad but more because I know it&#039;s wrong. <br /><br />My condition is just getting worse, I&#039;ve started to distance myself from everybody because I feel so tired of wearing a mask and constantly faking to like what they like or play their stupid games. I don&#039;t love others. I&#039;m incapable of feeling on a deeper level, there are no strong emotions in me. I feel narcisstic but at the same time I hate myself. I can get furious very easily but it goes away as quickly as it comes. I haven&#039;t had such a bad childhood but I mean my mother was going through her hardest part of life when I was a kid, and she took it out on me a lot. Sometimes physically but mostly mentally, such as I constantly heard that I was a bad kid, and bad news, and she blamed me for a lot of stuff that wasn&#039;t really my fault. She changed and got so much better when I was like 13 or something and now she&#039;s the best mom ever and apologized 200 times but I can&#039;t seem to let go. It&#039;s stuck with me.. I&#039;m seriously worried that my condition will become worse and something bad will happen... What&#039;s wrong with me?';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 29 May 2013 13:16:46 -0400';