var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var time = 'Sat, 09 Aug 2025 15:05:30 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Desire to abuse cat?????';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/desire_to_abuse_cat%CA%94%CA%94%CA%94%CA%94%CA%94_c-3_u-344099_b-9871.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/desire_to_abuse_cat%CA%94%CA%94%CA%94%CA%94%CA%94_c-3_u-344099_b-9871.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Darkfirerip';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '9871';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Alright let me start this off with some context, I am a 18 year old senior who's life revolves around animals. At my house I have a cat and 7 reptiles (all mine), but at my grandparents who i vist every weeked, has not just a cat, but a spawn of pure evil. Now this cat we bought from a home as a kitten and raise it up to the evil it is today, it has never been abused and has a life full of enrichment amd everything it needs. But even so this cat does not let anyone pet it, it never purs, it breaks stuff, attacks at random, and has a ever growing desire to murder. My cat at home is the complete oppisite, so needless to say I was taken back by the attitude, and tried many things to correct this behavior. But recently I have had this ever burning passion to strangle the cat, step on its neck, or simply kill it in anyway possible. This started when the cat decided to ######6 fling one of my gecko enlosers across the room, break in, and eat its tail. It must have thought the taste was good too, because now she wont ######6 leave any of my enclosures alone and i have to hide them in the basement. Ever since she touched my precious child, I've felt this way, and I have given up on trying to fix whatever mental problem this cat has, because whenever I see it, I get a visual image in my mind of abusing the thing. This freaks me out, I would never hurt my other animals or even my cat, but this ######6 evil has me going crazy, and these thoughts i have need to stop.';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 30 Apr 2016 01:13:40 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'I think I love someone I should'nt...?';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_i_love_someone_i_should%CA%B9nt...%CA%94_c-3_u-137603_b-4136.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_i_love_someone_i_should%CA%B9nt...%CA%94_c-3_u-137603_b-4136.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'LookToTheNightSky';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '4136';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m a teen girl and a bit confused. I&#039;ve looked up on this and read stories similar to mine but not exactly the same. As long as I have remembered I would get crushed on boys and even had a boyfriend not long ago. I remember having friends that were girls and loved being around them, especially if they had a great personality but that&#039;s all..when I got with my boyfriend, it was great at first and I knew I liked him because I always got butterflies around him and he always made me smile without even saying anything. At the same time I was gaining a best friend and we we&#039;re getting really close really fast. She became like a sister to me and I loved her, like a sister nothing else. Later on I began to loose interest in my boyfriend and was getting stressed out because I didn&#039;t want to hurt him and break up with him so I stood with him for almost a year but towards the end we didn&#039;t really talk and I was stressing out. My friend was there through it all, when I was stressing out because me and my bf weren&#039;t talking later that day she was the one making me laugh, smile, and feel happy again. Because of it I got the feeling of wanting to protect her as much as possible and promising her I&#039;d always be there for her like she is for me. She knew I wa having boyfriend problems because I didn&#039;t like him anymore yet we we&#039;re still together, she encouraged me to break up with him saying I&#039;d be better off without him. At school we acted like really close friends but outside of school either at volleyball practice at home she acted a bit different. She acted more silly when it was just us and always laughed at anything I did, be it I mess up or just being clumsy. soon I began getting tongue-tied talking to her because she kept eye contact the whole conversation, something I couldn&#039;t do. So I would look away for a second while we were talking and when I&#039;d look back she still would be watching me, trying to hide a smile which started giving me butterflies. these little feelings have been getting stronger &amp; I don&#039;t know what&#039;s happening. We promised each other we&#039;d be there for each other always, she&#039;s so close to me and my family and me with hers. At school I don&#039;t have any classes with her this year and try to be with her as much as possible, I just really love her company, even if it&#039;s less than 5 minutes. If I see her this force makes me call her, it literally feels like a physical force, and when I call her I see her turn and when she sees me she always smiles. Seeing her smile always makes me happy and when I&#039;m not with her I can&#039;t wait to see her. I&#039;m starting to miss her very easily and sort of get jealous when she&#039;s with her other friends, one in particular. When she&#039;s with that one particular friend and Im there it&#039;s like I don&#039;t exist yet later when she&#039;s gone Im the one she stays close by to, even if there&#039;s other people we talk to with us. I&#039;ve told her &quot;I love you&quot; and she actually said &quot;I love you too&quot; but it was at night when we were going to sleep, I wasn&#039;t sure if she actually meant it or she was half-asleep when she said it. Another thing is that when we sleep together in the middle of the night she always ends up cuddled next to me, her arm around me like she&#039;s hugging me, honestly It&#039;s something I look forward to whenever she spends the night, even if she is asleep when she does it. If I don&#039;t she her for a while I swear I get depressed. These feelings have just been getting stronger since I broke up with my bf. I still get crushes on guys yet she always manages to get stuck on my mind, I don&#039;t know whats going on....I feel like im in love with someone I shouldn&#039;t be in love with. Help?  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_question.gif" alt=":?:" title="Question" />';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 07 Feb 2013 23:35:38 -0500';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'I think my BF has relationship anxiety';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'lonelylatina17';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '11186';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;m in a long distance relationship for 8 months but we&#039;ve known each other for 3 years. Recently my BF told me that he is confused about the relationship and he&#039;s not sure he wants to be in one. Everything was going very well. I would go visit him and he&#039;d visit me. We talked everyday, texted all the time &amp; Skype. He&#039;d tell me he loved me all the time &amp; that he missed me (when we were apart). Memorial Day weekend we went camping with friends of his and we had a good time. I came home and about 3 weeks after he went MIA. He was distant. Out of the blue on Wednesday he tells me he&#039;s not sure he wants a relationship or be in one. He still wants to talk. I started searching anxiety online and found there&#039;s a thing called relationship anxiety. He does suffer from anxiety. When I read the symptoms of this type of anxiety it fit him perfectly. My question is how do I handle the situation, how can I help him? Or should I let him be so he can decide wether or not he does want to be with me. I love this guy to death so I&#039;m crushed about this. It&#039;s hard to let go.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 17 Jun 2017 00:02:18 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Do u have hocd ? Or am I kidding myself';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_u_have_hocd_%CA%94_or_am_i_kidding_myself_c-3_u-253411_b-6373.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_u_have_hocd_%CA%94_or_am_i_kidding_myself_c-3_u-253411_b-6373.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'Danharvey123';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '6373';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Hello I&#039;m a teen boy and I&#039;m having a real tough time I&#039;m not 100% sure I have OCD but when I was younger I would always have thoughts of dying and got really scared and frightened of it and also stuff in my room I liked it to be in order also my dad had OCD symptoms when he was younger like if he felt a certain way he would walk on the white lines on a road so he&#039;d fell better and stuff like that so since I was young boy I can remember I was always into girls I fantasised and felt emotionally and sexually attracted to them and there was no thought that crossed my mind I was gay I remember going to a leisure center with my mum at around 7 or 8 and I would get changed in to woman&#039;s (because i was to young to be by myself) I always found myself looking at the women and liked it when I saw them naked but when I was 9 I had to get changed in the male part and felt uncomfortable as they were all naked so Back to my story I started masterbating at a young age (around 9) and it would be over like nude chat shows on tv and stuff like that once I found porn I couldn&#039;t stop masterbating over straight and lesbian porn once I entered secoundry school I had a massive crush on this girl and couldn&#039;t stop thinking about her I also remember being very jealous when she got a boyfriend it all started when I entered year 9 a girl had asked me out (I had liked her) and I did but I was extremely shy around her in school and so I felt so shy around her I broke up with her and then she tiled a lot of people the reason why dumped her was because I was gay this made my life hell I lost so many mates but got over it .then after a while I started to question If I really was gay ? I started to test myself by watching gay porn which didn&#039;t arouse me (even when I tried to masterbate and it made me start to gag) then I&#039;d watch lesbian porn and be aroused this would stop me obsessing for a while but it came back and my mind is saying that I didn&#039;t try tow masterbate to gay porn because you like it really so I started looking and asking on yahoo awnsers they all gave me awnsers like your probably gay/bi this made me doubt myself even more this is making me stressed and I hardly go out on the weekends incase I see a man and have sexual thoughts i try to have gay thoughts but they don&#039;t feel rightI&#039;m also having grounal responses why is this happening ! I don&#039;t want to be with a man also I&#039;ve been having gay dreams and these dreams I&#039;m literally checking if I&#039;m aroused like in my dream but I believe I&#039;m in love with a girl at the moment ? Also I&#039;m constantly looking at myself to see if I look gay also when I see someone and there looking at me while talking to someone I automatically think that they think I&#039;m gay I am also worried that girls think I&#039;m gay when I started doubting my sexuality I thought I was gay bit now I think I&#039;m bisexual and now my mind is saying that I&#039;m thinking that because it&#039;s true also when I look into my past and see one part that seems homosexual it will cause a spike and cause me to panic is there a reason why I&#039;m like this ? I play rugby and when I&#039;ve made contact with males I don&#039;t feel aroused but my minds telling me I am I have also seen my friends penises before and not been aroused and just laughed what shall I do ? I don&#039;t know how much I can take of this it&#039;s everyday and I feel I have to keep checking If I&#039;m aroused is this how it&#039;s going to be for the rest of my life am I in denial ? I just hate these thoughts <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" title="Sad" /> I also remember when I was about nine that my cousin would sit on my lap but I pretended it was a girl and now mind keeps focusing on that and won&#039;t go Please someone tell me what&#039;s wrong I also look at myself in the mirror and and see if I look gay or have a gay voice or if I give off a gay vibe';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 17 Feb 2014 12:43:24 -0500';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'where language becomes knowledge, the devil is manifest';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/where_language_becomes_knowledge_the_devil_is_manifest_c-3_u-256253_b-6615.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/where_language_becomes_knowledge_the_devil_is_manifest_c-3_u-256253_b-6615.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'theendofwords';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '6615';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'the root of all evil is not money. it is not greed, or any other “sin”. it is the perversion of perception. it is to separate “good” and “evil” to begin with. “light” and “dark”; “creation” and “destruction”; “feminine” and “masculine”: those who have been taught there is a line between the two, cannot understand either. it is a product of the imagination even to say that “1″ is separate from “zero”. physicists have done well to prove this, as they have followed their numbers into realms where all of their equations fall apart. into delusion, where they ought be sent. man cannot gain understanding by dividing his reality into smaller and smaller pieces. exactly the opposite, his field of view has been reduced. this story is told by the history of language itself. where once he had many symbols for the infinite and the large, he now has many symbols for the small and the finite. the zoroastrians, for example, had 101 names for “god”, all bearing a different meaning. the earliest symbols appealed to the holistic nature of man’s mind, which saw the giants of the cosmos. today’s symbols appeal to the fragmented nature of man’s mind, which is drawn to think of the “atoms” and “molecules” and the even smaller things. the children of today are made anxious just to think of the vastness of the void, because they can no longer fathom it.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 25 Mar 2014 21:32:03 -0400';