var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Tue, 02 Sep 2025 18:02:26 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'Old self harm scars, military, psychology-- question.';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/old_self_harm_scars_military_psychology_question._c-3_u-259312_b-6926.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/old_self_harm_scars_military_psychology_question._c-3_u-259312_b-6926.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'AriMcGuire';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '6926';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Hi! <br /><br />Well I&#039;m 24 years old, my scars are a decade old, literally. When I was younger, I grew up in a war called &quot;home&quot; and I suppressed my emotions, I always had a smile on, was always making others laugh, pretending pain was not reality. It was reality alright, I broke at the tender age of 14, but I never wanted to die. I had harmed myself in order to understand the feelings others would get from cutting, but I could never seem to find the pleasure through it, it hurt! I did this a few times until I said &quot;enough is enough there must be another way!&quot;-- And truthfully the only way was simply getting my life together, it all starts from within. I learned to deal with pain on my own, no help. I&#039;ve been through a lot and have made plenty of mistakes, but I believe and KNOW my past does NOT define the strong woman I am today. <br /><br />I&#039;ve always wanted to serve my country, I&#039;ve been a protector since a child, the fuel to the fire actually started at home protecting my mother and sister from my father, then I proceeded behind the doors of my homes, such as protecting ones from bullies. I want to enlist with the Air Force in a year, do a bit more college before hand, and I want to major in psychology. I&#039;d love to help anyone in general, from my personal experiences I have helped many, and I will not stop being there for others, guiding them, showing them there is a way. I feel there&#039;s too many people that go into professions that give service onto others simply for the money, instead of doing it because it comes from the heart, because they genuinely care, and want to help. <br /><br />I&#039;ve seen positive and negative thoughts over my past and how it can disqualify me, I will still try my best and give it my all, but what is your thoughts on this? And even if I do get disqualified, I&#039;m gonna continue my studies towards becoming a psychologist. I can still become one, right? It would be a shame to know all years I&#039;d put into something I love I&#039;d be denied from because of my past mistakes. <br /><br />Thank you!';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 14 May 2014 22:51:20 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'If You're Angry';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/if_you%CA%B9re_angry_c-3_u-86399_b-2624.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/if_you%CA%B9re_angry_c-3_u-86399_b-2624.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'Medikus';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '2624';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Angry, too, need the rules. If you would like to express their outrage, we must carefully choose the words and expressions that you are going to use it. Words can inflict a very strong emotional wound. Always remember that. And even in anger. Even if you are very angry, you should try to remain calm. Then you will be easier to formulate their claims. Do not focus on the process itself. Do not forget in the heat of anger, what you&#039;re angry, why are you angry, what goals you want to achieve, expressing their outrage.<br />You must also show that you are not satisfied with the personality of man, and his specific act or situation, in which he has put you. You should not insult the man. No need to remember all his faults, which are not relevant to the subject of your anger. Moreover, it is impossible to point to some external features of the man.<br />It is not advisable to show anger towards his boss. You do not reach the wrath of their goals. But you can lose a job.<br />If you are the boss, then you can afford to be angry at his negligent subordinates. But it is necessary to comply with all regulations. We must not go beyond appearances.<br />Anger can have different degrees. But the highest degree of your anger should be used very rarely.';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 01 May 2012 11:29:58 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'I feel as if my DP/DR is irreversible?';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_feel_as_if_my_dpdr_is_irreversible%CA%94_c-3_u-247564_b-5713.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_feel_as_if_my_dpdr_is_irreversible%CA%94_c-3_u-247564_b-5713.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'maryghan';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '5713';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;ve had dp/dr, emphasis on the DR, for about 4-5 months. I&#039;m 19 years old. I know I got it after a visit to the ER a few months ago for chest pains, which turned out to be acid reflux. On top of that, I was and still am having migraines and very intense sharp pains in my head. I do have an appt with a neurologist. <br />Anyway, the world has felt completely fake and dreamy to me starting a few weeks or days after that visit to the hospital. I know my anxiety spiked an extraordinary amount, the worst it&#039;s ever been. I&#039;ve been suffering from panic attacks since I was about 9 or 10 -- I remember sort of feeling derealized once back then too. However I didn&#039;t process it as intensely, so it went away quickly, plus I was young and my mind was occupied almost always. <br />I&#039;m just terrified at the moment, because I&#039;ve always been tortured by existential thoughts to begin with, but having dp/dr makes them so much worse. Unbearably worse -- they would send me into a spiralling panic where I&#039;d just cry and cry for days on end, and I hate being alone with my thoughts -- I&#039;ve been sleeping in my mom&#039;s bed  <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarassed" />  This dreamy feeling is so real, I can&#039;t always convince myself that I&#039;m not dreaming, or that the world ISN&#039;T fake. And that is what&#039;s been getting worse. It&#039;s like my brain is convincing me everything is fake,oh well. I feel completely hopeless at this point.<br />My panic attacks lately have been about how I can&#039;t believe I&#039;m going through this. I can&#039;t believe this is actually happening, so my brain says &quot;it&#039;s not&quot; and now I&#039;m fk&#039;d.<br />Will everything ever feel real again?<br />Will I ever enjoy life again?<br />I think another reason I&#039;m stuck in this is because I&#039;m not in school, and I&#039;m unemployed, There&#039;s only so much I can do to get a job. I&#039;ve applied everywhere.<br />I have memory problems, panic attacks in which I feel as if I&#039;ve dropped acid, and the world feels so fake I can&#039;t believe it&#039;s not. Writing all this down/talking about it does not help one bit. I&#039;ve purchased 2 books in the mail that are supposed to help me--one should come tomorrow, so wish me luck xx<br />This is one fk&#039;d up anxiety symptom.<br />(Hard to process it even is one anymore)';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 29 Oct 2013 12:34:46 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'I don't know what to do anymore.';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know_what_to_do_anymore._c-3_u-248158_b-5767.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know_what_to_do_anymore._c-3_u-248158_b-5767.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'plsdontjudgeme';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '5767';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'So for my first post, Im just going to do this as a journal I guess. I don&#039;t know.<br /><br />So basically, Im a teen. Please don&#039;t even ATTEMPT to judge me because I&#039;ve been through so much already and I am going to lose it.<br /><br />I feel so sad, hopeless, and SO angry all the time and I don&#039;t get why certain things happen to me. I mean, I was never a bad person. I don&#039;t know why I deserve all this at such a young age and I&#039;m so depressed and It&#039;s so UNFAIR.<br /><br />I hate me, I hate everyone, I hate the world. I hate everything. I never wanted to feel this way. I never EVER did. And now I do, and everything freaking sucks.<br /><br />My family thinks I&#039;m emo and my friends think I&#039;m outgoing and happy and I&#039;m going to lose it. I can&#039;t be who I really am because I&#039;m so afraid of being judged and I hate it so much.<br /><br />I spend most of the time in the bathroom breaking down to the point where I have to cover my mouth to make myself quiet. <br /><br />I&#039;m a TEEN.<br /><br />I never wanted to be like this AT ALL. I wanted to worry about my looks, my studies, and pop stars such as One Direction or Justin Bieber or something but NO. Life will not permit it and IT&#039;S UNFAIR.<br /><br />I want to be normal and so many bad experiences happened to me at such a young age and I&#039;m trying my best to BE happy but I can&#039;t and I don&#039;t know why.<br /><br />Instead of being HAPPY I&#039;m depressed, hopeless, angry and I HATE IT SO MUCH.<br /><br />I don&#039;t know what to do. I don&#039;t see any future of mine. I want to die but I don&#039;t and I really don&#039;t know what to do anymore and I&#039;m sick of it!<br /><br />I want to have dreams and I want to have crushes but I don&#039;t and as I said so many times,<br /><br />IT&#039;S SO FREAKING UNFAIR.<br /><br />I&#039;m too young and all these experiences and troubles in family, friends, school, and life is just piling and piling. <br /><br />I thought that maybe, this was a phase or something but I&#039;ve always been this way ever since I was young and I&#039;ve only realized it this year.<br /><br />I&#039;ve always been quiet and emo. Even in school, but I changed myself because there were people who teased me so, in a snap, after one summer, wow, I was happy on the outside. People used to say that I was really quiet and I always looked like I was mad and I just realized that I was just really sad. And now that developed into depression. I know you think I&#039;m lying since I&#039;m too young but we&#039;re all different here and we go through different things and I just had to go through many things at a young age.<br /><br />I&#039;m really tired. I really am. I tried everything. I even self harm. I have scars from razors and my parents think it&#039;s something I got from my dad called Keloid wherein you just get tiny scratches and they turn to look like scars and I agreed so they won&#039;t be suspicious. But after awhile, they did of course, so I started to cut elsewhere other than my wrist. <br /><br />Anyways, other than that rather disturbing paragraph, I just want help.<br /><br />I don&#039;t want to be some depressed teenager with anxiety. I hate always being jumpy, nervous and I want to be NORMAL.<br /><br />So. If anyone reads this. Please help me before this gets worse. I&#039;m really tired of feeling this way and I don&#039;t think I can hold my sadness and anger in any longer. I just want to scream at the world that I&#039;m upset and lost and to help me but I can&#039;t. I have no one to talk to. No one I trust.<br /><br />But I know there are people out there who will understand and that&#039;s why I am here now. I don&#039;t like thinking of suicide or anything. I really don&#039;t. And I want it to stop. So if anyone can PLEASE help me, just... HELP ME. <br /><br />Please, I&#039;m begging you. I&#039;m so desperate and I just really need someone to be there for me right now.';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 08 Nov 2013 09:13:25 -0500';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'separation anxiety';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/separation_anxiety_c-3_u-383654_b-10563.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/separation_anxiety_c-3_u-383654_b-10563.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'donttouch';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '10563';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'my father always was suspicious as to why i get really anxious any time my boyfriend leaves. he thought i was doing drugs with him or something - i&#039;m straight edge, so no, i&#039;m not doing any drugs that cause some sort of anxiety disorder. though i did think about how whenever my boyfriend leaves i get anxious. even so when i&#039;m with him i start to get anxious because he&#039;s leaving soon. this only happens with him. i automatically assume i&#039;m never seeing him again. i panic and feel as if i cannot feel okay without him. i absolutely hate this, i don&#039;t know how to change it, the only thing i&#039;ve tried is distancing myself but that only leads to emotional distance in the relationship and makes everything worse. i don&#039;t know what to do. i don&#039;t want to depend on him to feel okay.';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 21 Dec 2016 18:03:45 -0500';