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		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_6821\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_6821\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_6821\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/do_you_think_this_is_depression_or_bipolar%CA%94_c-3_u-258388_b-6821.html">Do you think this is depression or bipolar?</a></div><div id="b_6821" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">I looked up the symptoms for both and the hypochondriac in me thinks I&#039;ve got every disorder and disease on the planet.. <br /><br /><br />I know something is up with me because I&#039;m so different from the people who surround me. I&#039;m so sensitive to everything and everyone and I feel things so deeply and intensely. And so quickly. I&#039;m quite moody, especially as of late, and I&#039;m very irritable. I chalked it up to the recent passing of my mother (about a month and a half ago), but it&#039;s still weird. I hate the people closest to me sometimes. Not my friends, not strangers, not acquaintances.. Only my absolute best friends, those who are truly close to me and those I truly love and care for.. I genuinely hate them at certain points. Just everything about their existence and I want to cut them out of my life sometimes. All for no reason. I&#039;ll also feel bursts of love and appreciation for them, all of which are phases and pass. <br /><br />I initially thought bipolar disorder because of the intense mood swings, but they happen so frequently; definitely not a week or longer. If I felt any single emotion for a week or longer, I would probably lose my mind. My moods change daily, but for the most part, I&#039;ve got a pretty decent disposition. I&#039;m usually really content. Ever since the lost of my mother, though, I never really know what I&#039;m going to get when I wake up. Some days are good.. Some days, however, aren&#039;t so good. <br /><br /><br />I know someone who suffers from bipolar disorder and I don&#039;t see many similarities. When she&#039;s up, she&#039;s up. She contacts all of her friends and is there for them, helping them with whatever she can, making all these plans and just seems personable. When she&#039;s down, she ignores everyone and doesn&#039;t care if you need anything from her, even just some of her time to vent to her. She becomes very selfish and cold and distant for quite a few days, if not weeks at a time. <br /><br />I&#039;m not like that. I&#039;m always there for my friends. Sometimes I don&#039;t answer because I&#039;m busy or I forget to respond, or just have nothing to say or don&#039;t feel like talking to you, but I don&#039;t drop off the face of the earth or anything like that. And I only really take out my mood swings on those closest to me by just being irritable and touchy. I also read about &quot;manic states&quot;, which I don&#039;t believe that I have any. There aren&#039;t specific times that I&#039;ll be more likely to spend money, or engage in destructive behavior, or drink/consume substances.. I drink on occasions, I don&#039;t partake in any drug usage (other than my weekly vitamin D pills lol), and I&#039;ve always spent money in the same patterns. No peaks or valleys. <br /><br /><br />I&#039;m sorry for writing so much, I just wanted to address everything that I could think of.. I don&#039;t have insurance so I can&#039;t see a professional any time soon.. And I certainly can&#039;t afford paying out of pocket.. I financially support myself now that my mom&#039;s passed and I&#039;m still in college. I understand you guys can&#039;t actually diagnose me correctly but whatever thoughts you have, feel free to share.. Maybe you went through similar things? Or maybe this is just normal for human beings? Dunno. Thanks ahead of time.</div>');
		
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		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_11186\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_11186\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_11186\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_think_my_bf_has_relationship_anxiety_c-3_u-415729_b-11186.html">I think my BF has relationship anxiety</a></div><div id="b_11186" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">I&#039;m in a long distance relationship for 8 months but we&#039;ve known each other for 3 years. Recently my BF told me that he is confused about the relationship and he&#039;s not sure he wants to be in one. Everything was going very well. I would go visit him and he&#039;d visit me. We talked everyday, texted all the time &amp; Skype. He&#039;d tell me he loved me all the time &amp; that he missed me (when we were apart). Memorial Day weekend we went camping with friends of his and we had a good time. I came home and about 3 weeks after he went MIA. He was distant. Out of the blue on Wednesday he tells me he&#039;s not sure he wants a relationship or be in one. He still wants to talk. I started searching anxiety online and found there&#039;s a thing called relationship anxiety. He does suffer from anxiety. When I read the symptoms of this type of anxiety it fit him perfectly. My question is how do I handle the situation, how can I help him? Or should I let him be so he can decide wether or not he does want to be with me. I love this guy to death so I&#039;m crushed about this. It&#039;s hard to let go.</div>');
		
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