var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Tue, 26 Aug 2025 05:56:27 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'WTF?';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/wtf%CA%94_c-3_u-246885_b-5612.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/wtf%CA%94_c-3_u-246885_b-5612.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'asoulfragmented';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '5612';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Mood: Exhausted<br />Listening to: Blake Shelton - Sure be cool if you did<br /><br /><br />It is one of those nights where I cannot get my mind to shut up. I am so sleepy but alas it manages to escape me. Racing thoughts and the like, This is my first time online today and it is 4:45 am so I guess that would technically mean that I was not online at all yesterday. I have not been able to focus enough on one thing to read a book. That is very stressful as reading is an outlet for me, I have my youtube playlist playing on shuffle so I don&#039;t even have to make a decision about a song cause right now my mind won&#039;t let me even think on it enough. I thought coming on here and writing for a bit would make me feel better or at least give me something to do but even now it is difficult to focus enough not to stray the subject. I love music there is rarely a time in my life that music is not playing. I listen to just about every genre I can think of with the exception of polka. Lately when I try to go to sleep paranoia takes over, it seems like the moment I become &quot;still&quot; the $#%^ hits the fan so to speak. Paranoia,agitation, conversations in my head with more than one voice. WTF? I moved across the country and have yet to see a therapist or mental health professional for that  matter. I have been off meds since roughly June. I sometimes feel like I am watching my life play in front of me like a movie without the option to react. I mean my body is reacting but I am not, what the hell is that about? The other night I went to bed around 3 am to try to sleep but the moment I stopped listening to music and reading articles online and settled down in my bed with the lights off it got ugly. First the paranoia set in, it was extreme. I felt like I was screaming inside my mind but no sounds escaped me. It seemed endless then a soft little crying voice was in my head like a thought but not my thought. Then the weirdest thing happened.... I got this mental image of a little girl crying holding a teddy bear curled up in a corner. I don&#039;t know how I knew but the little girls name is Sophia and she is 6. I have never seen this little girl before so how would I know her in my mind? Let me say this, My name is not Sophia and I have never personally met anyone by that name. After the image of the little girl left the &quot;screaming&quot; in my head started back up. I don&#039;t know.... I am lost and not sure what is going on. After that night I called and made an appointment with a dr in the new town I am in. I am nervous about going to a new dr, I do not trust easily and I don&#039;t know if I can open up to them. <img src="https://www.psychforums.com/images/smilies/icon_confused.gif" alt=":?" title="Confused" />';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 19 Oct 2013 05:48:44 -0400';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Am I just Paranoid or crazy..';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_just_paranoid_or_crazy.._c-3_u-279532_b-8138.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/am_i_just_paranoid_or_crazy.._c-3_u-279532_b-8138.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'hazey-gal';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '8138';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I  carry around a little pocket knife , when its just me and my daughter home. I won&#039;t take a nap when my daughter is sleeping aswell because I&#039;m scared someone might take her while im sleeping or threaten to hurt her to make me do things. My mind continuously comes up with bad situations (example-if someone is knocking at the door I get paranoid they might force there way inside and hurt me or my family so ignore it but then I think if I  ignore it they might think no ones home and break in ). I  feel safe when my partner and everyone is home, but when its bedtime I lay awake and feel like someone&#039;s watching me from the windows or is going to break In and kill all of us. When I dose off I wake up scared when I feel my partner is gone and I jump to conclusions he has been dragged away and stabbed but in reality he just goes to the toilet a lot during the night . I usually end up grabbing a knife and putting it safely near me till I finally fall asleep which normally is around 3 in the morning. I feel it&#039;s my job to protect my family and if I let my guard down, someone will take their life&#039;s away and mine. I try to talk to my partner about it but he just says &quot;stop thinking silly&quot;, I&#039;m trying to stop but its not easy.  Am I just to paranoid or crazy...';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 10 Mar 2015 09:12:20 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'I don't know. Help?';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know._help%CA%94_c-3_u-384943_b-10589.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i_don%CA%B9t_know._help%CA%94_c-3_u-384943_b-10589.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'brahidk';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '10589';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I&#039;ve never participated in anything like this before, but it&#039;s cheaper than a psychiatrist and healthier than the other &quot;outlets&quot; I had in mind. I don&#039;t know where this post is going but I&#039;m just going to let my mind leak onto this blog or whatever the heck this this is and see where it takes me. <br /><br />Lately things haven&#039;t been so hot. I experience major highs where everything is &quot;fine&quot; and I&#039;m truly content with everything and major, and I mean MAJOR lows where I feel the absolute opposite. I know what you&#039;re thinking, bipolar disorder. I haven&#039;t been diagnosed so I don&#039;t know for sure. But that&#039;s not the only thing that&#039;s &quot;wrong.&quot;<br /><br />I&#039;ve been having problems with daily/everyday tasks due to my inability to focus, my lack of ability to sleep normally, mood fluctuations, weight gain, lack of motivation, constant nervousness, and always second guessing myself. <br /><br />I&#039;m completely fine when I&#039;m around my friends, but the second I&#039;m left alone, man... All hell breaks lose in my mind. It&#039;s like all the thoughts that I was too distracted to distracted to think about when I was with my friends come out all at once and it overwhelms me and causes me to be more anxious. <br /><br />My symptoms include:<br />-lack of focus<br />-major insomnia<br />-mood fluctuations<br />-loss of motivation<br />-constant second guessing of self<br />-constant anxiety, stress, nervousness<br />-shaky hands<br />-frequent headaches<br />-hot flashes<br />-easily startled<br />-forgetful<br />-nausea<br />-irritability<br />-early morning wakefulness (waking up at like 3 or 4 and not being able to go back to sleep)<br />-loss of interest in things that once caught my attention.<br /><br />I don&#039;t know what my diagnosis is. If anyone wants to give it a shot as to what&#039;s going on with me, I&#039;m open to anyone&#039;s input. I know, I should really see someone but I&#039;m using that as an absolute last resort...<br /><br />I don&#039;t know if anyone will see this, let alone spent the time to actually read this crap but if there&#039;s someone out there reading this, I would appreciate any input you have. <br /><br />All the best,<br />Me.';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 28 Dec 2016 05:24:36 -0500';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Having trouble knowing if I'm me or someone else.';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/having_trouble_knowing_if_i%CA%B9m_me_or_someone_else._c-3_u-411104_b-11101.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/having_trouble_knowing_if_i%CA%B9m_me_or_someone_else._c-3_u-411104_b-11101.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'Pryoproy';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '11101';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Is it abonormal that whenever I gain interest in a certain show or game that all of a sudden I drop literally all my other interests and focus mainly on one character in that series/game. It gets so bad that I&#039;ll actually imagine myself being in a relationship with them and also adopt most of not all of their traits and pretend I&#039;ve always acted like that when in reality I was different before hand. But then again that could&#039;ve been another character. I&#039;ve been doing this for near 10 years so I don&#039;t even know who I am anymore. It&#039;s frustrating and I&#039;m honestly concerned as it&#039;s nearly ended friendships in the past. In order to stop it, I&#039;ve tryed asking myself am I doing this as me or as the character. This has proved unsuccessful as it just makes me paranoid that I&#039;m being a character when I do something the same way I&#039;d imagine the character doing something. It could be the most mundane task ever and I&#039;ll still be paranoid that I&#039;m not me but someone else.';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 17 May 2017 07:55:07 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'Is this Hocd anymore?';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_hocd_anymore%CA%94_c-3_u-466025_b-12760.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_hocd_anymore%CA%94_c-3_u-466025_b-12760.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'Hi12123';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '12760';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Sorry this is very long but please read this because i need help...<br />Hi, I am a 16 year old girl and have been struggling with hocd for about 2 years. It all started in 7th grade when I had an intense crush on a boy. Whenever I was around him I had butterflies and I actually wanted to marry him. He liked me too but he soon developed a crush on another girl and I wasn&#039;t even jealous because I didn&#039;t like him as much anymore. One night I was at a sleepover with my friend and I was laying on the couch when a thought popped into my head, &quot;you don&#039;t like **** anymore, are you gay?&quot; After that one thought, it has changed my life. ( I am not homophobic but I was always kinda uncomfortable around gay people at that age. But now I am not at homophobic or uncomfortable around gay people anymore)<br /><br />A couple weeks later, I was seeking reassurance on being lesbian and stumbled across the term hold. I had all of the symptoms and felt better. But, the worrying didn&#039;t stop. In 7th grade I was only scared about &quot;becoming&quot; gay, I knew i wasn&#039;t but I was just scared i was &quot;changing&quot; into being gay. I went to my school guidance counselor and she told me that it was ok if I was gay and should learn to accept it, this heightened my worrying because I couldn&#039;t handle the fact of being gay. There were times where I was not worrying and then times where I was. After a while of being worried I didn&#039;t worry about it at all. I had some thoughts here and there but ignored them. It was the start of 8th grade (the grade I am in now) and I didn&#039;t worry about it. Then it was triggered again, (I forgot how). Soon my mind made me think I had crushes on every single one of my friends (who were girls). My mind said &quot;If you aren&#039;t attracted to him, you&#039;re gay.&quot; It also started to change my past and say &quot;you like her&quot; even when I felt nothing for her when I was with her. Recently, I had a small panic attack at a restaurant where i couldn&#039;t eat any single thing (not even a small piece of rice) because I was worrying so much. My mind kept screaming &quot;your bi!...&quot; That night at the restaurant I planned to come out to my mom (my mom knows about my hocd) but the problem was that I didn&#039;t like any girls. I would also look at my friends (who were girls) and become jealous of them because they do not have to go what I go through. I would say in my head, &quot;they are so lucky that they are straight. They are going to have the best relationship&quot; <br /><br />I then began to dig into my past (i still am) and there are some things that I have done as a child that i can use as proof that I am gay. Keep in mind that I have never been attracted to anyone of the same sex besides false attractions (which is not even real attraction). My mind would also say &quot;All the girls think your older brother is cute, but you don&#039;t. This means your gay.&quot; And now that I am writing that, what on Earth was I thinking, am i stupid? Lol. I would also have false attractions for people on TV shows and have dreams and wake up feeling aroused and feeling that I liked it. I know that arousal doesn&#039;t mean your gay so it doesn&#039;t worry me at all.<br /><br />I know that I like boys but I am just scared that I like girls to. I always wanted to have a boyfriend but now I do not as much. My mind is now saying &quot;being with a girl isn&#039;t so bad.&quot; &quot;it will be fun to be in a relationship with a girl&quot; I have never dreamed about girls the way I have dreamed about boys and the only relationship I want with girls is friendship. But as i am writing this my mind is saying, &quot;you wouldn&#039;t mind it, it would be fun!&quot; Whenever I go out, it is just natural for me to want to impress a guy. I have never wanted to dress to impress a girl. I cant picture my future with a girl because its just not me. I also don&#039;t think it is necessary to come out because deep down I know i&#039;m not.<br />I used to have bad intrusive thoughts, but now those thoughts aren&#039;t even...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/is_this_hocd_anymore%CA%94_c-3_u-466025_b-12760.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a>';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 27 Apr 2019 03:06:40 -0400';