var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
		var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/random_blogs_c-3.html';
		var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com';
		var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
		var time = 'Fri, 12 Sep 2025 07:09:53 -0400';

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		data[0]['title'] = 'An Introduction to My Mission';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_introduction_to_my_mission_c-3_u-105870_b-5787.html';
		data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_introduction_to_my_mission_c-3_u-105870_b-5787.html';
		data[0]['username'] = 'Bunnielight';
		data[0]['blog_id'] = '5787';
		data[0]['blog_message'] = 'Hi there. <br />You may call me Bunnie. I am a 23 year old female who is recently married. While I am completely happy and content with my life, I still carry a lot of baggage on a daily basis and need somewhere to go to write and vent. My mother is believed to have extreme narcissistic personality disorder and has been diagnosed multiple times with bipolar disorder. However, because of her narcissism, any treatment is slapped away. She cannot maintain a stable lifestyle, a job, and refuses to pay rent. She recently got arrested for exactly that and any other information regarding her is simply my grandparents and I digging around trying to find something out.<br /><br />My sister, half sister to be exact, is a 19 year old &quot;mother&quot; of two who recently had her children taken from her by DCS and relocated to a loving family trying their best to deal with the cases appropriately and cooperate with her while she gets her life together. However, her priorities and terrible attitude is questionable regardless of what she claims. She has been told to do numerous things all of which she either ignores or makes sure she does the minimum. I would have dismissed all of this a long time ago and moved on with my life if I didn&#039;t care so much. I want the best because our mother never provided anything for her. I want my nephews to have a good life and to have their mother. It is these reasons that I have tried to be the appropriate rock, but her attitude and my limited affect on this situation, legally, makes it that much harder.<br /><br />Every day I struggle with my role in all of this. I want the best for everyone. I want them to get the help they need. But the stress of it all effects my life on a daily basis. My life is great. I have a stable job and my husband and I are starting our own business. I am a photographer and he is a videographer/producer. If we continue on the path that we are on, we will be highly successful.<br /><br />Which is why I had to find somewhere to turn to vent and give me direction. I need to deal with this appropriately and help who I can where I can without causing more damage than I am helping.<br /><br />I have had blogs over the years but none that I felt comfortable truly venting in. Nowhere that gave me proper feedback or guidance. I came here because I feel like this is where I can find that. Because I definitely need it.<br /><br />-HMD';
		data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 11 Nov 2013 15:06:41 -0500';
		

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		data[1]['title'] = 'Self Hatred';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/self_hatred_c-3_u-86405_b-2645.html';
		data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/self_hatred_c-3_u-86405_b-2645.html';
		data[1]['username'] = 'hoping4answers';
		data[1]['blog_id'] = '2645';
		data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I find that my hardest days are days like today where I wake up just loathing myself.  From the moment my eyes open the flood of negative thoughts drown out any positive I can see.  In these times even my children laughing and smiling outside my bedroom door cause me tears.  <br />I feel alone, which is hard to do when you live with five other people but there it is.  I can never seem to pin point just why some days the pain is so overwhelming and all consuming that lasting the next five minutes seems impossible.<br />I am worthless, unloved, and discarded.  These are the thoughts that are an unending cycle in my mind.  The more I attempt to distract myself from these thoughts the more invading they seem.  <br />Any advice out there?';
		data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 06 May 2012 12:58:55 -0400';
		

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		data[2]['title'] = 'hi just wanted to say';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/hi_just_wanted_to_say_c-3_u-97890_b-3421.html';
		data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/hi_just_wanted_to_say_c-3_u-97890_b-3421.html';
		data[2]['username'] = 'emogirl18';
		data[2]['blog_id'] = '3421';
		data[2]['blog_message'] = 'hi i am new to this sight and just wanted to say that  i have depression and problems with people and talking i am a cutter and very suicidal. so i kinda need some help and ideas on anything that could help me. i am only 18 and im a very shy girl';
		data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Sun, 07 Oct 2012 23:06:37 -0400';
		

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		data[3]['title'] = 'Feeling Suicidal the Closer Trial is Coming';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/feeling_suicidal_the_closer_trial_is_coming_c-3_u-258910_b-6886.html';
		data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/feeling_suicidal_the_closer_trial_is_coming_c-3_u-258910_b-6886.html';
		data[3]['username'] = 'shortsnorts';
		data[3]['blog_id'] = '6886';
		data[3]['blog_message'] = 'I was doing pretty well for a while. My coping skill was eating(more of a mechanism) and it was helping me a lot. Now, I can&#039;t even stomach anything. The closer the trial is getting, the more my depression is hitting me. It feels like I can&#039;t distract anymore. I can&#039;t even look at anything with a razor any more. I feel so sick. Some one please help me.';
		data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 10 May 2014 14:22:13 -0400';
		

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		data[4]['title'] = 'An update ::';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_update__c-3_u-147688_b-9379.html';
		data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/an_update__c-3_u-147688_b-9379.html';
		data[4]['username'] = 'Tululaboo';
		data[4]['blog_id'] = '9379';
		data[4]['blog_message'] = 'It has been quite some time since I was both active on the forums or in my blog (not that its much of one) but giving the new year is around the corner and the sad news of a sub-forum closing to read only I thought it was time to make a new start on here and in the real world. Despite the news about the forum I will still be using this blog as an outlet so please read with caution.<br /><br />The reason for my long inactivity was as my granddad was having a lengthy battle with kidney cancer which took his life not long ago, it was a very rapid downfall and hit everyone very hard and he sadly passed away just under 2 weeks ago and was buried 2 days ago so as you can imagine things are still raw not just with myself but family to.<br />--<br />As for myself things have been going up and down throughout the year and it has been rather hard to find some level ground amongst it all and much as before my mind is still my worst enemy constantly flooding my head and not being able to stop it. Silence is bad enough but uncontrolled thoughts are the absolute worst.<br /><br />Despite all that I do actually feel like I am in a much stronger position to keep myself out of the majority of harm and speaking from where I was to how I feel now this is one of many bricks in my foundation to staying strong. I still have things that need to be worked our and sorted through but its at least one hell of start and its something I can for once say I&#039;m proud of.<br /><br />I still do view loli/toddlercon from time to time along with /r34/ to take the sting off so things are perhaps not as strong and I&#039;m not as clean as I should be but all said and done its a step in the right direction. I know looking that stuff it is doing just as much harm as it is good but for now I&#039;d rather use it as a safety net than have nothing but a dark abyss again. I crawled out from there before and I intend on staying out of it.<br /><br />Even though there are very select few in my life that &#039;know&#039; and I put it like that as at times I feel they don&#039;t quite fully understand to extent of things which I suppose is not their fault although one person does not understand how hard it is to talk to them about things, what I think, feel or thoughts I have. I know they wont want to hear it who does and I just cannot get past that.<br /><br />My pedophilia is one on a list of things which plagues me and to be honest while I feel safer and stronger, actual support is not a lot, aside from things I have put in place like not watching television, movies and even limiting the music I listen to. Keeping myself busy with new projects, learning new languages and gaming there is not much else. It may be slow going but its all a start right.<br /><br />I expect things to be pushed and pulled but hopefully by then I can take it.<br /><br />Tulula ~';
		data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 19 Dec 2015 10:58:47 -0500';