var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum Psychology Feed';
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var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum';
var time = 'Thu, 11 Sep 2025 06:36:25 -0400';
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data[0]['title'] = 'I'm in love/like with someone with ASPD';
data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i%CA%B9m_in_lovelike_with_someone_with_aspd_c-3_u-440784_b-11693.html';
data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/i%CA%B9m_in_lovelike_with_someone_with_aspd_c-3_u-440784_b-11693.html';
data[0]['username'] = 'caseyy123';
data[0]['blog_id'] = '11693';
data[0]['blog_message'] = 'you see, I've liked him for some time now but never went for it cause I used to think he was weird. (attractive though) but for the past few months him and I have been really talking. & he told me he has ASPD which I've now been researching a lot because I genuinely care for him and want to make sure he's like you know, okay?
I can't tell if he likes me or not or if we're going anywhere though? I've expressed to him many times how I like him and he thinks its odd/weird? is that bad? He let me take his V-Card but then afterwards said it felt like it didn't even happen because he doesn't really have "emotions". I'm so confused, he says he likes being with me and cuddling with me and he wants to see me like every chance he can & he blows up my phone when he gets on break/wakes up before I do or if I'm not messaging back. he's not mean or rude, he's not addicted to drugs. the only thing about him is he acts sort of emotionless like he doesn't like expressing his feelings/getting emotional? and he doesn't like kissing either which is weird cause most guys his age (19) do you know?
I really am so confused and I think I'm falling in love with him, he's the first guy I've liked since my last relationship which was a year & took a lot of healing time so I'm afraid.. should I keep going and see where it goes without getting my hopes up? or does it sound like I should just give up..? (I rather not) but I'd like to hear opinions from others with ASPD and your feelings about love.. have you ever been in love or felt strongly about someone?';
data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 11 Dec 2017 13:47:06 -0500';
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data[1]['title'] = 'Intrusive thought I mastorbated to but I feel ashamed';
data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/intrusive_thought_i_mastorbated_to_but_i_feel_ashamed_c-3_u-136655_b-4297.html';
data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/intrusive_thought_i_mastorbated_to_but_i_feel_ashamed_c-3_u-136655_b-4297.html';
data[1]['username'] = 'Ollie319';
data[1]['blog_id'] = '4297';
data[1]['blog_message'] = 'I'm 20 and during school break one night decided to masturbate to some porn , and I came across this video and the pornstar looked alot like my mom , the actress had the same hair style my mom always wears and the pornstar was giving oral i like watching oral but she looked to much like my mom so I fast forward to where the porn star is riding the male pornstar and this reminded me of when I was a kid and my mom and her boyfriend would lock themselves in a room for hours and I thought to my self when I was masturbating that this is probably what they were doing , so I imagined the porn stars doing it in the room and this turned me on, but then I thought that it was gross cause that's what my mom and her boyfriend were doing , so I focused more on the porn star lady cause I just wanted to finish and go to bed , but now I feel like I jacked off to my mom and her boyfriend because It did arouse me a little but I tried finishing to the porn star , I feel sick , I hate that it turned me and that I didn't stop masturbating , I feel horrible , I was never attracted to my mom and I mastorbated that day because I was horny not cause I wanted to jack off to my mom but that video ****** it up , now I feel ashamed , this is serious , please HELP!';
data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 06 Mar 2013 23:32:19 -0500';
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data[2]['title'] = 'Schizophrenia and Multiple Personality Disorder *May Trigger*';
data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/schizophrenia_and_multiple_personality_disorder_*may_trigger*_c-3_u-296612_b-8851.html';
data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/schizophrenia_and_multiple_personality_disorder_*may_trigger*_c-3_u-296612_b-8851.html';
data[2]['username'] = 'crazy_banana';
data[2]['blog_id'] = '8851';
data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I am Rose, an alter of Anna. She is 15, I am 16. I am always with her, watching, observing what happens. I control her memories and what she remembers. I know all of her memories from the very beginning, and I can, at times, come out to act as a co-Host. I know everything she's gone through , and I act as a leader between all of the alters. I can, at times, control who it is that comes forward. I am their manager and leader. Rage is the hardest to control, because she can draw a line of destruction whenever and wherever she is. She is filled with bottled up anger and rage that was never dealt with all our life. Should I be scared? No, she's only trying to protect our system. I feel more afraid of Echo, because he's always crying and I'm scared that he'll one day give into the darkness.
Everyone thinks that they suffer alone from our schizophrenia, but we all suffer from it equally. Even Anna suffers from it, seeing and hearing people as if she were on acid. Rae is only angered and annoyed, but Brian, whom is the most affected by it, is made to feel even more afraid than he already is all the time. Brian is a moderately autistic 18 year old with the mind of a 5 year old. He enjoys wearing shorts and faded salmon shirts. He fears everyone and everything. He is the most affected because he is so young mentally and is suffering from autism.
Brian was made in the hospital, after being restrained for days. Rae was made after being in the inpatient psychiatric unit for a month. Rage was made from years of bottled up rage. Echo was made from an event Anna went through while she was only nine; thus, the reason that Echo is permanently nine. I was made, as a mute, mature girl, from years of being told not to speak about the horrors I've faced.';
data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 26 Aug 2015 01:15:47 -0400';
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data[3]['title'] = 'Having trouble knowing if I'm me or someone else.';
data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/having_trouble_knowing_if_i%CA%B9m_me_or_someone_else._c-3_u-411104_b-11101.html';
data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/having_trouble_knowing_if_i%CA%B9m_me_or_someone_else._c-3_u-411104_b-11101.html';
data[3]['username'] = 'Pryoproy';
data[3]['blog_id'] = '11101';
data[3]['blog_message'] = 'Is it abonormal that whenever I gain interest in a certain show or game that all of a sudden I drop literally all my other interests and focus mainly on one character in that series/game. It gets so bad that I'll actually imagine myself being in a relationship with them and also adopt most of not all of their traits and pretend I've always acted like that when in reality I was different before hand. But then again that could've been another character. I've been doing this for near 10 years so I don't even know who I am anymore. It's frustrating and I'm honestly concerned as it's nearly ended friendships in the past. In order to stop it, I've tryed asking myself am I doing this as me or as the character. This has proved unsuccessful as it just makes me paranoid that I'm being a character when I do something the same way I'd imagine the character doing something. It could be the most mundane task ever and I'll still be paranoid that I'm not me but someone else.';
data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Wed, 17 May 2017 07:55:07 -0400';
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data[4]['title'] = 'My relationship with my therapist';
data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_relationship_with_my_therapist_c-3_u-435562_b-11460.html';
data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Psychology/my_relationship_with_my_therapist_c-3_u-435562_b-11460.html';
data[4]['username'] = 'ChocoSara';
data[4]['blog_id'] = '11460';
data[4]['blog_message'] = 'Hi guys ,
This is pretty awkward to me talking about anything related to therapy to anyone. I've been seeing my therapist for a month now , we had 4 sessions and 3 walks so far. What i wanna talk about is how i can open up to him and not feel so stiff around him and end up regretting not saying all i want or any of it at all. He says we have a good relationship but it’s different for me. I feel really disconnected. I have so much to tell him but it always ends with me not saying what i REALLY wanna say , especially when we have a walk. There’s that thing i do when i feel "bad" , i pretend that i'm telling him what i'm feeling so i calm down. Maybe it’s the reason i have nothing left to say ?
The reason i'm trying to find a way to be more open is that i feel forced by myself. I’m regretting everytime i see him and end up not saying what i feel at all , and i don’t wanna drop therapy. I really really need it. I had a really unpleasant event by the time of our 3rd session and it made me realize how lucky i am to have a therapist at all. I wanna start fresh and on good terms with him. I wanna trust him enough to be comfortable around him to make our process better and not feel pushed. And he’s just a nice person idk what’s wrong with me 
I want to want to get better and not feel so forced by myself.';
data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Thu, 28 Sep 2017 04:07:19 -0400';