Social development; One of my manifestations has several minor manifestation; I would like the courage to get a car and afford it; a soulmate and keep her; attract her; talk to her; manifest one that is safe; I feel safe with and I can trust.... House, money, career, vacations; you feel me; the whole bag of goodies we all want. Im getting what I asked for; Im getting a second shot at my later childhood and beginning teenage years; its really simple; you need brothers; I hang out with people like me that dont want anything; they just like hanging out with me; and I with them; we are friends; going to 12 step meetings together and talking together; camping at bigger camp sites with a whole lot of other people. talking; we talk about what we need and how to get their emotionally to get back inline with life again. This is what I asked for.
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Im about 2 years old from that age of dating; standing up to bullies; thinking about getting my first car; career stuff; first job; My maturity level; not my real age... my maturity level.
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I can see it; Im slowly getting pulled back into that time period of learning again; missing the growing stuff I never got from a family system; the universe is supplying what I asked for. Im looking forward to working through it and getting through it; Should it take 2 years; I hope not; I dont think so. But I dont know; maybe I need that much experience; but I dont think so; want I need are specific experiences that build my confidence back the way a 14 year boy gets his confidence to ask girls out; I need that part of self re upped and ready to run; that revved up motoring; I need those real world experiences that get me back to being someone that Sells himself to get what he wants; not expecting anything from anyone. And their it is; hard interactions; learned chance taking in the real world of spontaneity.