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Trying to write a blog; keeps getting knocked off
   Tue Jun 25, 2019 5:35 pm
Lonely and still here
   Tue Jun 25, 2019 11:32 am
going to meetings; Yuk
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social is coming back; but its slow and about thinking
   Tue Jun 25, 2019 2:00 am
intimacy 3
   Mon Jun 24, 2019 11:26 am
1966 and 50 years later; or 50 years to late?
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Coping with what has happened to me in this life
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Visualizations
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Talents and development
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Money and women
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women and shame
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Music creating; blocked
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Im getting very close
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Its hard when you were never loved.
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Things are changing
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Cant finish anything I start; cant get started
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Social isolation; social uphill climb
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Feeling better inside
   Wed Jun 19, 2019 11:28 pm
Money
   Wed Jun 19, 2019 11:38 am
An interest in the arts
   Tue Jun 18, 2019 9:39 am
Social
   Mon Jun 17, 2019 10:32 pm
intimacy 2
   Mon Jun 17, 2019 4:02 pm
intimacy
   Mon Jun 17, 2019 10:51 am
Identity overwhelmed
   Sun Jun 16, 2019 10:22 am
re changing the present
   Wed Jun 12, 2019 3:45 pm
Working out of it; the struggle continues
   Tue Jun 11, 2019 4:14 pm
A new segment of life
   Tue Jun 11, 2019 1:07 am
dealing with life from zero to 18
   Mon Jun 10, 2019 8:13 pm
Connecting to things in the real world
   Mon Jun 10, 2019 11:53 am
Things are changing
   Mon Jun 10, 2019 4:43 am
I have to believe more
   Sat Jun 08, 2019 10:24 pm
liking myself and dating
   Thu Jun 06, 2019 8:46 pm
Dissociation
   Thu Jun 06, 2019 4:58 pm
Love
   Tue Jun 04, 2019 11:05 pm
Purpose
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Happiness
   Tue Jun 04, 2019 11:04 am
bulling and meditation and connection and...
   Sun Jun 02, 2019 8:03 pm
Bulling and meditation and connection and...
   Sun Jun 02, 2019 5:57 am
Childhood reconnection;
   Sat Jun 01, 2019 4:26 pm

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Working through bad stuff; asking God that I can trust

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Sun Oct 15, 2017 11:50 pm

I have to trust source energy! My life was wiped out when little! Who was in charge?; whats the Christian attitude about it! Some how the Christian view gets God off the hook! Why? or, How?; if God is the God of the universe, and the universe watched me as a child being destroyed day after day after day! How am I suppose to trust the universe! the universe turned on me! or left me or bullied me! It attacked me viciously! why?, I was just a child! The Christians will walk up to me and sell me some goods about God! It doesn't work anymore! its a niceeeee nice story line for the rich or well to do; for the rest of us, no escape from the human conditions!
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Im slowly allowing the process of working with God; but God can not make anymore mistakes with me! I cant spend, year after year after year getting to know God! By the time I was 18, I was an old man! I was burned out completely from dealing with sociopaths!
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I dont want to go through more pain! Im asking God for a relationship that he must respond to! Ill try on my end; I haven't got much to give!
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I dont like empty promises! Ive had 10 million of them; I had my whole life pulled out from under me when young with no escape! I was ruined, My future was ruined! everything was ruined! Everything was taken away from me; the intended aggression of a psychopath; the sadistic side!
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Im now trying to get better and I dont want to chase God to do so! God has to come out of the clouds to help me! he must come down from his thrown; he must!
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Im trying to contact God, but Im getting no offers! something is wrong!
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I will keep trying to contact God!

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