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Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Sun Oct 25, 2015 4:45 pm

I never had a first job! not mine! not in the real world sense! not along the sanity calendar!

I was destroyed when young; I was destroyed before you work! Those developmental years from 8-12; destroyed! I went to sleep and could not function on a work site or any site! I was destroyed!

That first job; independent; your job; a job for buying your stuff; your basic stuff in high school! ski stuff or music stuff! or computer stuff! Nothing! never happened!

I have no work ethic! nothing!

later, I had jobs thrown at me! I was forced to participate! but I could not last! I never wanted them or liked them or really chose them! I did not care about living! I did not choose the jobs I wanted! I did not understand the concept!

I cant make money! I cannot function! I have deep pain associated with work and jobs and working! massive hurt and collapse of self!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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