The big issue is coming to the news stands soon! This years biggest issues; women and activities! I will I be able to pull it off!
@Women!
Nothing causes more grief then women! What to do about women! I don't have my life together! And this is the major problem!
I wont put up with being judged by people! I cant! Its to much for me! I think I have one of those Un attractive qualities with women! Im not economically manly enough! I don't have anything! Theirs no room to take care of a women!
If I cant take care of a women; what else to bring to the table; personality! I don't have a strong personality of confidence and survival! Im a sensitive intelligent person! I do not see women wanting a sensitive intelligent person; I see women wanting a man with a big truck, big house, job,career, life! Money, stability and family! Then sensitive and intelligent!
Im just sensitive and intelligent; nothing more! I don't have anything else! OK; How do I show a women this! This is where I get stopped! I don't have the confidence so show her this side of me!
I seem to be weak on all sides! All of them! To weak for women! Or what women want!
I cant take care of a women!
Ive found that I never did attract any women! I never attracted any women being myself! I only attracted them when I acted attractive! But after acting attractive; the women I attracted are attractive women; but the wrong women!
Im attracting good looking women with nice bodies; but they are the wrong women! Or Im telling myself they are the wrong women! Maybe they're the right women and I cant believe it! Or I wont believe it! I seem to have something against beautiful women! I don't trust them; but I attract them!
Something is dreadfully wrong! I mean really ######6 wrong! I don't trust women! I don't trust anyone!
I don't trust anyone!
I want people from another planet! Some other place I can trust! Where it's not all about them!
Im not sure where to look for what Im looking for! I don't know! And I don't trust the people I attract!
Yet, I don't sleep with them either!
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Sleeping with women;
Something has stopped me from sleeping with women! Im self conscious about something! Possibly; its hard to sleep with someone as a man when you have nothing and are poor! But for a good reason!
Its hard to sleep with a women because its fantasy for her! But how do I create a fantasy for her! I have nothing!
This is where I get man! Very mad! My self image is horrible! Deplorable! And I have a right to it!
I don't see people with depth! No one! Im not sure if I'm not looking in the right places!
Telling the truth is a good place to start!
I know a women; an attractive women; she lives in a half way house! She is trying to get of alcohol and drugs! She did not lie to anyone! I have to do the same!
I seem to be scared to death to tell my real story to people! I have to get to the point that Im not scared any more of telling my real story!
Its attraction not promotion! But what are they attracted to! That scares me! I have no money! So, who are they and what do they want!
Age plays a part! Im starting to feel strangely old around women! But I still attract young women! 30 years old! The girls in their young 20's! Im still attracting them! Attraction is attraction!
If your 50 and she's 20 and you attract her; you attract her! And thats that!
My problem is; I cant man up! I have to speak up! Let people know who I am! That scares me; but why?
The first 18 years of my life ruined and waisted!
The first 18 years of my life were manipulated and waisted! And I do not want someone with me that I cannot talk about this! I cant be with someone that is so shallow that you cant talk to them! Or they wont talk to me!
Its all about them; this wont work!
They want it all about them! That wont work!
I need someone in a subordinate roll so its about me!
I want a women in a subordinate roll! Nothing else feels right! Or normal!
I have to trust Women! Or the women Im with! How do I do this!
My early life was waisted and a waist! Thats part of my story if not all of it! I only want people around me that can relate to this! I don't want anyone else!
But that should not stop me from sleeping with women!