Things are seriously ###$ up with women; and its worse then that! Its psychotically bad!
There is animosity toward women! To the point, I want to stay away from all of them! If they are not going to lay down and do what I tell them and act appropriately, ###$ them! Why would I ######6 bother!
Feminism and men do not mix! Meaning, masculine women impress women; men stay clear of such ######6 retarded nonsense! These are women that cant get a date! Thats not my fault!
I deal with allot of bitches! deceptive people! Way to many of them!
Its all confusing!
Ive attracted the wrong women! On the outside, they are great looking! On the inside, not so good! Not because they are shallow! But because they are money seekers in one form or another! They want to be taken care of! Not a problem; but I cant take care of them! So, I need to look at other women from other camps! And who would that be, and where!
And I seems to be deathly afraid to move into other arenas to find women! Im very nervous about it! Anxiety goes up!
The goal is to be myself! This would solve allot of these problems! Also, where do I really fit in, and with who!
Where are these people!
When younger, the people I should have fit in with; they rejected me! I did not expect this! I did not understand this! And its happened several times!
I thought the people I knew at one time were my friends; later to find out, they were not my friends! And Ive gone through this with numerous people!
None of them end up my friends, altho I am and was friendly! I end up a scumbag to these people; weird! But Im not a weird!
I went through 2 neighborhoods of hate! Each for different reasons! Yet, turned out the same!
It's interesting! I did not match up in these neighborhoods with the kids I was roaming with! I end up hated by most in both situations!
The first neighborhood caught me off guard; the hatred toward me! I never saw it coming! But then, I left this neighborhood and came back later to see old friends! I had none!
My best friend was no longer my friend! He was a fair weather joke! In fact he turns out to be the opposite of what I originally thought of him! I thought he was a really good person when I first met him!
He ends up thinking he is superior to everyone on earth! He sees me as inferior! Strange! Very strange! I meant nothing to him as a person! Thats whats wrong!
In the other neighborhood; same problem! I had to leave or go to another school! I a shunned! When I saw an old friend from that neighborhood! I was friendly and said hello! He was ok at first then none responsive as if I was a dumb ass! But Im not a dumb ass! Thats whats interesting!
I don't know what to think! I honestly don't!
It hurts very much; real bad! Its pure prejudice! I can look at it in no other way! People are judging on shallow basics! They judge occurring to money or where you work or don't work; class system!
I guess I didn't pass the test!