Im starting to get it; the universe; how the universe is helping me!
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What do I need; quality women to work with!
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Im working with or opening up to different women at 12 step meetings; Im not getting anywhere with them once I ask for phone numbers; no one calls me back; even to work with me or help me; they say they want me to call them; I call them and no one calls me back! should this surprise me; no! Nothing abnormal about this lack of consistency! Why would I think otherwise!
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The question is; where or who is the universe going to bring me to help me! Some of these women have helped with interaction ability; my ability to practice interactions; I have dissociative disorder and these exercises help! However, I can sense the universe wont let it go any further because these women are not safe; and they are not; they are 2 faced; and O, how Im reminded; how could I have ever forgotten what their primary interest is; they want to set someone up, manipulate them, use them, lead them on; set the trap; once in the trap and I appear dumbed down; they pull the trap door that is suppose to reek havoc on my life; destroy me; humiliate me; the use of relational aggressions against me. I suppose these women think Im a fool; in reality; Im not a fool; Im looking or who the universe is sending me. Im looking for the right women that are to help me! And I can see the universe using these women; bringing these women in, that I may practice social skills with! My questions is? when will I meet the right women to have a more personable relationship with!
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One area that has knocked me out; money! My worth is determined by money! An old rule exists; if a man does not have enough money; sooner or later within a relationship; a women will loose respect for him! and this is a problem.
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In fact; most of my life; Ive had nothing but problems with women being deceptive and 2 faced! The problem is the type of women Im associating with! Ive been to afraid to be around better quality women. I dont think I will be received well; I think I will be looked at as a bum or loser; So, I dont go around them! of course this inside of me is OK; but will they care; money level; economic level speaks for itself.
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I know the universe is allowing development; however, its slow.
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A gap resides between where Im at and where I want to be. I want to be in the arms of better people. Im on the outskirts of society! Im trying to make my way back into society.
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I want to be safe; safely in the middle; not on the edge. Ive met lots of pretentious people. However, not everyone needs to hang out with someone like me; Im on an edge.
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Im working with the universe; the universe has to bring me the right people to work with! its all about trusting the universe; trusting GOd.