| Psychology and Mental Health Forum | |
https://www.psychforums.com/blog/OMNICELL/women_and_dating_b-13206_sid-606cbcaeb02b110d2bcd044e09ddaf1e.html |
|
| Author: | OMNICELL [ Sat Jan 25, 2020 4:44 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Women and dating |
Dating is about coming up to speed. . Im not up to speed; Im nowhere near the quality right now to do much of anything; but I get it. And I can see what I want and what was taken from me and where Im going; the journey; and Im on that journey. Right now; Im fixating on the starting point of that journey; and that will be the beginning; and the beginning of life; the original expression of innocence and life; that is where I start; ground zero. and from their; I express myself outward in imagination; and from their; the next step. And so; I allow myself; my mind to wonder to the next step; What is the next step; and no controlling it; let it go... where will it land. . Here is an example of being at the beginning and going the next step... . Lets say I throw the foot ball with my friends in the backyard of my house as a boy. And then I meditate on this; then what happens. What is the next step; suddenly In my imagination Im lost and it's dark. Suddenly Im in the unknown. and if I hang on; new thoughts come to me. I see myself throwing the football in the park... I see myself throwing the football with others; new people; older people; and the football is thrown further; and Ive met new friends and a team forms; Now Im playing football on a team. . In order to move from one area; where Im at; to a new area in my imagination; I must meditate; and allow the boat to go down the energy river and tie my hands up and stay out of it; just float down the river; dont control anything.... nothing; stay out of it. let it float until it meanders and docks itself on the shore. and when it does; Ill look around and get out of the boat; and see what is their... and start another life experience... . So; Im at this place of being back in nursery school; re experiencing it; and then looking up in the middle of the play ground in the backyard. Looking up with my hands in the air and just letting go; and allowing my energy to flow upward; and then what! Whats the next area I land on.... . . And it is this journey of allowing to the next landing point; I will be blind for a while; while I make my way through the dark; and then the light will return and I will land on a new planet somewhere and a new destination... and start a new life experience.. and that is what Im working on; staying out of the way; the control. . Im getting somewhere doing this. hopefully to fill in the gaps to retrain my mind to only what I want to see and head it in the direction I want; with no other thoughts creeping in.... . I can see a future in this... I can see me changing. I becoming myself again with purpose and direction... And I see it. . Ive got a hurdle I must explore right now and walk through or face; Ill get their; lots of grieving and pain in this; Ill come up to speed in this thing; that is what Im working on... |
|
| All times are UTC | |
Powered by phpBB © 2002, 2006 phpBB Group www.phpbb.com |
|