at a meeting, and I see another cute women; she's new! she's looking at me!
I have to keep working on stuff and learn to go up and say hello!
Im better then I used to be! but the women thing is so hard! its the dissociative disorder! Im starting to remember the old girl friends and other stuff that has been buried!
ITs like my mind has been a giant amnesia machine! its ######6 crazy! I am truly sick of it!
Im sick of not being able to ask women out! this is truly ###$!
And its about the condition and approach! I know how and what to do! I have to keep practicing and allowing myself to interact in that direction!
I am sick of people at the meetings! I really need to find people out side the meetings to date! or what ever!
Control is a problem!
Why dont I need women more then I do! I cant feel anything! not feeling anything can be its own blog!