Ive hd my share of mental illness!
Im sensitive and intelligent! A bad combination for mental trauma! I was wiped out by it; by trauma!
Im at that point; Its turning into social anxiety! Meaning; ive gotten allot better! Its now a solid social anxiety! Dissociative disorder is down! PTSD is alive and well, but cleaned out! Or cleaned up the best I can!
Social anxiety is alive and well; However, with time and visualization practice; Im much better then I used to be!
I have allot on my plate! The past is still to much for me to bare or understand! It was incredible! I would have never believed what happened to me was going to happen!
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The past turned into a horrific nightmare! And in all actuality; Im lucky Im not dead or a sociopath! I would have been if certain things had been different! There is a very good chance that children in my situation wold have killed themselves within weeks or months of what I was going through!
Because I was under the control, or being controlled by a psychopath and sociopath; anything goes! To these type of in human scum; they understand right n wrong; they simply don't care! They feel nothing! If they are sadistic; this changes everything to 10 time worse!
A child cannot be dragged through what I was dragged through; they will hang themselves!
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Ive had to forgive and forgive and forgive a thousand times; and I will continue, because the people or animals that caused these problems have no conscious! And I know this! They are strangers and feel nothing for the human beings! They are not human! They do not care if I was born, and do not care when I die! They are strangers and can never be seen or trusted again; Never!
So; I forgive my brother over n over n over, and my mother n father! Over n over n over! And I will continue to do so!
Its hard! I get bad thoughts of pain from being ripped of by these sociopaths! They are sociopaths and therefore cannot help what they are! They cannot wake up tomorrow and be any different then they are today! Impossible for most sociopaths to think anything is wrong with them when they don't feel anything is wrong!
Ive seen plenty of sociopaths! They cant change and would not know anything is wrong with them! If they have economic and social problems; they assume its about society and has nothing to do with them!
Ive known many that knew something was wrong with them; they could not handle a job and could not handle being out of control of others!
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Biggest issues Im dealing with;
1. letting go of the past through forgiveness
2. social development with others; close interactions
3. Manifesting of my desires to completion!
4. Understanding fear working for solutions!