I am slowly waking up from what forced me into a cloud of dissociation 40 years ago!
At college age; I was about 25, I began to go into this cloud of further levels of concern! Finally I was completely taken over by dissociative disorder! and through homelessness and suicide attempts; hospitalized, I was put on Social security! IVe been working on these problems every since!
I am now starting to reconnect with the present! Im doing it; its strange and hard and feels like Im connecting to a big cartoon! Im half here, half not here!
Ive done the work! now Im coming back!
My mind is the type that gets ripped apart by trauma and recedes inwards into dissociative disorder! This happens every time!
PTSD land is all Ive known!
As for the locals; I grew up with many of them; they want nothing to do with me! its my condition they are prejudice or they question my character! Pure hate and contempt!
They are assassinating my character! Ive had this happen over n over in this small town!
its heart braking when you are abandon over n over; and you've done nothing to anyone!
They were my friends!
However, God has made it clear; they were no ones friends! they are arrogant punks that will pay the price of their questionable choices in front of God!
I am with God; not them!
I dont like being not liked when I valued their friendship! I must turn to God and stay with God! its that simple! the surroundings are not safe!