Not sure I understand! Im starting to get stronger and more honest around other people; still, its hard! all of it!
Saw the girl that liked me a few years ago! she wants nothing to do with me! she's written me of as an idiot. This pisses me off! Im confused. I suppose I was dealing with a limited based person! to bad. She has changed her mind about me and does not care either way!
I will never see her again, and this is hard! All that she did for me!
She is responsible for the effect upon my mental condition. Because of her, I started to trust the outside world, and began work, to come out of Dissociative disorder! will I ever be able to tell her! I doubt it! She would never want to hear it! Im not in her life anymore, Ive been forgotten and replaced. What a ######6 bitch!
I hated when right is wrong and wrong is right! I get thrown away for a pathological lier! I am shunned as if weak! Im forgotten and never talked to again!
This girl tried to get close to me several years ago! I could not respond. Now, Im scum and not good enough! yet, Im the one that has gotten better in my recovery process; go figure! What the f#ck! Nice!~
Now what! I keep preying and letting go!
I have this problem of projecting! I think something is going to happen or suppose to happen! Im accepted! Im not accepted.
I have to keep going and keep working through things until all of me shows up!