I would like to be around single women; not the wrong ones! This is social! and my thoughts; I have to learn that if Im myself; thats OK! I have to learn to be myself and walk away from those that dont accept.
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I need to be around a protected quality people! and I don't know what that looks like!
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so far; Ive had one women; after learning about my problems; has come back to me to check on me! Only one! Ive had other women interested in me; Only this one women has cared enough to come back! Her traits; She's beautiful! She confident around men! She's a violinist! She's intelligent! And after I explained myself to her; or she has heard me speak several times! She has come fourth to care; more of these people; more please!
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So; and for some reason; Im mad that I cant get all the qualities I want in women at the same time in the same women! So; I have to believe its possible to get all that I want in one women!
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I do not want prejudice from women; I don't want to be judged; and I would say; I would like to test women; and let the ones that don't count; let them go in real time and move on; and recognize it! However, because of neediness Im willing to take anyone and be friends with anyone; and this is destroying me! I have to rise to a higher level! Im working on accepting this! Im mad about accepting this! Im angry! mad!
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The problem I've had; I don't want to be attacked by people through relational aggression; being laughed at or scoffed or put down; thats not why I want relationships with people!