I want to get a new guitar and I want to t my teeth fixed. Which ones come first; It will take 5000 grand for 2 root canals. Ive never had root canals done on my teeth; ive lost about 7 of them and had a few more root canals done. I let them pull my teeth. Now I regret it; but what am I suppose to do about it.
I want my new guitar; about a grand. Id rather have new teeth. If their not root candled; I will loose them. Their dead teeth; or infected; Im assuming at this point; my whole mouth is infected.
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So; Im buying a new guitar because this is money for the guitar would have gone for my teeth; but my teeth cost to much to fix. Second opinion by another dentist; get them pulled; Their back upper molars and have no matching molars on the bottom; why bother keeping them. Sucks; I wish someone would tell me to keep my teeth and tell me a way to do so.
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I checked on prices for implants; 3000 to 6000 grand a tooth. I dont have that kind of money right now. Should I save for a few years for one tooth; maybe; still it ties up all my necessity money for living.
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So; Im taking it to God; to the universe!
Ive wanted a new guitar and found one; for a grand.
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This is the makings of poverty; when Im pressured between my dreams coming true and taking care of a medical situation or cosmetic situations; teeth.
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Obviously; with character and morals; I choose the teeth; but its not that easy; Im in poverty; meaning, a fixed income. I dont have the 600 to 12 thousand dollars to replace the back molars with implant teeth. I dont have the 5000 dollars for the root canals and crowns. Ive got dentist's telling me to loose the teeth based on price; its 2 expensive to keep them; nice world. I know the rest of my upper back teeth are going to go; get infected at some point.
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This sucks; its like being between a rock n hard place; so; do I jut buy the guitar.
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Ive tried to get help; a grant for my teeth; never heard back from them.
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I look back at all the money I could have saved for my teeth; about 10 years worth. It would have been worth it to save it for my teeth. Still; seemed like highway robbery. And I would have had no money to live on.
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what does the universe tell me to do.
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I hate being in a world where my reality is one of poverty.
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My teeth have to be pulled at some point; the back teeth; they have to; that would make it about 9 teeth pulled in the last 6 years.
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Buying a guitar in the face of buying new teeth; sickening actually; Im not this stupid; but I dont know what else to do. I feel stuck. Its my morals to save and buy the teeth. Its also my morals to buy the guitar because its part of my dreams. It almost seems like forced corruption against myself. My loosing my values or their watered down because Im in a position that seems I cant win; so whats the use; might as well buy the guitar and deal with the teeth later; but how can I deal with the teeth later; once their pulled; their not growing back.
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If I save the money now for later; I wont have enough later for one tooth; thats how it feels; whats the point; and this is the making of poverty. Im trying to work with the universe for a good solution.
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The best solution is not to sell myself out; but to stay in touch with my inner being; stay alined with myself.