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The revenge of abuse!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Sat Jul 21, 2018 11:37 am

What do I want! I want to take my pain out on someone! I want to heal! I want to ____?, I want to maim, I want to attack, I want to destroy! I want to _____-?! I want to ___! and ___! and____-! and __-! again! over, n over, over! I want to __--! n kill n__-!l n __--! and destroy and __-!l! I want to do to society what it allowed its perverts to do so me! and its country and its people were allowed to do to me; it had permission; it got it from the state, from the top! They are perverts and child destroyers; the whole society; They make serial killers look like school girls!
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I want revenge; a civil war! get rid of this country and this society; all of it! get rid of it! ____ it off! all of it! destroy it! burn it and ________ in it! Everything! _____!,______!,______!
Destroy the whole place!
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I was forced; over n over no ver again to be around murders that destroy children; over n over n over; the only escape would have been the streets; and thats where I was being led in the first place; away from a family system into hell, into nothingness! Im the one who had to hang on to the life raft while I was continually being kicked out of my house and my life! I was being destroyed over n over n over n over n over!
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I had no control; I was a captive! Taking a child who is to young and throwing them away into the wild is also an act of captivity; the child is now captive in society and being destroyed limb from limb!
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Children are to be protected; they wont survive any other way! they cant! All areas of society were destroying me; everywhere; everyone!
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Nothing has changed; I can join groups today and those in charge will continue to attempt to destroy children or the child in me!
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So; Where do I go to be safe; I have to work with God!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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