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The point that your getting better!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Mon Oct 30, 2017 5:33 pm

What does it mean when Im " getting better"! What does it look like, feel like, twist like; is it cinnamon , or rustic orange leaves, or that special Tea sent of tropical European sycamore. What does it feel look or focus right! Why lite does it shine!
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I know where Im headed; Im headed through the PTSD worlds as they warm up and start their engines! As I get closer to facing the fears of my past, the PTSD worlds rev up and get thicker and louder and longer! They take me over long before I think about them taking me over; they take over in a split second! And thus, these quick PTSD takeovers; I must watch for! and I am, and I understand and Im having success!
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What does it look like to recover! I know how to be somewhat in the here n now! and within the here n now; I know that I can create a world and turn it into things; from thoughts and concepts to things!
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I want to turn thoughts into things; thats my job and my goal; to create magic, for I am the magic man; I am the creator of my universe!
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I am getting better; what does it look like; it looks like dreams in a reality, not just a fantasy! it means being in tune and in line with the outside world and myself and the universe!
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It means, dreams being turned from thoughts to things; not giving up or using the concept of giving up to get something! I don't give up anymore; thats a PTSD state from whence a child! I don't believe that anymore; that I have to give up! I had to when young, no one around to take care of me; I had no choice!~ today, I have a choice, I have other information and thinking abilities and places for help!
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Im a 12 year old attempting to work through the things that a 12 year old will experience to get better and mature to the next level successfully! I say successfully because I was brutally destroyed at this age! I did not pass to the next level! I was dismembered as a human being!
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What does it look like to get better! I start enjoying my life without fear and without a past; the door is open on it but I don't need to enter it! my focus is on the present and Im able to function in the present and go after the things that make me happy! "Whats the best thing that could happen" " focus on that"; Im really really really into positive thinking and positive success training; the type of things Billionaire study to become rich; and they studied; they didn't just become rich; they did like everyone before them; they became masters of success by studying what it is and what procedures they need to learn; and they practiced it and got good at it and they are now rich!
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What does it look like to get better?; Im able to respond and talk to others as myself! Im able to feel ok on my feet! Im able to function around others and have goals and dreams and plan out a strategy for my life! Im able to have massive hope for the future on planet earth! and I do; in a beginning way! its solid; Im just a beginner!
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The visions in my mind; what do I see; what type of thoughts do I have; I have much better thoughts! much more hope and positive!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
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