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Im at this point; the therapists office is to small@ The last time I was their; It was funny; why am I going to this little room and talking to this women for a half hour or hour! Why! funny! I can do that anywhere! I got mad at her; it was strange! and she acted strange! She acted like she wanted me to get out! The reasons; I was to much for her because I had gotten so much better! At some point; it was a waist to be in her office! I got mad at her; she did not take me seriously! The problem was; I was getting better and did not need to go to a therapist as a serigate relationship taking the place of my mother and father!
At 12 step groups; they will love you until you can love yourself! Many times older member and leaders of the group help the new people! So; its like having big brothers or sisters! However, at some point I started getting irritated with all of this! why! I dont need that role anymore!
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So; whats missing!
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I was like a fish that got mentally ill; Instead of going down the stream; I went to the side of the brook an swam in circles! thats all I did; as the other fish were spawning and went down the river!
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Im slowly making my way back to alignment! What does a normal person do for therapy! Simple; They get a wife! They and their wife therapy with each other! thats called a relationship!
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Ive had no relationships! Ive had dependency relationships! Those in positions of authority that could take care of me while I was mentally ill! Now that Im getting better; Im slowly making my way back to wanting a wife; its about aligning with life again! I dont need the 12 step groups leaders or psych group leaders or therapists; Im slowly becoming independent again and heading down a natural path; that of having a wife!