Im at this place; PTSD keeps my mind in limiting past beliefs and a past world of nothingness of resentments and fear; of emptiness and anxiety and despair. I feel bad because of what Im seeing in my mind; the thoughts; the thoughts of after a family throwing me away! and the continue'd of these thoughts!
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The problem is; Im stuck like a 5th grader! Im attempting to ask source energy of the universe to get me the new experiences to go through these adolescent experiences that can get me growing past these age groups!
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Bulling! when I attempt to work through these time periods; I get hit with the memories and re living the bulling in these situations and I dissociate and I cant move or move forward! and this is a big big problem! Im attempting to understand how to get past these fear walls!
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My goal is to have goals beyond these limited age experiences! So, I would like to mature through experience! The goal is to have goals beyond these limited time periods!
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Its like being trapped in time!
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I did not come here to live reality; I came to create reality!
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So, its like being a 13 year old again reaching out to God for the answers of the next journey or experience to build confidence and purpose! In fact! theirs no development of that time period! nothing!