As a child I was damaged!
Ill look at a basic layman's understanding of it!
Ill look at a broken arm!
I went off a ledge, I choked, the bike bounced,
When I was able to get up, I could not move my left arm!
I got my bike up, walked to the hospital!
The Doc told me I had broken my left arm
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I noticed something about trauma:
1. My whole body went into shock,
2. A hematoma quickly formed over the broken elbow
3. The arm no longer functioned.
4. What if statements?
5. embarrassment:
6. How long will my arm be out! how long will it take to heal.
7. Will my arm be back to normal;
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The above example is much like the mental psych damage I went through as a child...
1. I felt I could do anything on my bike,
2. I trusted my bike to save my life
I felt the same way about the house when a child!
I would learn later how wrong I was!
3. I trusted chance taking! I felt a security of safety!
Now, looking back at the bike and chances I took and looking back at the parents I had; I was destroyed in both arenas.
When I smashed my arm in, it was at the local University!
My Parents abandon me very quickly!
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My psych wounds were so traumatizing; I was so ruptured that I huge psychological hematoma rapped itself around the mind wounds and never let up! Year after year received more wounding to the same areas and got worse. My mind began to weaken to the point that it could not sustain itself. And the abuse was just starting! and in its finality would be mass PTSD problems, and full dissociative disorder; the results would be Social security disability and a ruined short life!
And they never came back! they got rid of me and never looked back! they separated my brothers and myself! and turned the situation into a prison camp simulation! I was farmed out to other families like a second class citizen or a foster child! and I ended up much like a raped beaten destroyed foster child! It was really impossible not to kill myself!
Just like the bike accident! if you do not get help, you will not heal correctly!
You don't really know what kind of condition your arm is in when it breaks, all you know is; your in pain, and the arm does not work anymore!
Much is the same for a broken mind!
I know about the damage and what needs to heal up!
Im afraid most people are not concerned about my condition! most ridicule me or send me on my way!
Im one of the lucky ones!
Other things:
Ive also found that women are not here to make you happy!
The idea with women is: sweep them off there feet! make them laugh!
Women want to be taken care of! and you will find plenty of rejection if you expect anything from them!