I need support for my new life adventures! I write allot and post all over the place and get in trouble for it! I haven't gotten kicked off any places; but Im needy for notice! I loved to be noticed; I need the attention to feel like Im somebody! Nothing wrong with this! It's my style of feeling apart of! However, it freaks people out; or site admins; they don't appreciate my constant hovering!
I suppose I can learn from it! I just want! Its that simple! And Im jump on; splash the page! Then they kick me off for over indulgence! So, I have to watch the boundaries or Im going to get kicked off places! And thats not what I want!
I check in; I check in to places as if Im checking in to my fantasy parents; to get loved! But I do it to much! And I didn't realize! Just writing something under someones post is proof that Ive checked in! I don't have to post something! But I love to post something and feel apart of!
I end up writing a small novel on top of the post; almost a blog; and then Im threatened to be kicked of! So, I have to learn boundaries!
Im learning! Im have to work at things!
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So my rapport with women is getting better! Most of my frustration with women is; it takes me a month or 2 to respond to them; Its 2 late by then! Another man has taken them! And thats that! Its over! It makes no sense in getting near them! Or looking at them! No point! Its over!
I didn't realize! Women do see men like men see women; A piece of ass! However, many women see men as interesting and mysterious and would like a relationship! So, many women have wanted relationships with me and I did not give that 2 them! And I have to get over it!
The biggest problem starts with the first girl I loved! And stuff before this dealing with the psychopaths!
The first girl; I wanted a relationship with her but pulled away! And Im still doing it today! So, I have to stop doing it! ###$!