Relationships are stuck. I won't ask someone out that I like. I refuse. I dont want to get hurt. its so strong I have no relationships...
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I will continue to work with God on this...
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I have to learn again how to have relationships; The heart.
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Im so tired and exhausted... its so way over my head; all of this.
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Im not really apart of anything...
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Ill go to one more 12 step group...
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Im in the middle of some more changes...
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Im disabled when it comes to relationships. Ill keep trying new things. Ill work with God to bring me new people and see what happens...
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Stepping outside is very difficult; meaning; actually going somewhere.
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Im not sure yet where Im going or why... For what.
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I would still like a wife. I have to work with the universe on this.. Ill keep working on it. I imagine Ill have to do many things I dont want to do to open up...
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I feel a strange changing going on.. I feel the desolation within me. I also feel something new; new changes...
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Ill keep working with the universe as I slowly loose the part of feeling sorry for myself or being the victim...
Im not God I have to do the footwork