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| Author: | OMNICELL [ Wed Sep 30, 2015 11:22 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Starting point! |
And Im starting to see it! Those from the past! As I get better, Im seeing what I blocked off! Im seeing Satan! Im seeing the devil! Im seeing the devil in my best friend and his family! No ######6 wonder God was humorous about the whole thing! He was laughing at me or with me! He was trying to explain to me; " I do not know those people, they are not in my book of life"! I did not understand how this could be! Now I know! As I get better, and better within his realm; now I see it! Ive seen psychopaths like wolves within the meetings I attend! And I see it! The family system I thought were my friends! They are the same way! They are like wolves with fangs! All animals! All animal, no human! Nothing human! Complete demonic! And I see different forms of Satan in many people that have approached me! Or that I have approached! It's my job to figure out what really happened when I was young! It's no game! I was genicided out of my life very young! It was deliberate! It's my job to look at it; figure it out, fix what I can and move on! The idea is to get my life back and let go of those from the past! Im not a sociopath! So it's not easy for me! Im a sensitive human being! It makes things impossible! You have to keep working at this; over n over n over! Its about my addiction to mom and dad! To my mom and dad! A child wants to feel proud of something! All they have is their mom and dad! Take that away, and they are crushed! And I was crushed! Now Im looking for solutions to be uncrushed! Im slowly working on this! It's slowly happening! When and as I work through the issues with my mother and father, all other issues get better! Im still living a double life and have not began to change! I attract women; my fair share; but I cant feel comfortable with them until I can tell them the truth!~ I live in an apartment and don't have much in the way of money! I certainly don't tell them bluntly at the top! However, its about being afraid to approach them because of my economic insecurities Live learned that I have to quit living a double life and learn to tell people the truth! And thats where Im headed! |
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