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Finding my voice
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 4:47 pm
Three important conversations with women
   Tue Aug 20, 2019 1:39 am
I letting socioapths attack me again; abuse me; feel demoralized
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 11:23 am
Mellowing; and idea of exploring the entrances to the gap...
   Mon Aug 19, 2019 1:20 am
A house and a backyard and 4 walls and a hobby
   Sun Aug 18, 2019 1:09 am
moving into know mans land (positive); and then through
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The Gap
   Wed Aug 14, 2019 8:37 pm
Teenage years
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finding and painting rocks
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 5:14 pm
Expressing my feelings
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 3:26 pm
I know Ive never met any women to date ever....
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 11:02 am
Being alone all of my life with out women or a relationship
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 10:16 am
The wright brothers created plaines; Im creating my new life
   Tue Aug 13, 2019 8:41 am
A new era is starting; But Ive got problems
   Mon Aug 12, 2019 12:19 pm
Signs of the end is here; and a new era starting
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:13 pm
Trapped between 2 worlds
   Sun Aug 11, 2019 3:23 pm
Things are getting better; Im still fat; I got a problem
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 11:38 pm
Women have defeated me? and I feel deated? #1
   Fri Aug 09, 2019 6:45 am
Plans from the universe; they have cometh
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:39 pm
breaking things and coming together
   Wed Aug 07, 2019 11:44 am
What am I thinking about
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That breaking point
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 8:45 pm
Needing my mothers permission
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:47 pm
And another day
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 5:03 pm
Im so right in the middle of the promises
   Tue Aug 06, 2019 4:35 pm
whats missing with music; live playing
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Women and John Denver
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Bulling
   Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:33 am
art images coming back and other things; taking action
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I wasn't suppose to break the my first girls heart....
   Sat Aug 03, 2019 12:47 pm
Take my mother out of the picture; what do I get.
   Fri Aug 02, 2019 11:47 pm
Where am at right now.
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Starting point!

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Wed Sep 30, 2015 11:22 pm

And Im starting to see it!

Those from the past!

As I get better, Im seeing what I blocked off! Im seeing Satan! Im seeing the devil! Im seeing the devil in my best friend and his family! No ######6 wonder God was humorous about the whole thing! He was laughing at me or with me! He was trying to explain to me; " I do not know those people, they are not in my book of life"! I did not understand how this could be! Now I know! As I get better, and better within his realm; now I see it!

Ive seen psychopaths like wolves within the meetings I attend! And I see it! The family system I thought were my friends! They are the same way! They are like wolves with fangs! All animals! All animal, no human! Nothing human! Complete demonic!

And I see different forms of Satan in many people that have approached me! Or that I have approached!


It's my job to figure out what really happened when I was young! It's no game! I was genicided out of my life very young! It was deliberate! It's my job to look at it; figure it out, fix what I can and move on!

The idea is to get my life back and let go of those from the past! Im not a sociopath! So it's not easy for me! Im a sensitive human being! It makes things impossible!

You have to keep working at this; over n over n over!

Its about my addiction to mom and dad! To my mom and dad! A child wants to feel proud of something! All they have is their mom and dad! Take that away, and they are crushed!

And I was crushed! Now Im looking for solutions to be uncrushed!

Im slowly working on this! It's slowly happening! When and as I work through the issues with my mother and father, all other issues get better!

Im still living a double life and have not began to change!

I attract women; my fair share; but I cant feel comfortable with them until I can tell them the truth!~
I live in an apartment and don't have much in the way of money! I certainly don't tell them bluntly at the top! However, its about being afraid to approach them because of my economic insecurities

Live learned that I have to quit living a double life and learn to tell people the truth!

And thats where Im headed!

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
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