Our partner

User avatar
OMNICELL
Consumer 6
Consumer 6
 
Posts: 1035
Joined: Tue Nov 15, 2011 5:06 am
Blog: View Blog (943)
Archives
- July 2019
Im beginning to understand
   Sun Jul 14, 2019 3:30 pm
Visualizing
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 8:28 pm
Starting from the beginning
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 3:35 pm
The trap house part 2
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 3:13 pm
The trap house; I only knew about; In the end I win
   Fri Jul 12, 2019 1:15 am
Massive Mega paradigm shift
   Thu Jul 11, 2019 3:01 pm
First post recovery conversation
   Wed Jul 10, 2019 9:55 pm
Dating and Art
   Wed Jul 10, 2019 4:44 pm
movement
   Tue Jul 09, 2019 5:56 pm
childhood abandonment
   Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:23 pm
Being single
   Mon Jul 08, 2019 3:53 am
Preview: PTSD; High School
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 10:31 pm
Fear
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 4:34 pm
Ive found some answers
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:41 pm
D.I.D; let me introduce myself
   Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:23 pm
PTSD; dealing with triggers.
   Fri Jul 05, 2019 5:32 am
Making me into a loser; its all about the critical voice
   Thu Jul 04, 2019 6:08 pm
Molding sound like clay; having reasons; Things are changing
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 4:25 pm
critical voice
   Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:38 am
Toxic shame
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 11:05 pm
Ive found some answers
   Tue Jul 02, 2019 7:59 am

+ June 2019
+ May 2019
+ April 2019
+ March 2019
+ February 2019
+ January 2019
+ December 2018
+ November 2018
+ October 2018
+ September 2018
+ August 2018
+ July 2018
+ June 2018
+ May 2018
+ April 2018
+ March 2018
+ February 2018
+ January 2018
+ December 2017
+ November 2017
+ October 2017
+ September 2017
+ August 2017
+ July 2017
+ June 2017
+ May 2017
+ April 2017
+ March 2017
+ February 2017
+ January 2017
+ December 2016
+ November 2016
+ September 2016
+ August 2016
+ July 2016
+ June 2016
+ May 2016
+ April 2016
+ March 2016
+ February 2016
+ January 2016
+ December 2015
+ November 2015
+ October 2015
+ September 2015
+ August 2015
+ April 2015
+ March 2015
+ February 2015
+ January 2015
+ December 2014
+ November 2014
+ October 2014
+ September 2014
+ August 2014
+ July 2014
+ June 2014
+ May 2014
+ April 2014
+ March 2014
+ February 2014
+ January 2014
+ December 2013
+ November 2013
+ October 2013
+ September 2013
+ August 2013
+ July 2013
+ June 2013
+ May 2013
+ April 2013
+ March 2013
+ February 2013
+ January 2013
+ December 2012
+ November 2012
+ October 2012
+ September 2012
+ August 2012
+ July 2012
+ June 2012
+ May 2012
+ April 2012
+ March 2012
+ February 2012
+ January 2012
+ December 2011
+ November 2011
Search Blogs

Somewhere in time

Permanent Linkby OMNICELL on Fri May 17, 2019 6:01 am

Not sure how I see my life. Im working with the universes.
.
Im not sure where its at; I have to keep working at it.
.
The people I associate with; not all are very good. Ive had problems with some people; Im alone.
.
Its strange; Im alone and I keep working on it; on life; Im MGTOW; and have been that way all my life; purple pill.
.
Ive always had my eyes open; but dealing with women has been useless. They lie most of the time and dont care. I remember a women that liked me; she abused her children and throw them away so could get my attention; when I saw this; it was over before it started. And this is an example of many situations.
.
With women; Im only interested in women Im interested in; no one else.
.
Im working with the universe.
.
I would like to be in a relationship; but that has to do with money; or my interest in money.
.
I believe in goals and the continuation of interest in goals.
.
I dont date; Im not sure who to date. and I have massive problems taking risks; loneliness drives me to look for a better life. Im attempting to let go of my fears; this is hard because Ive been damaged; and I dont want to be damaged anymore; it is getting better.
.
Im attractive to women; but as I get older; how long will it last.
.
Im scared of not being attractive because of age but Ive never had money.
.
Ill have to work with the universe; Im scared of letting go of my past my mother and my past house I lived in. Im scared because of the horror and fear I felt when it happened the first time. I dont want to be forced into reliving that.
.
Im still going to 12 step meetings; and its helping me but I didnt know I need all that help; Im stuck between worlds right now; Im attempting to break into the real world but that work requires more faith in the universe.
.
Risk taking is something ive not been good at because I dont like my arms getting ripped off. My value as a person seems to be nothing in this disposable society; so I have to turn to something else.
.
Not having money has stopped all interest in women. its a giant wall. But Im not blaming women for this; its my inability to take chances and look at myself.
.
losing weight is getting harder to do; but can be done; its what I want.
.
I dont like being alone; I have no one; no family; and Im disposable in society. So; I must work with the universe for help.
.
working with the universe is the problem. trusting the universe is the problem. the universe has to show up; but I have to take chances with the universe; and thats hard. very hard in fact; that could be a blog onto itself.
.
I seem to have no value to women in this age. The women I have attracted is because they found me physically attractive but disposable. So; they are complete strangers. In the past; I had many women that liked me because they could either have a baby with me or they wanted me to take care of their children. I was interested in neither.
.
God/Universe brings me who or what I want; and having very little until that time puts pressure on me.
.
Im working, to work through this stuck bottleneck concerning the universe; trusting the universe.
.

Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?
0 Comments Viewed 332 times

Who is online

Registered users: AProphet, ArchCannon, Aries411, Baidu [Spider], Bing [Bot], CheckOneSibilance, Dissolved, GKOKD, Google [Bot], Google Adsense [Bot], Google Feedfetcher, Hyuukichan123, IainEtc, Johnny-Jack, justonemoreperson, Majestic-12 [Bot], myce, NakNakNak, Scarlett5, shimtie, StuckInGuilt, theBalancingAct, Traviswot, wc24x7