Im not sure what to do about social isolation! I dont know! However, I have an answer; a long shot! Create what I want in my head; believe it so much that it begins to wear cloths and show up in front of me; thats what Im going to do! Go after a social dream! This dream include mainly what I want! the kind of people I want to show up around me! Its very hard for me to believe! it hurts as I start writing about it!
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I hate shallow 2 faced people! I hate shallow 2 faced Godless women; I cant stand them! Or this facias socialism that is going on in our country! its joking the life out of every God living American in this place; ridiculous!
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I was some what liberal when young; meaning i was a liberal republican! Now; this has no meaning; and the word liberal is little better then nazi facism these days!
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Where Can I explain and express my options and learn to be myself again! and who will appreciate it; meaning; appraise me! They dont have to appreciate my words! I want them to appreciate me! They dont have to understand me or listening to me; just love me for who I am! and I say that in a sincere way!
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I have no interest in being around people that dont appreciate me! its a waist of time!
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Ive tried to work with the universe to understand where I am suppose to be! and I never get any signals concerning anything! nothing! its all blocked or does not exist!
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My social life does not exist; thats why their is non! For it to exist; it must develop in my imagination!
and that is a hard thing!
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This is the hardest thing Ive ever manifested;' I did it once when I was 14; and the most beaufufl girl was brought to me by God; perfect! and now; I want it again!