Social is pulling me back into its life!
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Im getting stronger but still have dissociative disorder! My intellect is coming back; meaning, Im connecting to it again; its not in a separate dissociative state. Its starting to show itself; its the young real child me! the one that thinks and feels and intellectualizes and does well in school and with people and life; the real direction; its coming out now; little little bits!
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What was missing; the real me; the real intellectual me! The direction me!
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Social; Im being pulled into it!
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I'm being pulled into social;
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The goal is to be up in close in the tension of women; in her grill! telling stories of vulnerability! Stories that let my feelings out around women! I know Ill start crying, no matter what direction I go! and I guess that will happen until I let all the pain out!
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At the top of things; Im only interested in quality women that I can let my feelings out! I want no fakers!
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Interactions; talking, approaching, standing in front of; feeling good about myself; showing my feelings in front of women!
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The goal is the center of society and people! The center is the safest place.